SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 808.
Over the years of being a feminized sissy cuckold I have had periods between marriages when I have seen quite a few Ladies of the night and all of them have after I have explained what I was looked kindly upon my visits.
Not only have they given the sweet taunting teasing humiliation I need, the foot worship, ass licking, pussy eating and denial I spoke of all have on subsequent visits advised me on what time they wanted me to come to them as all working ladies have certain clients they do bareback and they all want to have a feminized sissy cuckold lick them clean which I of course am more than happy to comply with.
My other craving to serve as a toilet for the Cuckoldress is also liked as many working women have a side to them that needs to take things out on men and there I am ready for them to piss on, spit on and shit on or in and all of them afterwards have spoken about what a delightful grudge easer my submission is to them.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 807.
Life was never going to be easy being born with a tiny penis mine never grew beyond a three-and-a-half-inch slim failure of manhood and due to a school fight early on I also lost one of my little testicles.
When I lost my testicle, I was already secretly putting on my mother’s panties and tights and was aware that my penis was small to say the least and that there was something wrong with me by the way I was thinking about women?
I had already acquired the naughty habit of sneaking into the laundry hampers of my mother’s girlfriends and licking and sniffing the gussets of their dirty tights and panties and I knew it was a shameful naughty thing to do that could lead me into untold trouble, but I could not stop myself!
So mentally when that dead testicle was removed, I saw myself even less of a male even at that early age and literally told myself that the sexual things I was thinking and the dressing in women’s clothes was the right thing for a failure like me.
At that point in life I had not even heard of the word transvestite let alone Feminized sissy cuckold all that was to come later as I found out what I truly was.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 805.
For the Feminized sissy cuckold one of the most beautiful sights but also so damaging is when the wife fully slutted up in hot lingerie, sheer black seamed fully fashioned stockings and high heels has her legs up and wide open and a real man is mounting her.
A man with let’s say a thick dripping foot long cunt buster that he eases into her sloppy wet ready pussy and she realizes she is in for sex like she has never had before specially from you.
And it’s that look on her as inch after inch opens her wide and goes deeper and deeper racing her to what she knows will be a god almighty orgasm that will blow her stockings off!
For you the feminized sissy cuckold husband it’s the whole gambit of emotions as your true sexuality is fulfilled by the woman you love taking real men into her body and that she loves you so much she will once she has drained the man make you lick her clean!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 804.
It’s always an awe-inspiring sight to see the look on women’s faces when they find out you’re a Feminized sissy cuckold and not just another run of the mill transvestite.
The situations I am speaking of here are of women other than your wife or partner who it mostly effects and who’s reactions can be wildly different.
No I a looking at women in general now firstly if a group of women come across your sexuality and mien and once the penny has dropped that you’re a fucked pussy licking crossdressing submissive the hilarity, teasing and tormenting will start.
You can be sure that if a flock of women are with you rather like a hen night or a girls night out they will egg each other on to make you do things for them the obvious is that they will all want to see your penis or lack of it and just wait for the crazed whoops of joy when they see that you’re in chastity.
And there is a good chance you’ll end up licking some sticky pussy and dirty assholes before the evening is out so all the girls can see that you were not just bullshitting them!
Now if it’s a woman on her own who discovered your real self you can be assured that you will be smothered with every question possible and then some as the lady will find what you are irresistibly interesting and it may well be down to your honesty and the way you present yourself as to if she decides she would like a go at being a Cuckoldress.
The key word is if talking about you and your needs be honest, tell the truth as women have this knack of seeing through bullshit.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 803.
I suppose like many feminized sissy cuckolds there is a fear and terror about homosexuality as many of us do not start out as queer it’s something that is foisted upon us over time.
For me it was firstly being interfered with by my stepfather a totally unwanted occurrence but one that obviously had implications for my already secret self of dressing up in women’s items.
What the result was from my stepfather was the shame and humiliation that I did not stop it due to my already submissive nature and also, he brought on little erections and ejaculations from me with what he did.
Lucky, he had no knowledge of my dressing up till much later in life when I bumped into him again quite by chance which is a whole other chapter of my sissy cuckold life.
But needless to say, the abuse, because that was what it was gave me fear, abhorrence and terror of anything homosexual.
So, it has always struck me as funny, odd, strange call it what you will that as I grew, I found myself in situations I completely did not seek that involved men.
Yes, you might well say that slurping sperm out of women’s pussies, anuses or off their bodies is not exactly straight but for me it’s not out and out homosexuality it’s something right on the edge the woman in control taking away responsibility from the feminized sissy cuckold.
What shamed me was that whenever a homosexual situation reared its ugly head I froze like a rabbit in a cars headlights at night so humiliating events happened like the dirty old man that sat next to me in a Soho porn theatre where I had been sitting quietly alone my skirt eased up and my little penis all stiff and leaking as I caressed it gently watching the fuck movies.
I almost feinted when he slid into the seat next to me and before I could react his hand was on my tiny erection, and he breathed heavily like the pervert he was as he wanked me off bringing me to a powerful sissygasm that saw my sissy milk shoot hard into the air in the dank theatre.
Afterwards as I scrambled to straighten my skirt and made a flight from the theatre I accepted that being brought off had felt nice but it had been so seedy and degrading and I was ashamed of myself for letting it happen as if I had said no or made a fuss the man would have done a runner but I suppose with me being an obvious transvestite in a porno cinema he must have felt the odds were on his side.
