SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1008.
It’s a big step coming out not only as a cross dresser but the actual you which is a Femininized sissy cuckold.
For the women that learn what you truly are you will never again be thought of as an equal.
To confess that you accept you are worthless as a male and will support the lady you love in her new life as a cuckoldress helping her in every way possible to get her to the peak of femininity to get the men she needs to see to her sexual needs and social desires puts you in her mind as nothing more than an adoring slave/maid who she can rely on to do her bidding.
For your Lady, her love for you changes when she finds out your true nature, she does not fall out of love with you, but her love adapts to her new life, the life which is now all about her and what she wants and desires regardless of how it makes you suffer.
In fact, seeing you suffer is one of the major erotic points of arousal for the Cuckoldress wife.
In my time having spoken to many a Cuckoldress all of them state that back at the first time their husbands licked another man’s sperm out of their recently fucked pussies brought on a climax that they had never experienced before literally an orgasm addicting the wife to being a Cuckoldress.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1007.
The hard facts of life soon become apparent once a husband is either caught out or confesses to its wife or partner that it wants to be a feminized sissy cuckold.
If you are stupid enough to think that after your wife agrees to become a Cuckoldress wife that your little secret will remain between the two of you think again.
No wife on this Gods planet can resist the gossip in telling all of her girlfriends that she is now allowed to have as many boyfriends as she pleases and that you her already sneered upon husband is willingly being feminized and placed in chastity and used as nothing more than a maid, slave and clean up sissy.
These revelations serve to get your wife free drinks all the time, and she becomes the envy of her friends, which in lots of cases impels other wives to become Cuckoldresses as well.
You the feminized sissy cuckold will find that your wife as she gathers confidence in her new life will not in any way keep it under wraps far from it she will revel in her new femininity and sexiness and everyone will know about the type of married relationship you now have.
So, get ready my new sister sissy cuckolds for some major humiliation and shame and let’s face it we deserve it for being what we are.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1006.
The first and foremost duty of the Feminized sissy cuckold is of course licking clean it’s Cuckoldresses pussy and anus after she has indulged with her lovers.
But of almost equal importance is the feminized sissy cuckold also having to suck clean the lover’s cock to get him ready to fuck the sissy cuckold’s wife again.
Cock sucking really does put the Feminized sissy cuckold firmly in its place and the Cuckoldress wife knows full well that having her feminized sissy cuckold husband suck to aching hardness the man that’s going to fuck her pussy or asshole crushes what little masculinity the sissy cuckold might have buried deep inside it.
For many feminized sissy cuckolds running their tongues over than huge hot silky smooth leaking dome then taking it into it’s mouth and sucking on it like it has been taught by the Cuckoldress with dildo’s is mind shattering to such an extent that even if the sissy cuckold abhors homosexuality in the end it will feel crestfallen being pushed away as the man mounts the wife to take her to paradise.
The sissy cuckold by then is filled with humiliation and shame because it finds the cock sucking act sickeningly arousing its own tiny chastity locked sissy clit hurting as sissy slobbers away to produce the cleanest and hardest man cock for its wife.
The Cuckoldress wife will of course know what is happening to her sissy cuckold and in most cases she also wants to see sissy cuckold pushed further into more debased humiliating queer acts so will arrange liaisons for her sissy cuckold with willing men that will sexually abuse her sissy cuckold in front of her for her entertainment.
Thus, the sissy cuckold will begin a new part of life sucking cock to completion and to swallow the spunk that spews forth every drop which will be ingested.
And from cock sucking the sissy cuckold will soon be having its pansy assed sissy cuckold virginity taken as its fucked in the sissy pussy!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1005.
For God knows what reason from an early age as a budding Feminized Sissy Cuckold I started to insert things down the urethra of my tiny little penis.
For some strange reason I got off on the occasional pain and agony of forcing down my urethra things that really packed out the tube
I suppose with knowing my penis was little then learning that everyone that saw it told me that it was little and slandered it in every possible manner I like many other sissies knew it had to be punished.
