SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1112.
One thing all budding feminized sissy cuckolds are from the very beginning is what is known as a filthy little wanker.
They just cannot keep their fingers off their tiny nub of sissy clit and even more so once they have discovered dressing in women’s hosiery and lingerie.
The obsession with masturbation gets to chronic proportions and as it develops the little sissy can only get off if it’s dressed as a woman and is looking at porn which always needs to be more explicit and harder.
Then of course it will start inserting things up its ass because dressed as a woman it of course wants to emulate so getting fucked is part of being a woman.
The budding feminized sissy cuckold then finds out about the sissy love button hidden inside and couples it with its degenerate sissy clit tugging increasing the violence of its orgasms
All through this the budding feminized sissy cuckold on top of the thrill and excitement and massive sexual relief also suffers self-shame and disgust and of course the terror of ever being caught out.
The truth is though the feminized sissy cuckold secretly and sometimes unknowingly wants to be caught out, it does not matter which lady exposes him from his mother or Aunt to Mothers Girlfriends or the wife or girlfriend.
This thing inside of us is too much part of what we really are and in no way can it be kept a lifelong secret.

Blog about profile pics from an admin, please read if you don't have a pic.
https://www.imagefap.com/blogcomments.php?topicid=146196

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1111.
Being Tania’s feminized sissy cuckold husband was not an easy role to fill, as a Cuckoldress and a Dominatrix she was very demanding and had standards that no feminized sissy cuckold maid or husband could achieve thus the whips and a never-ending round of punishment was my lot the entire eleven years we were married.
Of course, as her sissy cuckold I had to strive to serve her in every way that was demanded of me thus once in a while I would be ordered into her dungeon to assist in a session she was having with a client.
One such time springs to mind when a client had come wanting dildo training and then suddenly begged Tania to suck cock at the same time causing her to call me into the session after charging the transvestite more.
Thus, I found myself on my stocking clad knees in front of the transvestite my sissy clit in its mouth just released from four weeks of chastity watching Tania fuck the transvestite hard with a strap on while it sucked merrily away on me.
There was a caveat though Tania warned me of dire consequences if I was stupid enough to have a sissy squirt just because a transvestite. Was sucking me.
Believe me I did try and maybe I was able to hold the barrier to my sissygasm for a respectful amount of time but the struggle was no good and at last I was screaming to Tania that I was sorry as my little sissy clit dribbled out its meagre weak watery filth into the sucking transvestite’s mouth who swallowed the lot.
True to her word Tania punished me in front of the transvestite with twenty-five hard strokes of the cane leaving me in tears.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1110.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold still to this day when my mouth is full of hard erect cock and I am sucking like a slut to get the cream I get a tear in my eyes just at the thought of how low I have stooped because of the uncontrollable needs in me.
Everything about my upbringing from the moment I was interfered with by my stepfather was a barrier to me ever accepting homosexuality in fact way back then I had an abhorrence of it.
What was and still of shocking to me like many budding feminized sissy cuckolds find is that quite by accident or force of nature we find ourselves unwittingly in situations where we are open to homosexual abuse from perverts and because we are weak and vulnerable as feminized sissy cuckolds we are cornered and have no escape and once engaged our inner perversions shame us and our little sissy clits betray us.
This is exactly what happened when that pervert sat next to me in a porn cinema and took over the masturbation of my little clit until even though I was horrified and disgusted at what was happening he brought me off.
Then is the horror when you find out that your Cuckoldress rather likes the idea of you entertaining her with acts of perversion with a homosexual man and your shame and self-disgust that you comply as you are more afraid of your Cuckoldress that engaging in sex with a man.
The only saving grace here is that mentally you can lay the blame off on your Cuckoldress reasoning that she had made the choice for you and you did not do the vile things on your own you were only obeying.
It’s the Cuckoldress wife that gets the feminized sissy cuckold conditioned to engaging in perverse homosexual acts from sucking her lover’s slimy spent cocks clean and fluffing them to hardness.
Then as I said you are to entertain her and at times her friends with displays of pathetic sissy sex with another cuckold or submitting in front of an audience to having sex with homosexual men and having to do your bit with gusto to show your wife and the others that you as a feminized sissy cuckold really strive to perfect your womanly side.
The disturbing thing is that if by chance you end up dumped and divorced you find that there is no return to any sort of vanilla existence and of course you crave for creampie like any sissy cuckold does and in the end through your weakness you’ll engage with a free will to having sissy sex again even though this leaves you ultimately let down because of the weak and watery product of your feminized sisters.
In the end with a heavy shame and guilt laden heart you will make yourself available to men to use and fuck you so you can get your fix of the real cream trading up your feminized body to every homosexual act just to get to swallow the sperm.
