SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1074.
As a lifelong feminized sissy cuckold one thing I have noticed has been the ascendancy of the black male in the lifestyle.
When I got started being sissy cuckold Carla back in the mid to late seventies there was just a mere sprinkling of black men around that white married women could get their hands on so most of the guys stepping into a cuckoldress led relationships were white as well
I am not saying for one moment that this was a passion killer for either the Cuckoldress wife or the feminized sissy cuckold husband, but the pool of big cock was very hit and miss.
As the years went by of course it was the black man coming out of the inner-city ghetto’s that had the maturity ability and the hard learned sexual experience who accommodated himself perfectly into the Cuckoldress lifestyle scene knowing the taboo of interracial sex would make passions explode in the white Cuckoldress wife and the frenzied sissy cuckold husband.
The advent of the arrival of the black male on the scene also virtually assured the cuckoldress led couple of assured big black cock not something that more often than not resembled their husband pathetic little penis.
The black male also did his homework about the needs of the feminized sissy cuckold realizing that in a relationship with a Cuckoldress wife he also needed to control and dominate the feminized sissy cuckold up to and including getting involved with the punishment, mental tormenting and sexual abuse of the sissy cuckold with the agreement of the Cuckoldress wife of course.
So, these days the weight of control responsibility does not just rest on the wife’s shoulders but more often than not is shared with her black lovers, which of course leads to a totally more satisfying life for all concerned.
The off spin of the rise of the black male in cuckoldress led relationships and women in general wanting black lovers has led to the novel situation that white guys are just not getting any pussy what so ever and now out of desperation many white guys have come to understand that the only sex they are going to get is if the have feminized sissy cuckold girlfriends something that Cuckoldress wives love to utilize in their never ending chase for ways and mean’s to degrade and humiliate their sissy cuckold husbands making them submit to what can only be described as dressed up homosexual acts for her entertainment.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1073.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold it does help if you quickly get used to the fact that your so-called penis is utterly worthless to your wife and she now as a Cuckoldress views it as a complete waste of time.
Now she has real men seeing to all her sexual needs she will give you a second thought and eventually she will get utterly bored and annoyed about the effort she once in a while puts in to give you some relief.
And the fact is as cruel as it is the majority of cuckoldress wives conclude that the sissy cuckold’s relief is the height of selfishness and the sooner that pathetic need is beaten out of you the better for humankind in general.
And she like always is correct you are a feminized sissy cuckold and are there to serve and worship her femininity and womanhood not to be forever begging to squirt or even have erections as the sight of your waste of space is offensive now that she has perfect cocks to please her.
You can understand why so many Cuckoldresses leave it to nature to make the sissy cuckold squirt as accidents do happen as the sissy cuckold is basically unable to control its vile needs and urges even if in secure chastity or the Cuckoldress will farm out the sissy cuckolds relief into the hands of a filthy queer pervert or another feminized sissy cuckold for entertainment value.
Whatever the wife decides she is well within her rights as you are her property and be truthful would you feel good about yourself soiling her pretty hands with that weak watery muck that dribbles out of you occasionally.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1072.
With having my initiation to sexual things with women on a sissy cuckold level from the offset when I finally did con a girl into having normal sex with me the whole thing was a fiasco.
I still as a feminized sissy cuckold wonder if the very few girls that I was able to sweet talk into bed are to this day still traumatized by the event, for sure none of them invited me back for a second bite of the cherry as the old saying goes.
And from the many comments and withering verbal attacks I have had from all manner of women that have seen my tiny penis the consensus is that I am so small that the poor girls most probable did not feel a think as I humped away like a drooling moron on top of them
Of course because our feminized sissy cuckold ego’s are already so fragile over our penis size compared to our peers once we start being crushed by the truth escaping from between the lush lips of the women that get to see us we soon come to accept that we are not in any shape of form normal males if male at all.
And I suppose I am like so many feminized sissy cuckold that in the end I found comfort and even a sexual kinky thrill being lambasted at all angles by vicious barbed small penis humiliation and truly to this day I get intensely jealous if I come across another feminized sissy cuckold who’s sissy clit is smaller than mine in any way.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1071.
For more than a few feminized sissy cuckolds the last thing they want even after they and their cuckoldress wife are living the lifestyle is exposure.
It’s one thing people in the circle of fetish parties etc. knowing but as for everyone in your general life that is something so many feminized sissy cuckolds fear and avoid
And at the end of the day that stance is a pathetic hang over of supposed masculinity that the meek as a mouse sissy cuckold tries to hide behind.
You will find no matter how hard you try the news will get out eventually and more often than not it’s because the wife was spotted out on a date with her boyfriend and then the news and gossip spreads like wildfire as people you know try to work out what is going on in your marriage.
In almost all cases of a Cuckoldress led couple the wife is more relaxed about the news getting out, lets face it most other women will regard your wife with envy having the freedom to have lovers and the men she knows will now class her as a red hot bit of fluff and will try their hand at pulling your wife.
