SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 885.
With Christmas almost upon us once again (and by God does it come round quick the older you get) I have been mulling over many a Christmas past being a Feminized Sissy Cuckold specially the formative years after I was caught out.
Yes it was the years of double presents not only the minimum of presents for a young male but also the clothes, hosiery, make up and lingerie for the sissy.
My Mother delighted in shopping for my presents, and I would blush with excitement when I opened gift for sissy cuckold Carla like my first pairs of expensive stockings, my first Basque, red high heels and later making me go almost as red as the high heels I got my first dildo.
And it was not only Mother that brought me girl things Pam, Fran and Wendy also lavished me with female gifts.
Later when I was married to Tania all pretence of gifts for a male were dropped and I only got things for sissy cuckold Carla and to this day now I live openly as what I am I only get Carla gifts.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 884.
One thing I can assure all new feminized sissy cuckolds is that your wife’s girlfriends will egg her on every inch of the way once she tells them what you begged to become, or she caught you out dressed and made up doing filthy things to yourself while looking at sissy cuckold porn.
Women when they find out about a male’s weakness will be savage in their destruction of that male and your new cuckoldress wife will never want for ideas from her friends how to humiliate and abuse you.
Of course like all women you wife will feel much better about herself with the support and comfort of her friends and will start to revel in her new Cuckoldress self, going further and further into depravities just to prove herself in front of them.
Worse is to come for the feminized sissy cuckold though when your wife allows her girlfriends access to you as they all want to see your feminization, chastity and servility.
They will also demand of your wife that they see proof that you’re a spunk slurping creampie clean up sissy cuckold and even the toilet your wife has started to use you as.
The verbal abuse you will receive off of your wife’s friends will be horrendous not to mention physical abuse as your Cuckoldress will not want to feel that her friends miss out on the fun.
The pits of your torment will be when your wife for her entertainment and her friends is when she makes you have sissy sex in front of them or has gay men use you as fuck meet to amuse them.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 883.
For a Feminized Sissy Cuckold husband one of the hardest things to come to terms with and get used to is if the Cuckoldress wife decides to take him down the road of becoming a Sissy Cuckold toilet.
Now with experience of this type of servitude I can state that ingesting urine is not really an issue and can be highly erotic from the onset when your wife starts urinating directly into your mouth, the hard part is taking her hot stinking shit into your now toilet mouth and eating it.
As a feminized sissy cuckold you have to get your mental space right and work hard at eating your wife’s waste and it’s only because you strive to be a perfect sissy cuckold for her and to be of at least some use to her now she is a Cuckoldress that you break through the barrier of taboo and disgust and manage to keep fecal matter down.
The good news is, if you can class it as good news once you’re over the bodies natural reaction to reject eating human waste you will suffer the shame of coming to realize that you are starting to like eating shit and an addiction will grip you that you’ll find is more powerful than any opiate.
But for the feminized sissy cuckold the Cuckoldress wife will never stop with the torment, torture and horror and come the day the feminized sissy cuckold will be informed that from that point onwards he has to act as a toilet to all her male friends.
This new reality for the feminized sissy cuckold is really the one that finally crushes what little masculinity it might have or self-worth as the piss and shit from a man that’s fucking your wife is an horrendous step for the sissy cuckold to have to submit to, but submit it will as the fear of displeasing the Cuckoldress wife is something the feminized sissy cuckold truly fears through any disobedience to his wife!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 882.
Men will be men and that is a fact and with the reported facts that the dating game for white males has gone down the shitter these days more and more guys will happily gets sucked off and spunk in the mouth of a feminized sissy cuckold so long as they can conceal the deed form their mates.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I am as guilty as many other sissy cuckolds starved of spunk when divorced and not in any type of female relationship at various times in my life and I have disgraced myself to suck cock to get the jizz fix us sissy cuckold cannot live without.
Although it’s not the same as licking spunk out of a fucked pussy or anus spunk direct from an erect cock has its own powerful status over us Feminized sissy cuckolds and the men these days that are using us and use us they do as they regard us by the way we dress and make up as sluts and they fuck our skulls with only their own depraved pleasure in mind calling us all the most vile sexually derogatory names known to man as they face fuck our throats no different than they would a hot wet pussy.
I suppose like many other Feminized sissy cuckolds I pride myself in looking utterly sexy in all the sexy lingerie, stockings and heels along with a tarty dress to encourage the guys sexual excitement and I give what I consider my most slut like sloppy blow job to see how fast I can draw the cock snot out of the guys cock swallowing it all down like a greedy whore.