This circle that gets into your sissy mind is self-feeding from thinking it’s your prized possession an item of ultimate pleasure to the self-loathing of it for it’s all to obvious failures.
Thus, the budding feminized sissy cuckold is preconditioned to accepting sissy clit punishment in every form from chastity to smacks with hand or other implements to needle insertion with every other form of sissy clit torture in between.
And we all know the skilled Cuckoldress has a never-ending list of ways to punish the sissy cuckold clit one of my feared but favorite was and is being subject to urethra fuckings from the Cuckoldress with her high heels a trial of absolute torture.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1003.
As a feminized sissy cuckold you get attuned to certain smells and aromas and they drive you into a frenzy of need and desire.
I think we all know being what we are the delectable scent of a woman used and fucked mixed in with her sweat and stale perfume and even cigarette smoke and alcohol.
Passing a woman like that in the street or in the heat of an enclosed building makes you want to fall at her feet and beg to lick her clean.
When your wife starts coming home smelling like that and flaunting it in your face as she reels you in to clean her up as she relates how naughty she has been and shows you the undeniable proof she knows she can do with you what she wants no matter how humiliating and degrading her ideas are.
Once she has rubbed her scents, smells and aromas into your face making you taste her slutdom you will never forget what you have experienced and you can forget about anything even approaching normal sexual things ever again.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1002.
Since my early days I have had a foot fetish especially feet coated in nylon, this of course was due to my mother’s feet that were always in tights or stockings and her liking of having me massage her feet when we watched TV of an evening.
Of course, then there was the disgraceful incident where I erected against the sole of her nylon clad foot and her disparaging remark about how insignificant my little penis was that led to her making me go and put a pair of her tights on as she exposed that she knew of my sneaky perverted dressing up.
From then on feet were a fixation for me and it was not long before I was kissing, licking and sucking on toes and feet no matter how sweaty and smelly they were.
I literally feint if I see a woman dangle a shoe off her toes specially if her feet are in nylons there is nothing as sexy to witness so alluring and powerful and the dangling woman knows exactly what she is doing capturing the attention of men she wants to fuck and to enslave the males and sissies she wants groveling at her feet.
Of course, feminized sissy cuckolds like me will break the bank to be a cuckoldresses hosiery slave on top of the stupid amounts of money we spend on our own never depleted stock of tights and stockings.
I don’t know about you but if I notice that I have dipped under at least a hundred pairs of tights or stockings in stock at home I get the sweats of fear about running out and have to go on a shopping spree to stock up.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1001.
In all my years as a feminized sissy cuckold it has never ceased to amaze me how women who entertain marriage to us or just dating us all seem to want to see us being fucked and used by men.
It seems to me that many women have an intense interest in seeing this colorful display of what is basically homosexuality with the added twist that gives the woman a thrill knowing the sissy cuckold will be suffering humiliation and shame being used as a piece of fuck meat for a raging queer.
What’s worse for the feminized sissy cuckold is that under strict orders of dire consequences it has to put on an act of really enjoying cock sucking, spunk swallowing, ass rimming and being fucked like a slut.
In my own feminized sissy cuckold mind I have never been attracted to queer sex and only started it under orders of women who wanted to witness the sordid act but I found to my shame and humiliation that no matter how sickened and appalled I was as the act went on my pathetic body reacted and my sissy clit told no lies and I was powerless against the feelings a cock fucking my sissy pussy brought on and then the shame of a sissygasm.
Over the years I have come to accept not only myself as a feminized sissy cuckold but also to revel in the shame and self-disgust and at times have put myself in positions where men have taken advantage of me other than me acting under orders of a woman which mitigates a lot of responsibility for the sordid queer acts.
I suppose a feminized sissy cuckold comes to understand that its role in life is to be used and abused and to serve as a sex toy for anyone that needs sexual relief!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1000.
