SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 940.
As Feminized sissy cuckolds we know instinctively that we are weak, pathetic and easily influenced and literally unable to defend ourselves and that we end up believing what we are told.
Take our little pride and joy, growing up we found it a source of shame as we observed our peers blooming into manliness whilst we remained small and ineffectual.
And of course, when women came to know us they zeroed in on our lack of manhood and thus started the constant put down’s, rejection, jibes and the million and one snide comments until the day we suddenly actually believed everything we were being told about our penis and it was all our fault and the cuckoldress was right to lock us up, cut us off and deride us for our failure.
And being the pathetic twisted sissies, we are our sexuality turns that small penis humiliation into a sexual thrill, just how sad can us feminized sissy cuckolds get?

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 939.
I recall my now distant past to when Fran the second lady to use me when I was dressed as a woman, Fran was the one dressed as a French whore at the fancy dress party who came and deeply kissed me and helped herself to a feel of my tiny little penis dressed as a woman that I was that night and told me I was to small for her and then promptly spread the news of my under endowment to all women at the party.
It was not long after Pamela the hostess had me eat her creampie pussy and other stuff on subsequent meets that Fran literally ordered me round to her house so she could take advantage of me delighting in dressing me up.
Neither Fran nor Pamela were interested in me as a male they both sought to foster my dressing up as a woman for their sexual kicks.
It was Fran god love her that pushed me into developing and all engulfing fetish for being a dirty sissy cuckold toilet as I would be able to explain many years later as back then all I knew was that I was a transvestite with very odd urges.
Shamefully I had already licked and sniffed panties that were pissy and soiled but the real explosion of the sick fetish and need in me came from Fran who was a very kinky and perverse lady where I was concerned.
That first day with her I was like putty in her hands as she dressed and made me up and we were both rampant by the time Carla was fully ready and so I found out so was Fran.
Of course, being a close friend of Pamela she knew what was going on between Pamela and myself and not to be out done Fran had made sure she was a mess having not washed or wiped from the previous night with her boyfriend but it was more from Fran as when she knelt on her bed in just her high heels, sheer black stockings and suspender belt and had me ease open her buttocks with my hands it exposed a shit caked ass crease and she ordered me to lick her clean and suck the sperm out of her anus.
The smell was awful but also that sick kinkiness in me made it also so arousing and I carried out her command and put my face in there and licked swallowing all the filth down and then sucking the sperm and fecal matter out of her anus licking deep.
So aroused was I that shamefully I had a sissygasm without even touching myself that Fran found it utterly delightful discovering that far from being an ordeal I was turned on by her using me this way.
After that first time, my second visit with Fran was my first time being used as a full toilet with Fran urinating and defecating directly into my mouth making me drink and consume before having my tongue clean her up telling me that it was luxury toilet paper.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 938.
Of all the Cuckoldress wives I have chatted to over the years it’s a fairly even split on either having a new feminized sissy cuckold to break or one that has some experience already from a past relationship or marriage.
Both categories have to be bent to the new cuckoldresses will and whims so whipping and canning is a vital part of the molding of the sissy cuckold into what is acceptable to the particular cuckoldress.
What is essential unless the feminized sissy cuckold enjoys merciless punishment is that it keeps its opinions to itself as they are of no consequence to the Cuckoldress the old saying “it’s my way or the highway” is paramount.