Of course, guys know that going with a sissy cuckold is homoerotic at it’s base and many guys will only ever face fuck as sissy cuckold to dump their sexually frustrated loads using out mouths as a cum dump to ease their tensions.
But this in an important but with the lack of women dating white guys added to the fact that even if the guy does get a girlfriend she is utterly against him even looking at her bottom let alone touching it guys out there all desire to try anal sex at some point and once they have face fucked a feminized sissy cuckold they realize that putting morals aside in private with this slutty version of a female replicant he can experience all his dirty base sexual perversions giving the sissy cuckolds back pussy a right pounding confident in the fact that the feminized sissy cuckold never says no to any perverted sexual practices.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 881.
One thing as a Feminized sissy cuckold I have learned the hard way over the years is that you must learn to listen very carefully to what your Cuckoldress says and I mean every word uttered from her pouting red painted lips.
The reason for this is the female’s knack of using words in a very subtle way that can have dire consequences for the feminized sissy cuckold!
One year at Christmas Tania asked me which was a shock in the first place if I wanted custard or cream with my Christmas pudding when she was discussing what we were to have come the day!
Of course, I felt honored that she my beautiful Cuckoldress wife had bothered to even ask as usually that never happened, she made all the decisions for me, now I have always been partial to a spot of cream with Plum pudding so voiced my preference not knowing that this would lead to shame and humiliation.
Unbeknown to me she had invited Priddy her escort girlfriend round for the day as well as Peter and Jeff our gay neighbors at the time and the cream I actually got was them throat fucking me till they spunked.
Another time caught off guard Tania promised me that she was going to fuck me, of course my hopes soared as I had literally forgot the last time I had sex with Tania my sexy beautiful wife.
What actually transpired was that Tania good to her word did fuck me but the sex she failed to make clear to me was harsh urethral fucking with the stiletto heel of her shoes a very painful experience.
My word of advice to any Feminized sissy cuckold is no matter how good the deal sounds from your Cuckoldress wife do not get your hopes up as nothing is ever as it seems!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 880.
Castration or Penectomy? The choice is yours as a Feminized sissy cuckold this one time your good lady Cuckoldress wife has decided you deserve to make the decision in your life (Remember sissy this is hypothetical, no Cuckoldress in her right mind would allow you ever to make a choice for yourself)
So, what do you choose?
Castration has it’s merits if the Cuckoldress wife wants you completely servile and docile and if your one of those feminized sissy cuckolds that forever struggles with the lifestyle the removal of the testis can be a boon ridding you of all sexual urges and desires for good making you much calmer and also your silky little panties are going to fit much better.
Then there is Penectomy the actual removal of your silly little penis and incorporating the fashioning of a new little pee hole behind your tiny sissy ovary sack, of course the Penectomy in no way reduces your sexual desires and urges in fact studies have shown that a Penctomized sissy will undergo much heightened sexual needs so much so it can lead to sexual insanity.
And of course, like the Castration panties will fit much better.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold myself and talking to many a Cuckoldress the consensus comes down firmly on the side of Penectomy because half the Cuckoldresses fun in life is the torment and torture of their feminized sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 879.
One of the most difficult things for the new Feminized sissy cuckold is the transition from being a fantasy-based sissy into magazine’s, internet porn and sneaky dressing up and living in hope!
Up till you find your wife fucking other men of catching you out and deciding that the Cuckoldress status is for her you deal only with your all-powerful sexual urges’ kinks and perversions.
But when you step over the line into the real world not only do you have to cope with all of the above, but you also now have to deal with raw emotions.
Do not forget you’ve been brought up in a world where what you are is utterly shameful and you have been conditioned to be a man and act as one even if from an early age you knew you were a failure and the women in your life reenforced that if a significant woman like you Mother or Aunt caught you out dressing up and caught sight of your shockingly small manhood.
Now with your wife cuckolding you, you are going to have to cope with a roller coaster of feelings and emotions that in many cases will utterly crush you as you come to terms with being what you’ve dreamed of for so long.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 878.
If you worry as a Feminized sissy cuckold that your wife even though she has decided to give the lifestyle a go had never shown any interest in black men, you need to rest easy.
Over the years I have talked to quite a few black guys involved with my wives and other females I have had relationships with and all of them confidently state that they can literally sniff out white married women out for a good time.
And more often than not they can see all the signs of a married white Cuckoldress, of course even though they seem to understand what the lady is it’s of course hard for them to know what type of husband he will be dealing with.
Luckily once the chat up starts and the woman finds that the guy is cool with her Cuckoldress status she will fill in the blanks about her husband and all of the black men I have spoken to tell of the relish to be with a woman who has feminized her hubby and has him locked in chastity.