You will also find that your wife regardless of what you think or say will confide in her best friends, her sister and Mother of course and there will not be many cases where these female friends and relatives will be aghast as like most women they will always take their female friend’s side in any matter.
No, it always seems to be the new feminized sissy cuckold husband that wants sneaky secrecy hiding away his true colors and nature which actually reenforces just how spineless and pathetic he truly is and why his wife does need real men as boyfriends.
The silly thing is exposure and humiliation are things that deep down the feminized sissy cuckold craves and needs so thank God when a wife becomes a Cuckoldress she in the end is the person in the relationship that comes to the conclusion that they should live openly for all to see and know.
Once this status is achieved by a couple they can truly live and enjoy the Cuckoldress lifestyle with no silly worries.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1070.
I have yet as a Feminized sissy cuckold to meet a woman that did not love having one of our sort kneeling at her feet kissing licking and sucking in worship and adoration her nylon clad feet and toes.
From every woman asked they state the same that they feel an immense sense of power having the feminized sissy cuckold groveling at their feet even if as a woman they are not out and out cuckoldresses.
It’s just the laws of nature that the female know the place a feminized sissy cuckold occupies in this world and it pleases a woman’s sense of justice to know that there is a part of out human species that is not a woman and certainly not a man that will understand that it’s place is to serve and suffer gladly accepting the mere scraps the woman throws its way.
For all non-enlightened women the step to being a Cuckoldress might seem daunting and that wall has been built over the centuries by social mores, that’s why girls nights out, hen nights and other occasions when a woman can discard the ridged expectations of society they will literally go crazy drunk with lust and power far more sleazy and sordid than the male.
You just have to clock how popular drag act are at women’s parties because a woman knows instinctively that she can dominate and control a supposed male in drag thus also there is a woman’s utter fascination about transvestites as they know that deep down what that so called male is attempting is deeply sexual and submissive and closely linked to the world of the sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1069.
As a Feminine sissy cuckold one thing that fascinates us and terrifies us all at the same time is COCK!
We early on come to realize we have not got a cock as ours never seem to grow and remain underdeveloped for all our lives.
How can it be that a certain section of the community has cocks so abnormally large they are breath taking and for the most part all the other guys have cocks that put ours to shame.
Erect over many measurements my sissy clit because that is what it is as it would be a crime to call it a cock, penis, dick or any one of the thousands of other words to describe the man meat is only on its best ever day been three and a quarter inches in length.
Worse still it has never been the iron bar state that real cocks seem to attain at the mere sight of a naked female ankle.
My Sissy Clit seems to have a will all of its own and at times will remain floppy even though I am looking at or doing some really seriously depraved things that have my sexual emotions and feeling aflame at times like these I have noticed that I am shamefully gagging for penetration of my sissy pussy.
As a feminized sissy cuckold, the emotions you go through when you first come into close contact with a real cock is amazing, worrying, frightening, arousing and troubling.
You are literally shaking when you are encouraged to take a cock into your hand and feel it’s virility, strength and manliness as it throbs and spasms and shamefully with cock in your palm you’ll feel honored and humiliated to the extreme by your own pathetic excuse for a penis. Of course holding a cock is one thing, what about when your wife demands you feed it into her pussy or asshole, believe me a sissy cuckold can palpitate and come to passing out feinting with the sheer lustiness of doing such a sinful thing a supposed husband feeding its wife with the cock of a real man.
The real leveler comes then when you are made to suck a cock the smell and taste overwhelming you the sheer power of that slab of meat you can hardly get your mouth round, you might be sucking your wife’s juices and his sperm off of his god rod after they have fucked of even the spermy shit streaks from his cocks after anal no matter what you’ll soon become hopelessly addicted to cock like some desperate slut.
And with all real cocks there will come a time when you the feminized sissy cuckold will be having to swallow sperm as it shoots out the end of the cock in your mouth or deep into your sissy pussy bowels after you have been fucked like the sissy girl you are and you’ll find one of the most shocking aspects of that experience is just how much sperm a real ma produces over the miserable little dribble that comes out of your insignificant little spec.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1068.
Got a new toy that I quite like because as a feminized sissy cuckold I am twisted and warped by my perversions.
This toy is a urethral insert that by tube goes to a nice large stainless steep butt plug thus I can urinate in my own sissy pussy which feel strangely very nice and makes a change from using my urethra to mouth implement.
Of course, as Feminized sissy cuckold the ultimate for us is for our mouths to be used as toilets by our Cuckoldresses and never will you taste sweeter more delicious piss or if your fully trained tastier fecal matter.
As we all know it does not end there as our Cuckoldresses might well decide to let other females or men use our mouths to urinate in which causes shame and humiliation for the feminized sissy cuckold as well as being erotic to us, hell we get so addicted to our fetishes that we will gladly drink other sissies piss and also resort to our own to quell our raging addictions.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTROY 1067.
My weeks’ vacation in Naples Italy was lovely although the city is filthy and run down but in that aura I found sissy cuckold success.
