In a place of fantasy like this, I do want to let my inner desires out-but I also want to be considerate of everyone here because we always bring many pieces of ourselves from the outside world. The last few days have been a learning experience for me. The lesson is to find a balance with my frankenstein like sex-drive and to make sure that I communicate what I would like to share inbefore I cross more deeply into topics and across the boundaries of someone else.
Being fair and kind - which probably sounds ridiculous for a man with BDSM fantasies running 24/7 - means taking care when I'm chatting, commenting, etc to take only as much as I give. I was lucky enough to find a gracious person who illustrated things to me in a very practical way. So, I will know to handle conversations with more humanity and thinking a little despite being aroused. Rules I need, even in a make-believe world.
I've always been the sort of person that wanted to please others. In life, this is usually hit and miss. Part of my experience here-especially in the last few weeks-has been to realize how much pleasure I get, knowing that someone else is orgasming-or at least turned on.
This goes beyond just the sexiness of it-it's more. The idea that I something I have done has become a stimulant and then a sediative to them. The woman I interact with, I just love pleasing, even though we have not met in the real. Our dirty fantasies are a connection that is secret and deep and fufilling. And when I know I have touched them there, in that sensitive spot-nothing like it.
So, while it may not stop wars or feed the hungry, knowing I am bringing that fiery pleasure-especially to some-is like a little orgasm itself. Of course, it's never long before I follow that with a real orgasm 😉
After getting to interact with some amazingly sensual people on this site, I find myself completely immersed in the idea of a mature woman giving herself up to a BDSM fantasy. I don't like the harder, harsher edges of some role play as a rule: what I do love is that mixture of fear, surprise and shock that can inhabit a person's mind.
I love inventing these sorts of fantasies, because it gives me a chance to enter that mind. I'm not just experiencing the scenario, I'm inhabiting this often sure-headed, powerful, mature female personality as it is challenged. I think less of the perpetrator than of his or her quarry. To that end, I'm equally if not more turned on when another female takes the aggressive stance.
Just some thoughts - and I have to say - to those who have corresponded with me - thank you so much for your erotic, exciting responses. It is a high form of pleasure, and greater still knowing that for both of us it is only a fantasy.
