SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 865.
When you think back on it as a Feminized sissy cuckold it is amazing just how fast women can utterly destroy what little masculinity you had in you once they know what you really are and I am not just talking about the females that lowered themselves to be sexually involved with you I am talking about all women wo find out about your sissy cuckold standing in life.
Literally the gossip they spread about you will burn your ears out and everyone you meet will seem to know that you’re a no dick loser of massive proportions.
Women do such a hatchet job on is sissy cuckolds that I was not surprised really when I found myself actually groveling and apologizing to women about not being a man and an utter failure and only good for cleaning up their pussies and anuses after they had sex with real men or acting as their maid or toilet.
When you reach these depths of acceptance you actually loath your men bit (and it is a bit because its so small and insignificant) there is little wonder why so many feminized sissy cuckolds prefer to be safely locked away in chastity to hide their shame.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 864.
The starting tale of my introduction to creampie eating and kinky sexual occurrences with Pamela have already been told but there was an after of many times I was with her.
Once she knew that I secretly dressed in women’s things often and that it had been my mother that had first caught me out and allowed me to wear her worn hosiery at home Pamela was gleefully delighted.
I would be summonsed to Pamela’s home to do little jobs in her way of asking and when with her she would dress and make me up and I would be put to whatever she wanted me to do for her which mostly was eating her to orgasms as well as worshipping her legs and feet something she found highly relaxing and erotic Pamela of course coincided many of my visits to her the night after being with one of the men she saw thus creampie pussy and anus were staple for me to eat and clean which of course I was addicted to.
Sometimes she would supervise me doing some of her housework, especially after my mother informed her and Fran that I was pretty nifty round the home as she had always brough me up to do domestic stuff regardless of my dressing up.
I found it shocking after a while that Fran, Pamela, Wendy and my mother talked between themselves about what they were up to not only with their boyfriends but also with regard to me but as shy and terrified as I was about losing what was now enchanting me I dare not raise any objection to this and gladly suffered the humiliation of everything about me being exposed between these four women and some others that also were informed of my less than manly needs.
Of course back then there was not form of chastity but from the onset Pamela, Fran and to some extent Wendy never directly touched or stimulated my tiny penis their cutting mocking words and what they got me to do were enough to have me doing sissy squirts that even then I was ashamed of and knew were deeply wrong in front of these sexy mature ladies.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 863.
I know us Feminized sissy cuckolds are depraved as fuck and if you look at it there cannot be many other sexual leanings that are so depraved, sordid and sick.
But you know what I mean when I say there is nothing so deeply disturbing and sexy as seeing your wife go off on a date with another man whilst you stand at that bedroom window all feminized seeing her get into her boyfriend’s car.
From that second on when in getting into his car her stocking clad legs showing off so the neighbors are getting an eyeful of not only her sexy way of dressing but it’s another man and maybe a black man picking her up you are in a turmoil of sissy cuckold angst.
How can you explain that feeling of being sick and also being a pent-up sensual bomb at the same time.
As the minutes tick by each feeling like and hour your rabid perverted mind goes through torment like never before knowing your wife is in the arms of another man and on his cock.
We all know that even one touch on your tiny sissy clits will make it explode and we are fearful as we are under strict instructions not to squirt if this is pre chastity days for the sissy cuckold.
By the time your wife comes home you will be a mess of unbelievable proportions like putty willing to do and suffer anything the wife wants to do to you and it will delight her to see that no matter what she has been up to you still love her like nothing else and to make sure that is correct she will delight in making you lick another man’s sperm out of her used and ravaged body showing you that not only will she suck and fuck other men that she gladly give other men her anus as well an act that always has the sissy cuckold on the edge of passing out!

SISSY CUCKOLD FUTURE 862.
Over past few weeks I have been working on my rosebud pump that I purchased as I have this strange need to have my sissy pussy prolapsing with consummate ease.
It is actually a lovely feeling the suction pulling your anal meat out of inside you and when it’s out caressing it feels so sexy and erotic.
This is all part of my work on ruining my sissy pussy with the collection of anal expanders I also have and the whopper dildos that I am using these days.
Yes, it still hurts at times getting some of these huge cocks into myself, but the pain soon passes, and the feelings are out of this world being fucked by them.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 861.
Going on a trip round France next November and while I am in Nantes and Toulouse I am hoping to connect with some kinky sissies or even a Cuckoldress that needs an Anglo cleaning.
Will have to shake out my French tarts outfit like the ones Michelle in Allo, Allo wore often during that great comedy series, a sissy cuckold has to look the part in the depths of France.
So, if you’re reading this and you reside in any of them two cities and fancy meeting drop me a line and see if we spark.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 860.
