SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 857.
One of the most humiliating days in my life as a feminized sissy cuckold was early on a little time after the fancy dress party my mother got me to go to dressed as a woman and as already written about it led to my exposure to adult things with Pam and Fran her girlfriends.
Now although Mother allowed me to wear her dirty tights and nighties at home I never for one moment thought that Pam and Fran would spill the beans about the sort of adult things they were getting me to do with them!
But women being women who all love a gossip when they got together the talk of course ended up about their sex lives, the men they were seeing and now what pretty little Carla was doing for them.
I almost collapsed one evening when Mother with a sly grin on her face asked me if I liked kissing Pamela’s pussy after she had been with one of her many boyfriends?
My face felt beetroot red and Mother had to prod me with her nylon clad foot that was on my lap as I massaged her feet to get my answer which was a low terrified “Yes”
Worse was to come though when Mother also mentioned Fran and what she had made me do?
How do you confess to your mother that you obeyed a woman and licked her spermy shitty anus clean and then later lay there under Fran my mouth open as she squatted and used my mouth as a toilet from both her bladder and bowels.
To this day I feel it would have been easier for me if Mother had been appalled and angry, but it was her mien and the naughty sly grin she had as I confessed even having to bring up that my little penis had made a mess when Fran filled my mouth with her dirt.
Back then I still did not get a label for what I was Mother just called me Sissy, Carla or my little transvestite it was only much later when the words Feminized sissy cuckold came to light!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 856.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold how did you feel and react the first time your mouth was used as a urinal?
It’s quite a thing when you think about it there you are already in a humbling position dressed as a female and the person you are with decides that they have such power over you that they can happily foist on you any indignity they please.
What I found most shameful was after years of sniffing and sucking on piss aroma gussets the torrent of piss that came out of Fran’s pussy into my mouth caused me to have an aching little erection something that Fran saw straight away as she emptied her bladder into my mouth forcing me to drink it all down.
From that moment I was hooked on urine from the women that dealt with me as a Feminized sissy cuckold.
In times of desperation when it has felt like I am in the middle of the Sahara where Cuckoldresses are concerned I even turn to quaffing my own to quell the pangs of kinky need.
The big step of course and very demeaning is accepting that men can use your mouth as well to urinate in, there is something even more freaky drinking piss coming straight out of a cock.
The guys actually like doing this to the feminized sissy cuckold as it gives them a power boost on top of the fact they are fucking your wife.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 855.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I was sitting thinking the other day trying to recall the last time I did a sissy squirt that I did not lick up and consume as it the natural order of things for pathetic sissies like us.
And I struggle to actually recall? Even when first sexually active I was licking my mess up after masturbating and when it came to females what few of them there has been I always seemed to go down on the lady to get her off as I could never do that with my tiny penis
Sure, there must have been a time or two when I just let me dribble go but for the most part, I catch it in my hand if in a dirty place and lick it up or if the area is hygienic or expressly ordered to, I will lick from the floor or anywhere basically.
Being a Feminized sissy cuckold means you have no rights to refuse a command from a woman so one time when Fran a lady I knew had me sissy squirt onto one of her fresh logs of shit then ordered me to lick my mess off her perfect turd I obeyed without hesitating!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 854.
In general, black guys have become more at ease with the Feminized sissy cuckold husband around.
This probably stems from their desire to fuck white married women and the fact that after a while playing hide and seek with the lady is just inconvenient.
So with many married women openly informing the guys that they are married and hubby knows and even the fact that she has him at home feminized and chastity locked the need for secrecy is no longer needed and the black guy comes to understand that his sexual kick is much heightened by being able to fuck his slut in front of the husband and that said husband in chaste and feminized state utterly docile and subservient suits him just fine.
Many black guys are fine upstanding males learn the bull manner via talking to the Cuckoldress and consuming as much cuckold porn as the sissy cuckold does to define his role to make everything much more exciting for the cuckoldress wife and hence the sissy cuckold.
Thus, the stereotype Nigga gangster so much portrayed in porn finds it’s way into the role play the black male puts on giving the Cuckoldress the self-assured confident and arrogant black lover she wants (Note most black guys do not have to pretend they have a big cock)
Also the black guy understands that the marriage he is involved in as a bull cannot be torn apart and I a union of understanding and sharing thus he see’s no need for exclusivity hence his openness in bringing in his pals to help please the wife (all it seems like the move into multiple black men taking her) making the life of the feminized sissy cuckold pure heaven and hell.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 853.
