SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1129.
For the feminized sissy cuckold one if not the most difficult things to come to terms with and to cope with is when your fantasies become reality.
Fantasy is a great place where everything is as we say strawberries and cream and you are just a mass of arousal, where’s in real life the emotions you feel are all to real and overwhelming not to mention you now actually see, smell and taste the diabolical things your loved one is doing as a cuckoldress.
Many feminized sissy cuckolds will tell you of the emotional shock, tears, mental scaring,feelings of angst and rejection a rollercoaster ride plunging you lower than you ever thought possible with the only saving rope of sanity being overwhelming power of the sexual arousal that you will be swept away by that turns all your other emotions in part of the erotic events in your life.
In the early days before your cuckoldress cuts off your avenue to sissygasms you will experience little sissy squirts that are so powerful and violent that anything else pales into insignificance thus forever trapping you into your like as a feminized sissy cuckold.
So be aware when you go down this road that there is no way back ever.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1128.
To this day I still shudder when I think back to when Fran used me for the first time as a full sissy toilet.
This was after I had cleaned her dirty bottom on my first visit to her house and this happened about a week later.
Fully femmed up again and after a long period of worshipping her stocking clad feet, body and pussy Fran led me to her bathroom where I was ordered to lay on the floor.
She then stood over my head i just the black suspender belt she had on, black stockings and high heels.
Then she squatted facing down my lingerie clad body and my nasty offending little erection that ached with the perversities that she was inflicting on me.
Once fully squatted her bottom was split wide and her sphincter was inches from my mouth and she ordered me to lick her twitching hot dirty butt hole.
I gladly lifted my head a little and got my tongue to work on her sticky bottom tasting her foul dirt that I am ashamed to say turned me on even more (I know I am a sick deviant and I have never been able to help it!)
As I licked and probed her asshole my tongue suddenly met something that pushed my probing tongue out of her anus and her sphincter started to expand.
As this obscenity started Fran was ordering me to continue lick around the shit that was coming out of her rectum and to capture the turd in my mouth and to eat it!
Yes I gagged and my body went stiff with repulsion as I obeyed and I knew I was going to be ill but I was so intent on complying with what Fran wanted that I managed to consume the three dirty sordid logs she dumped in my mouth straight from her bowels and as I ate she knew what I was as my little erect penis exploded releasing it’s perverted white weak sissy milk.
As soon as Fran stood up and moved away she knew I was going to be ill and let me at the toilet where my body rejected the inedible.
Thing is later Fran explained that I would get used to it because it was a supreme way for someone like me to serve a woman and because I was ejaculating during the act of consuming her shit I would crave it time after time as the intensity of my sissygasm would pull me back to the act no matter what I felt about it.
One thing I can tell you is that Fran right about becoming addicted to being a feminized sissy cuckold toilet and over the time she used me she got me used to eating the content of her bowels.