I suppose thinking back he must have felt let down seeing me run away after cumming as I expect he reckoned on a wank or a blow job from me!
Now once I was married to a cuckoldress wife and all decisions were taken away from me and I had to carry out all orders and commands I would have sucked him, wanked him or let him fuck me as you soon learn as a Feminized sissy cuckold that you have no human rights and no right or refusal for anyone that wants you.

I love women so much xoxo Nina

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 802.
The Cuckoldress wife soon learns that the sexually frustrated and denied Feminized sissy cuckold is the best sort to have!
Allowing your feminized sissy cuckold to squirt hither and dither is one of the worst mistakes a Cuckoldress wife can make and in many relationships it’s a hard learned fact.
Not only does the sissy cuckold dribble lower the sissy cuckolds span of attention to its cuckoldress it can lead to hissy sissy fits of silly male tantrums and also a slacking off of the work ethos that has so sternly been pit into the sissy cuckold re his maid’s duties.
Lucky for all of us the internet not only informs feminized sissy cuckolds that he is not alone in his submissive needs it is also there for women to learn the many things that effect a feminized sissy cuckold, and the main one is the denial of all sexual relief unless she deems it to happen.
So, you can bet your bottom dollar if you are just starting your life journey to be a feminized sissy cuckold that your wife will know just how to take full control of that nasty little penis of yours.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 801.
I think that many Feminized sissy cuckolds like me get to a point where masturbation centers on getting to a sissygasm via my sissy gland deep inside my sissy pussy.
My tiny little penis hardly gets touched as over the years it has been brow beaten and whipped into me that touching myself is sinful and dirty and not something a Feminized sissy cuckold should do unless ordered to by its Cuckoldress.
I have been so conditioned over the years that even when alone I feel a huge sense of shame and badness if I touch my little sissy clit and this effected any masturbation making it difficult to squirt as even behind a locked door alone, I actually feel that I am going to be caught out and punished? (Work that one out if you can!)
Then there are issues with my little penis as after so many years of chastity, verbal slander, cutting remarks, sexual denial fear of being aroused under threat of punishment and torture in fact everything that has been heaped upon me from the Cuckoldress Arsenal has destroyed my ability to get and maintain erections.
Shamefully even when I am being fucked with a strap on or worse by a man my little sissy clit flops about as much as a tiny penis can flop about and I sissygasm from a limp little clit.
The only comfort I take is that with the advent of the internet and being able to contact like-minded people and other Feminized sissy cuckolds a lot of us sissy girls are alike when it comes to penis issues.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 800.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold I like many have certain weaknesses that I cannot control, and one is for a certain tone of tights which are American Tan.
The reason for this is that they were the color my mother was wearing that shameful night when I was massaging her feet and my little penis swelled and popped out of my pajama bottoms and erected against the silky sole of her foot.
I really thought my life was over at that precise moment, but I could not control getting stiff what with the stocking clad women chasing Benny Hill on the TV and the feel and smell coming from my mother’s feet that she often had me tickle, massage and caress of an evening when we watched television together.
But what happened next blew my mind and opened me up to confessing my supposedly deepest secrets?
There with my little hard on up against her foot Mother suddenly eased her foot aside on her heel and looked at my penis and made a snorting sound of derision.
“Carry on massaging my feet as they are the only important thing in this room for you to concentrate on!” she quipped then ran her foot up my meager length causing my little penis to twitch and spasm and had me on the verge of having a nasty little accident.
So, you can understand why American tan tights have become a need in me and I have most of the world’s stock! (hahaahahaa) and it was not just the foot episode as that night also saw Mother inform me that she knew I stole her dirty tights to wear and had me go and put a pair on, that evening the first dirty pair in the laundry basket were black ones but over the coming months and years I wore hundreds of pairs of Mothers worn and soiled American tan tights hence cementing the fetish for them so deeply I am helpless to resist.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 799.
I wrote yesterday about feminized sissy cuckold masturbating, being caught out and having to ingest the pathetic dribble our bodies produce all nature’s way of getting us ready for creampie work.
In yesterday’s piece was reference to out small useless little penises and why we can never be classed as masculine in any manner.
Of course, our shame and humiliation of not even coming close to measuring up makes us very insecure and literally terrified of real men with acceptable cocks.
In our harsh world some of us would have wrongly been put to cock at a developing stage thus making the acts we have to do as a Feminized sissy cuckold all that much more frightening and scarier?
Our Cuckoldresses know of course that we carry this fear of real men who take over all sexual duties to the women in our lives and it amuses the Cuckoldress to exploit that fear and terror because we are feminized and put us to cock in so many ways.
There is of course sucking wet slimy cocks clean after they have fucked your Cuckoldress as part of the creampie clean up duty and associated with that is dirty cock cleaning after they have indulged in anal sex.
The Cuckoldress also likes to be entertained, and many will make their feminized sissy cuckold have sissy sex with another sissy cuckold for a laugh with the other wife of her girlfriends.
Or the more serious giggles she can get in making sissy cuckold have a boyfriend some homosexual or perverted sex starved male who will fuck anything, there is also fetish and sex parties where the Cuckoldress makes sissy cuckold available to anyone who wants to fuck its holes.
Then as a last thought if the Cuckoldress wife is sinful and wicked enough she might enjoy the status as a Cuckoldress Pimpess and make sissy cuckold earn her money fucking men for money and many wives find they get a terrific income stream as so many girls are going only for black guys or money loaded men these days the rest of white masculinity has to turn to what looks like a woman to get their end away.