I cant belief its 2024!!!!! Omg I'm so fucking old lol I'm 34 now!!! Total MILF LOL or is it cougars I all ways get them mix up. My gf Keisha sort of broke up with me like she still fucks me but has other gfs 2 not exculsive + I feel like im not even 1st choice any more but I'm still total in love with her so it sucks but im trying 2 b so good she wants me back. I still live wit her but alot of nights I have 2 sleep on the couch in the orherroom b case she's fucking an other girl. I don't know what 2 do. My life is all ways fucked up. Some times u feel like I should stop doing drugs + try 2 b straight + live a fucking white life + find some fucking white boy 2 marry me excetp I HATE WHITE EVERYTHJNG. I don't know. I'm depressed I guess. My sister told me im fucked in my head + need therrapy + medds. I went off the medds I was on. I guess I should be kn them + probalby others ones 2. I don't know. I fucking hate life. I hate being whitr. I hate being me. I hate being old. I wish I was young + BLACK + fucking loved life or ehat ever it is normal people do. Does every 1 hate her self like I do??????? is it normal????? I feel so fucked up some times. Some times I feel like I should just suicide. I don't think any body would even care not even my parents or sisters. I don't even know if my daughters would care they don't even see me as there mkm since I am not the 2 raising them. I'm unfit they said + my parents r raising them even thouhgu therr half black. I'm such a fucked up peoce of shit. Why the fuck do I even live

I havent been on here in a long time lol sorry not sorry. My gf Keisha basicly owns me like a white slave now lol but I fucking love it. I basicly do what ever she tells me 2 do. I'm like white skin proerty. Like fucing furtnature. She loves 2 slap me around + I love 2 b used + abused by BLACK POWER. She doesnt realy hurt me allot though except in October she broke my nose + 3 of my fingers when she was mad at Jews for Isreal fighting Pasteline in Gaxa or what ever. I had 2 go 2 the hosptial but wasn't there a long time just 2 get fingers like bounded 2 gather while they heal . They didnt do any thing 2 my nose realy its been broken so many times by BLACKS lol its all fucked up no matter what. I guess if I got a nose job they could make it look better. Lucky i am kind of hot for my age b cause I work out + box + exercize + dont look that Jewish.

So...I went off all my medds.... i guess that was fuckin retarded... I'm so fuckin stupid. I hate my self. I hate being stupid. I hate being white. I fuckin hate my life. Ekon divorced me. Fuck thats not even true it turns out we was never legal married ?!?!?!? He told me I'm 2 old. He wants Young girls 2 breed + give him black moslem babys. Im 33 + he says im a left over not worth keeping. I dont know what 2 do. He kicked me out. I can't afford 2 pay 4 a place. Do u remember i got my ass beat by a black girl????? Shes letting me stay with her. I'm basicly her slave. When shes in a bad mood she likes to make me lick her pussy + Rim her ass hole with out cleaning. I'm so fuckin use less + dirty i feel like I belong this way. Im.white. we're trash. I fuckin hate my race so every time I lick her dirty ass hole I feel like im in my place as a fuckjng inferior white race pieces of shit. She all so likes 2 slap me around when shes mad. She couldnt find her car keys the other day and took it out on me basicly using me as a punching bag. At least I'm not stupid enough to fight back lol so I guess I laerned some thing. Im not aloud 2 leave her apatment with out her permission. I sleep on the floor when she's mad but when she's not she let's me sleep in her bed. She tells me she owns me + doesnt want me fucking any more men + tells me im.pretty 4 a white girl + may b she will make me her girl frind.