One thing the Feminized sissy cuckold has to accept if it is placed in chastity is that for no reason will the device be removed by the wife for such trivial things as a visit to the doctor or flying off on holiday.
In fact, it’s good that your doctor knows you’re a Feminized sissy cuckold and your locked in chastity your medical notes will reflect this as a plus probably stating you’re coming out as a feminized sissy cuckold has reduced your danger or any mental health issues from living as they say in the closet.
And as for airports worry not you certainly are not the first feminized sissy cuckold to pass through the metal detectors and pulled into a side room so the staff can expose your pathetic penile state locked up in chastity, they have seen it all before but do like a good laugh! (at your expense obviously)
Be proud sissy cuckolds and take the humiliations on the chin you know its character building at the end of the day!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 852.
What a pathetic state us Feminized sissy cuckolds are reduced to from the start when we know in ourselves, we are not going to make it as men as our desires from the onset are kinky and shameful and our little penises never grew beyond boyhood size.
Then our already shattered male persona’s a further crushed by the reaction of girls and women when they see us and their utterly soul destroying and cruel rejection of what little manhood we have.
Then the end comes when we are caught out dressing up in women’s lingerie, hosiery and clothes and even cosmetics.
Is there any wonder that so many of us Feminized sissy cuckolds try to be as girlie as possible to get as far away from any hint of masculinity as we are able to as that has always been a deep source of shame and humiliation for us.
Far better the world sees us as Feminized sissy cuckolds loved and appreciated for what we are by enlightened women and men who accept we are useful if they are with a Cuckoldress wife.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 851.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold can you hand on heart actually recall what sexual intercourse actually felt like?
I know I have trouble recalling the feeling all I seem to rely on these days is the words silky, wet, warm etc.
And for the most part of us we have no idea what the depths of a woman’s pussy feels like as our little sissy clits hardly passed the ladies labia lips when she lowered herself to entertain us.
Of course, we as Feminized sissy cuckolds become dab hands at oral sex but is there a sissy cuckold among us that can put into words what a clean freshly washed pussy tastes like!
I know I cannot as for as long as I can recall I have only ever been fed spermy fucked pussy or one’s that are sweaty, pissy and dirty or bleeding which you could argue is a natural taste?
At the end of the day my fellow sissy cuckolds I think we all know at the end of the day we do not deserve anything sweet and fresh tasting.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 850.
As you develop into your true self of being a feminized sissy cuckold you come up against woman after woman who brazenly tells you that your penis is underdeveloped, worthless and insignificant.
This is something you already know as you grow up seeing your peers developing into real men where’s you remain much the same as when you were a boy.
All this re-enforcement of fact from the women around you or those who get to see it makes you believe more and more that you are useless and come to truly believe that your own masculinity needs suppressing and even wiping out.
Thus, the urges to become a feminized sissy cuckold take hold even more even if you are yet unaware of the words of what you are just yet.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 849.
Back in the mists of time when I was developing into the yet unknown world of the feminized sissy cuckold I was already addicted to women’s tights’ panties and the holy grail of stockings.
Of course, the start point, with shamefully with my mothers which she finally exposed and fostered but I also became a laundry basked bandit of her girlfriends always finding an opportunity to visit the bathroom when around their homes.
I would shake in need and desire finding panties that were heavily soiled, and I would lick and suck on the dirty gussets in a submissive frenzy as with the tights I found.
At times it was all too much, and I would actually steal a pair of tights if there were more than one pair in the hamper to wear later to experience the sordid thrill of squirting in them thinking of the owner doing totally gross things to me!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 848.
With Tania my second ex-wife the Dominatrix, escort and cuckoldress there was never any chance for me from the onset.
Being a Dominatrix, she already knew full well the sort of shit feminized sissy cuckolds get up to when their wife is out on a date so both penile and anal chastity were fitted from date one to ensure no masturbation.
She often mentioned that being out on a date with me locked up securely at home allowed her to relax more and really let her hair down not having to worry about me getting up to any perverted sissy cuckold shit at home.