One of the most devastating occurrences in the life of the feminized sissy cuckold is that moment when it comes under the control of actual women and it’s secret fantasy life becomes reality, prior to the exposure the feminized sissy cuckold lives the life of Riley as the old saying goes,
And don’t say you do not understand as all of us were wanking our little clits till they almost dropped off being an in the closet sissy cuckold.
So, the sudden change of being able to erect fiddle and squirt without by your or leave to being controlled with an Iron fist that denies even erections let alone sissy squirts is mentally crushing and it takes a lot for many feminized sissy cuckolds to come to terms with its predicament.
The difference between having fantasies about being in chastity under a cuckoldress to actually having to live it is a massive hurdle to surmount but no matter how much you suffer during this time because it’s what the Cuckoldress wants there is no option to pull out and the sissy cuckold will just have to suck it up and grow to accept its place in life.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 999.
There is little wonder that the Cuckoldress wife or partner berates us feminized sissy cuckolds for our selfishness when it comes to our relief.
There is no use in denying it us sissy cuckolds think of little else than to achieve our sissy squirt so it’s understandable that the Cuckoldress wife early on steps in and takes full control over our sissy clits and what it can and cannot do.
The control over the feminized sissy cuckold’s sissy clit will become total from enduring chastity and even in extreme cases penectomy the cuckoldress having the penis removed for the good of womanhood world over.
But along with the physical control a Cuckoldress exerts there is also the verbal thus emotional control she subjects sissy cuckold to.
For myself this started early with being exposed by my mother as being a kinky cross-dresser and her sneering comments that I had nothing of any importance as I erected against the sole of her nylon-clad foot and from then on there were disparaging comments, teasing and snide remarks about my as she sweetly put it disability.
Then there was Fran after she had kissed me dressed as a woman where she felt me up at that fancy dress party that she could not fuck me as I was so small and straight away after told every one of her female friends what a small, dicked loser in women’s clothes I was.
From that party onwards when Pamela and Fran used me at their leisure they both in their own ways heaped on the shame and humiliation of my little penis neither one ever allowing me to have intercourse with them only using my mouth for the things they wanted.
Then Wendy got in on the act, and she used small penis humiliation to devastating effect on me in her no-nonsense medical manner.
Back home the sticky subject of masturbation was utterly frowned upon and because it seemed like my mother had eyes on her ass cheeks and a sixth sense about me touching myself any little tugging I did do was fraught with danger so was very limited.
Ejaculations at home tended to be nasty accidents in the tights or panties that I was in or wet dreams.
Later on, when married to Tania she put it in her own sweet loving way when she stated that, If it was not big enough to fuck with there was no earthly reason why she should allow the nasty little thing to erect or allow me the pleasure of filthy wanking let alone squirting my disgusting milk.
And of course, that is our final feminized sissy cuckold shame the sissy milk, as sissy cuckolds we see all too often the prodigious volume of sperm a able big cocked male can produce compared to our little offering that unlike real men’s sperm does not fire out like shots from a cannon arching many feet across the room but ours leaks and dribbles out and on the odd occasion may fly a little to soak our cuckoldresses nylon clad feet earing us well deserved punishment.
And feminized sissy cuckolds also intimately understand as they see and consume sperm so often that a real males load is rich thick and creamy with that salty tang where’s the sissy cuckolds is thin and watery with no consistency at all.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 998.
What causes a young male to end up as a feminized sissy cuckold? It’s a question that rages in every lad that ends up in the lifestyle’s clutches.
Of course, there is on one thing that causes the males downfall but one thing that all budding feminized sissy cuckolds have in common is the fact that when in its first lingerie, hosiery and it masturbates the ensuing pathetic orgasm is life changingly powerful far more intense than anything the budding sissy has every experienced before.
This is nature’s way of fixing the budding sissy cuckold on to its intended life course with utterly no way to combat it and from that squirt onwards the lad is trapped into a life that is consumed with sexual needs that control its every breathing moment.