Late afternoon on the 164 bus coming back from the huge Market they have there on the route a lush of a woman got on the bus, old in her sixties messy blond hair piled up on her head a short tight denim skirt very high scuffed black high heels and a tight low-cut top showing off her impressive but wrinkled old tits with heavy makeup.
She was swigging out of a bottle of lager beer and stank of cigarettes, alcohol and was quite drunk, I knew as soon as she clocked me on the bus she would sit on the seat opposite me and in that assumption I was not wrong.
The other thing about her was the cheap perfume very slutty and the unmistakable aroma of sex on her, somehow we managed to converse in queer English and Italian and she was slurring her admiration of transvestites, we ended up in a bar in her local area a real dive of a place where we had a few drinks.
Ended up being taken back to her home which was surprisingly very neat clean and tidy, that was about the only clean and tidy thing about her as she was delighted that I went down on her in the state she was in sticky and stinking she had been out all night and was a dire mess.
Of course, it transpired she was a working lady and had been for many, many years and although elderly she still had some good looks and as it was she that picked me up there was no charge in fact the only thing I did that evening was take her out for a meal.
Lovely Lady was Maria.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1066.
For a feminized sissy cuckold one of the most humbling things it can witness and have to cope with is its wife indulging in anal sex after that subject being utterly taboo during their marriage so much so that even had sissy looked as her bottom the wrong wat it could provoke actual physical violence from the wife.
Think then how emotionally painful it is then that once the wife becomes a Cuckoldress the first thing sissy see’s when she returns home from a date with a lover is her anus fucked to obliteration and she is crowing over how fucking sexy it was to be fucked in the ass and the shattering anal orgasms she was having being plundered by cocks up her back passage that make yours look what it is miniscule.
Not only that your new cuckoldress will delight in making you lick and suck clean anal creampie which as we all know smells and tastes totally different to the pussy variety.
Then there is the actual witnessing of seeing your wife’s butt hole greedily devouring massive cocks in her ass either on their own or part of multiple penetration sex even double anal penetration and the gusto she throws herself into these sordid displays in front of you grabbing all the pleasure she wants from the acts.
As a feminized sissy cuckold, you will suffer emotional damage because she forever spurned your efforts to even lick her bottom let alone put your silly little penis anywhere near her back passage and you will also with that hurt feel so sexually tormented and aroused over the illicit act.
But worse is yet to befall you sissy cuckold as your wife will gleefully look forward to the day when all the huge cocks she is having pounding her anus causes her bottom to prolapse often as it’s so loose and she then gets you her loving faithful feminized sissy cuckold to lick and suck on her protruding anal meat all spunk and shits slimy till it’s clean and retracts back inside her.
Once she had obtained this state of bodily function like many cuckoldress wives they will deem it essential that sissy cuckolds on bottom prolapses like hers thus starts dildo training and eventually gross homosexual acts to bring that about.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1065.
Shortly after my first wife and cuckoldress Anne left me I was picked up one night at one of those divorcee nights that used to go on mid-week by a German woman called Janet who was at the place with a girlfriend of hers.
Janet was a lot older than me but still pretty with long blond hair and nice figure and attracted me due to the sexy black dress she had on along with heels and black hosiery.
The night ended up with Mary her girlfriend dropping us off at Janets once the club had closed, of course I was trying to do the man stuff that night, but when it came to the crunch with Janet in her bedroom I failed miserably.
It did not pass Janet’s attention that my body was smooth shaven, and it was not long before she was making some cheeky comments about how small my penis was and her laughter seeing my clit get very hard under her verbal jibes.
Of course, it ended up with her getting her rocks off with me licking her pussy to orgasm a couple of times and me disgracing myself by ejaculating onto her bed sheets as I licked her.
Over coffee afterwards it all came out about my cross-dressing and that I knew I was pathetically endowed and what my ex-wife had been to me with her having boyfriends.
Janet maybe because she was liberated and German was not fazed by my revelations and suggested that the next time we got together I should wear some of my lingerie and stockings.
So, two nights later with invite for a meal I arrived at Janets flat that was in a tower block fully in Carla mode make up and everything.
What an evening we had as Janet had dressed up as well and there was lots of oral for her as well as use of her sex toys on her holes while for me she had purchased a large cucumber while she had been shopping for the ingredients for our meal.
While I was there her girlfriend Mary phoned up and I listened in shivering humiliation at their conversation as Janet had told Mary everything about me and what she had me doing that evening with her.
Janet’s thing was that she liked to piss so I was subjected to drinking gladly all her urine whenever she needed to loo that night.
Of course, we arranged to meet again but I got a call from her late one night before our agreed date and she told me to dress and to come round to Her’s quick which I did en femme again as I was home alone all dressed up anyway.
Janet let me into her flat that stank of sex and so did she and she explained that one of the men she often saw had just left and she was swimming in sperm and wanted me to lick her clean.
Of course as you would expect I did not turn down that sort of offer and dived in eating her dirty spermy pussy and ass till all traces of spunk had been removed and Janet had spasmed through a series of very hard climaxes.