SISSY CUCKOLD PRESENT 937.
As one of the many feminized sissy cuckolds that has gone through the ordeal of being dumped and divorced and the associated emotional pain, humiliating exposure, the cleaning out fiscally and funny enough sexual arousal of it all I have come to the conclusion via experience that all is not lost!
I went on from my first cuckoldress wife to one even more severe and wild and sadly to say after eleven more eventful years I had to endure another round of being cast aside.
Luckly I find myself these days getting on well with both my ex cuckoldresses both of which take advantage of me because of my ingrained submissiveness to them.
Being alone after having everything decided for you for so long is certainly daunting and takes some getting used to so expect plenty of self-pity and tears.
But as Feminized sissy cuckolds we will keep dressing and trying to live as sissy cuckolds and our urges never leave us so don’t fool yourself that you can become a man again as those days are long gone thanks to your cuckoldress ex-wife or ex-wives.
So we all know that this leads to desperate searches for a new cuckoldress which is not the easiest thing in the world and because of our sordid needs we will contact and play with other feminized sissy cuckolds, transvestites and shamefully even men to be used and abused as we are accustomed to, to get that sperm fix that we have been addicted to from our cuckoldresses pussies and anuses.
What I also now think is more than appropriate is that the divorcing and dumping cuckoldress wife should not allow her sissy cuckold out of chastity she should keep the keys until sissy cuckold crawls to her informing her that it has found another cuckoldress and between the two women there should be the exchange of keys so sissy cuckold is never able to become fixated on yanking on it’s miserable little sissy clit again and the only relief it can obtain is via frustrated dirty accidents or some form of degrading homosexual act up its sissy pussy.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 936.
Black men really do know the value of a good feminized sissy cuckold, you see your average black man puts so much of himself into fucking and satisfying the cuckoldress wife that by the time he has fucked her he himself will be soiled and sweaty from all the exertion he has put into the act of intercourse and while one of his mates is now seeing to the sissy cuckolds wife the man now needs cleaning up.
His cocks still semi hard will be slick with is spunk and cunt cream that needs to be licked and sucked clean by the sissy cuckold, then again if the man has just done the cuckoldress in the ass the ass funk or caked on shit on his cock needs orally removing.
Then there is his sweaty dripping ball sack and the crease between his legs that need lapping clean, but sissy cuckold duty does not end there, the man’s armpits are dripping with perspiration that needs licking away and of course his sweaty asshole and maybe more if he had been unable to grab a shower before coming over to fuck sissy cuckolds wife.
Yes in that case sissy cuckold had to lick the man’s shitty anus clean just like it would his wife’s anus.
The we have to understand that the black man might have had a very stressful day at work or where ever and to relax him as he recovers and to help him get ready for sissy cuckolds wife’s next hole he might have sissy cuckold kiss, lick and suck on his smelly toes and feet just prior to making sissy fluff his cock into iron bar hardness again for round two on the Cuckoldress.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 935.
Don’t ever be fooled that women in general are shocked and appalled when they find out that you are a feminized sissy cuckold want to be, apart from a few brain-dead females most women will be on to what you are long before you confess or get caught out and the anger and rage women at first display to the outed sissy cuckold want to be is carefully with feminine guile put on to exert leverage.
From your Mother onwards the know all to well that you are raiding their lingerie and hosiery drawers and filching her soiled intimates from the laundry basket and this in fact does not anger them it instead gives them a sense to power and dominance over you to know your worshipping their dirty lingerie love in it’s purest form one might say.
In most cases the mother will secretly foster the budding sissy cuckold by making her underwear and hosiery as soiled as possible knowing that her actions will enslave her sissy son to an unbreakable life of a sissy cuckold.
And it’s also interesting to note that for those mothers that decide to expose their son when the punishment is decided she will not tell her son to get out of her hosiery and lingerie to take it’s spanking or whipping on the contrary she will make him stay in the delicate female attire she may also add pulling her dirty panties over his head as she lays the blows on thus linking pain with pleasure that will utterly kink the budding sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 934.
Denial as they say is the highest form of control and the Cuckoldress wife knows this all to well and it is at the core of her power over her feminized sissy cuckold.
For the feminized sissy cuckold, it’s entire universe centers around it’s worthless little sissy clit and the reaching of a sissygasm.
In a perfect world and maybe some sissy cuckolds have experienced it they would never be allowed to have an erection after their first ones and certainly never be allowed to masturbate or God forbid squirt unless it’s an accidental dribbling as it’s abused in other ways.
A Cuckoldress dreams of having a feminized sissy cuckold virgin utterly frustrated and driven to denied sexually insane torment thus so easily pliable to anything she wants and desires.
Of course, most of us feminized sissy cuckolds have had sexual experiences with women in the past that brought shame and humiliation down upon us because we were so useless and inept at pleasing a woman and she would openly deride us for our failings and let it be known to everyone that we were crap as a male and our penises were to small even to be classed as a toothpick.
This way of being brought up also leads to frustrated sexually denied torment as we dimly recall the joy of the sex we were so foolishly offered by the poor woman and thus now being a feminized sissy cuckold will be denied forevermore.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 933.
One of the most emotionally damaging aspects of your wife becoming a Cuckoldress is how she changes.
Yes we all know that the feminized sissy cuckold want to be husband wants his wife HOT but the line between fantasy and your good lady wife actually becoming a Cuckoldress is a massive step.
What you will witness as your wife takes her first move into her new life is her change not only in the manner she dresses as suddenly she will be dressing and making up as a woman again to make herself desirable to men something she had stopped doing for ages as she was just married to boring old you.
Then you will see the hyper nerves as she goes on her first date and on her return the power and pride she feels and which radiates from her every pore.
After this first time with another man any restraint she might have felt goes out of the window and you as her feminized sissy cuckold will have to cope with her doing things that she never did with you as her sexuality will literally be on a rampage and as she has no restraints any more she will fulfill her every fantasy and then some.
And what she will love is rubbing your face in it all literally in both words and with you actually there watching her being a slut.
Can you cope with your wife like this

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 932.
One has to remember that Mothers are women and even more finely attunes and astute than the other women around you as you grow into a budding feminized sissy cuckold want to be.
She will certainly know even though you’re sneaking about filching her stuff to wear and masturbate with is done with absolute care to cover your tracks.
And as a woman she is super nosy and will know everything that occurs under her roof thus your stash of porn or your diary will be found when you’re not there.
Of course, some mothers will become overt in their help making you into a feminized sissy cuckold outing you in the most blatant way possible which probably is for the best at the end of the day.
But many other mother’s will be more subtle in their approach once they understand your needs and will act accordingly using the skills she has as a woman to fester the fetishes in you without openly exposing you.
This can take on many different acts such as the double entendre of what she says relating to you being a dud as a male, jibes against small penises and other general put downs.
Making sure that if your watching television with her she picks all films involving crossdressing from the classics like “Some like it hot”, Kinky Boots and so on just to make you squirm.
Then there is the flashing of her legs and feet in nylon whether tights or stockings and of course high heels in fact her mode of dress will be much more feminine.
Then the darker aspects she will make sure that every item of her intimate lingerie goes into the laundry basket heavily soiled from both her pussy and anus knowing that budding sissy cuckolds cannot help themselves not only to dress up in the items but also to sniff and lick the gussets of worn dirty panties and other items of lingerie up to and including the sperm of her boyfriends.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 931.
Like so many others both Cuckoldresses and Feminized sissy cuckolds I am of the firm opinion after years of conditioning that a Feminized sissy cuckold should only be allowed to have a sissygasm via sissy pussy stimulation.
A feminized sissy cuckold must understand that any relief it gets must come from cock or cock like objects to really strip away any residue masculinity it has after all the sissification and feminization it has been through.
Feminized sissy cuckolds must also consume every watery pathetic leaking’s it has under no circumstances should it have the manly right to shoot everywhere it’s unwanted slime must be licked up and recycled.