Can't belief its summer all ready....2024 is total shit....nothing good ever happens 2 me! I fuckin tried 2 get Keisha 2 take me back + b my gf again but she blocked me on her phone + change the locks + kept all my shit + basicly ghost me even though I know where she lives but im 2 afraid 2 try 2 even nock on the door now b cuase the last times I went there she litarally beat the shit out of me like she wanted 2 kill me im.not even joking !!!!! I tried my key on the lock + it didn't work + I started poundig on the door saying 2 let me in 2 talk or at least 2 give me my clothes + shit + she told me 2 go away + then her new gf came 2 the door + told me 2 fuck off + die + I was like wtf u have this new girl living there + wearing MY CLOTHES???? + she is like there not ur clothes any more u stupid white bitch u owe rent + I took ur clothes 4 pay. None of this is urs no more!!!!" + I was totaly humilitsted + Keisha said that's right u shit head bitch this is ur replacement she's 10 years younger + NOT WHITE lol so I traded up...... it's so fucking depressing!!!! I'm 34....Keisha is like 20 somethings...her new gf is a black girl but looks half white + she is like 18 looking.... I hate BEING OLD!!!!!!! so I tried 2 get my clothes back at least + was sort of pulling on the new gf...I know I'm fucking retaeded....I forgot im a white + can't fight a BLACK there so superiors at fight.... so the new gf fucking got my arms pin behind my back + it felt like she's going 2 brake them !!!! + while I am pinned Keisha started 2 punch the shit out of my stomache so hard + then punche my face so hard im afrid she's going to brake my jaw or nock out my teeth she gave me 2 black eyes and busted up my lip real bad + broke my fucking nose that I have had broken so many fucking times all ready!!!! She yank my hair real hard so I bdnd down back ward + punch my neck so hard I fall down when her gf let go of me. I could not hardly breath then + was bleeding all over my face + she fucking basicly throws me down the stares its like 6 steps down + I hit my head on the ground + fuckin blacked out. I think 1 or both of them pisswd on me b cuase I wake up wet and smell like piss!!!!! So I didn't go back again + have pretty much give up that Keisha will love me back......

I cant belief its 2024!!!!! Omg I'm so fucking old lol I'm 34 now!!! Total MILF LOL or is it cougars I all ways get them mix up. My gf Keisha sort of broke up with me like she still fucks me but has other gfs 2 not exculsive + I feel like im not even 1st choice any more but I'm still total in love with her so it sucks but im trying 2 b so good she wants me back. I still live wit her but alot of nights I have 2 sleep on the couch in the orherroom b case she's fucking an other girl. I don't know what 2 do. My life is all ways fucked up. Some times u feel like I should stop doing drugs + try 2 b straight + live a fucking white life + find some fucking white boy 2 marry me excetp I HATE WHITE EVERYTHJNG. I don't know. I'm depressed I guess. My sister told me im fucked in my head + need therrapy + medds. I went off the medds I was on. I guess I should be kn them + probalby others ones 2. I don't know. I fucking hate life. I hate being whitr. I hate being me. I hate being old. I wish I was young + BLACK + fucking loved life or ehat ever it is normal people do. Does every 1 hate her self like I do??????? is it normal????? I feel so fucked up some times. Some times I feel like I should just suicide. I don't think any body would even care not even my parents or sisters. I don't even know if my daughters would care they don't even see me as there mkm since I am not the 2 raising them. I'm unfit they said + my parents r raising them even thouhgu therr half black. I'm such a fucked up peoce of shit. Why the fuck do I even live