Let’s be Frank for a moment (well not Frank let’s say Fanny we are sissy cuckolds after all) I think we all know that it’s far better to be dumped and divorced by a wife or partner that rejects your desperate plea about what you are.
Staying in a marriage that will be miserable from then on is no good to either you or your wife and you and she have to be free to find partners which will fulfill your life needs.
This might be painful and also ruinous personally for you if your wife exposes your fetishes and needs during the divorce but take it, it’s all part of the humiliation of what you are and like me and many others in some way you’ll get a sexual kick out of the process.
One thing I can assure you that the nastiness of so many divorces will not cure you of wanting to be a feminized sissy cuckold in fact you’ll run riot trying to find the right lady and also, you’ll slide into sleaze for immediate relief and understanding with other sissy cuckolds, transvestites, gays etc.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 859.
Having suffered being molested by my stepfather the homosexual acts that I have been compelled to do as a Feminized sissy cuckold have been emotionally challenging and stressful and I cannot describe to you the depth of shame and self-loathing I feel.
It is bad enough having to do gay things under the express command of your Cuckoldress but at least because you as a Sissy Cuckold have to obey any order from a woman, she takes the responsibility away from you which give you some buffer to your emotions.
But it never stops there because as much as you hate it being a feminized sissy cuckold you find that the homosexual acts you are involved in are highly pleasurable even though everything in you is screaming No and you fight not to react.
But react you do and as you have a sissygasm as your fucked in the sissy pussy with no actual touching of your little penis your crushed in shame for getting off on queer sex the last vestiges of your masculinity being crushed by gay cock and your femme cuckold desires.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 858.
Being a Feminized sissy cuckold, you have to take on board that you will be exposed to all manner of people.
More so if like me you live dressed as a woman all the time as of course your clocked as a transvestite, crossdresser etc. from the onset wherever you go.
But then in situations like hospital’s, Doctor’s clinics and airports or anywhere you pass through security the fact you’re in a chastity device comes to light.
For myself also with the tattoo “Warning Sissy Cuckold extra small” on my pubis also gives the game away.
In general you can see the people finding out having wider eyes and struggling not to laugh, ladies like nurses at times make comments in a flirty sort of way and some even ask more probing questions, airport staff have taken me into a search room and have had themselves a gas of a time checking me out for safety sake having a laugh at my expense.
There has also been one male nurse that was obviously homosexual that made a date with me and was a really considerate lover for a while.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 857.
One of the most humiliating days in my life as a feminized sissy cuckold was early on a little time after the fancy dress party my mother got me to go to dressed as a woman and as already written about it led to my exposure to adult things with Pam and Fran her girlfriends.
Now although Mother allowed me to wear her dirty tights and nighties at home I never for one moment thought that Pam and Fran would spill the beans about the sort of adult things they were getting me to do with them!
But women being women who all love a gossip when they got together the talk of course ended up about their sex lives, the men they were seeing and now what pretty little Carla was doing for them.
I almost collapsed one evening when Mother with a sly grin on her face asked me if I liked kissing Pamela’s pussy after she had been with one of her many boyfriends?
My face felt beetroot red and Mother had to prod me with her nylon clad foot that was on my lap as I massaged her feet to get my answer which was a low terrified “Yes”
Worse was to come though when Mother also mentioned Fran and what she had made me do?
How do you confess to your mother that you obeyed a woman and licked her spermy shitty anus clean and then later lay there under Fran my mouth open as she squatted and used my mouth as a toilet from both her bladder and bowels.
To this day I feel it would have been easier for me if Mother had been appalled and angry, but it was her mien and the naughty sly grin she had as I confessed even having to bring up that my little penis had made a mess when Fran filled my mouth with her dirt.
Back then I still did not get a label for what I was Mother just called me Sissy, Carla or my little transvestite it was only much later when the words Feminized sissy cuckold came to light!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 856.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold how did you feel and react the first time your mouth was used as a urinal?
It’s quite a thing when you think about it there you are already in a humbling position dressed as a female and the person you are with decides that they have such power over you that they can happily foist on you any indignity they please.
What I found most shameful was after years of sniffing and sucking on piss aroma gussets the torrent of piss that came out of Fran’s pussy into my mouth caused me to have an aching little erection something that Fran saw straight away as she emptied her bladder into my mouth forcing me to drink it all down.
From that moment I was hooked on urine from the women that dealt with me as a Feminized sissy cuckold.
In times of desperation when it has felt like I am in the middle of the Sahara where Cuckoldresses are concerned I even turn to quaffing my own to quell the pangs of kinky need.
The big step of course and very demeaning is accepting that men can use your mouth as well to urinate in, there is something even more freaky drinking piss coming straight out of a cock.
The guys actually like doing this to the feminized sissy cuckold as it gives them a power boost on top of the fact they are fucking your wife.