I personally have and never will class myself as homosexual or even bisexual I look at myself as a feminized sissy cuckold as a piece of sexual meat to be used by anyone who needs to take a load off their mind.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1109
Whether you like it or not once a woman finds out you have a tiny penis or play dress up in women’s clothes the gossip will being no matter if she told you your secrets safe with her.
And she is not actually lying to you as she deems it not blabbing telling her closest girlfriends.
Her girlfriends on the other hand have given you no assurances of non-disclosure and thus the news about you will spread like wildfire and you’ll start getting those sly sneering looks, open laughter, the wiggle of little fingers and even some women coming up to you and passing into your hand’s panties.
Your world feels like it has come to an end so why is your little penis so aching hard and excited and you are masturbating in a frenzy after a day full of humiliation.
And it won’t stop there as these women have boyfriends and they will casually get to know you are a tranny dud and they will also torment you in the way guys do.
Now you are in a really vulnerable position the danger is very real as you will find certain women will coset you and make you believe that they have sympathy for your predicament and draw you into what you think is a caring friendship and feeling safe her sly questions will come and she will draw out of you your fantasies about wanting to be a feminized sissy cuckold cleaning sperm out of a fucked love one’s pussy and anus that’s swimming in real male sperm and also sucking slimy post suck cock clean.
And once your feminized sissy cuckold fantasies are exposed you are really fucked as these so-called caring loving friends will expose you to all and sundry sealing your fate so much so that you will never be able to operate as a normal guy.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1108.
One of the requisites of being a Feminized sissy cuckold is that you will time and time again do things for your Cuckoldress and later also by yourself due to compulsion that no sane human being would ever do.
It’s this can-do mindset that places us apart from the vanilla world and marks us out if you like as the third sex.
If like me you have been a feminized sissy cuckold all your life acting as one when young even though you did not know the name for your needs and desires back then you’ll understand that you are fundamentally different to everyone around you.
Who else but the feminized sissy cuckold would suffer and endure losing all human rights to its Cuckoldress and be molded in such a way that after a while you’ll accept you are nothing more than a slave to be used and abused in whatever way others deem necessary.
Just the main need and thrill for the feminized sissy cuckold of actively helping and supporting the one they love and adore get ready to go out with a real man and have sex and then to lick her clean afterwards with no expectation of having sex with her yourself even if she lowers herself to the pity fuck once in a blue moon (believe me most Cuckoldress wives soon get over that character flaw in themselves and cut their feminized sissy cuckold off from any of that sort of thing)
Once you as a feminized sissy cuckold is addicted to serving the one you love like this licking sperm out of both her pussy and anus or anywhere from her divine body you will be ready to submit to any gross indignity she decides you must accept and endure.
Thus, many feminized sissy cuckolds go on to become and serve as sissy cuckold toilets, entertainment value holes for perverts and queers and a target for humiliation and degradation at all times.
Of course, there are many levels of being a Cuckold some guys are never feminized just being a worthless drone for their wives, but the most enduring and successful Cuckoldress led relationships are for the wife to feminize their husband truly destroying his pre cuckolded personality for good for everyone to see and be amused by.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1107.
If you were and are like me as a budding feminized sissy cuckold and now a full time one you’ll be hooked on pornography.
For me this started with top shelf magazines such as men only, penthouse, fiesta, escort and Forum to name but a few and it was in these pages with ladies in black stockings and lingerie I found letters and stories about stern wives fucking men other than their husbands and at times the husband being made to dress as a woman and licking her clean after sex.
It was like all my jumbled-up desires and needs finally came together and I found a name for one such as me and that name was in the golden find of Miss Sadie Sterns monthly a magazine devoted to the world of female domination, all pretty tame stuff these days with the advent of the internet where we can source exactly the fetishes we are into.
Still, I miss the lurking in newsagents looking at the top shelf with people making you out as a pervert all so humiliating which I know we all loved when purchasing the skin mags and it was even better if there was a female counter girl taking your money and slipping your filth into a plain bag as they used to do with that sneer on their lips knowing you were just a nasty little wanker.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1106.
Wendy was the third of my mother’s friends that got her talons into me she was a midwife by trade and had this sort of sneering condescending manner about her along with an evil sense of humor and one of the dirtiest laughs I have ever heard.
One thing was for certain she delighted in my humiliation and suffering and whenever she spoke to me she talked down at me and this was before I was exposed as a sissy with special fetish leanings.
My first time alone with Wendy was a humiliating time of having to answer the deep probing questions about the why’s and what I felt like doing the things that Pamela and Fran were making me do because they were all pally, pally she knew all about.
For me this was a shameful and humiliating expose of things I knew I liked and needed but not the why’s and Wendy particularly liked seeing me redden and twist and turn when I was made to tell her about what I had been doing with my mother’s hosiery and dirty panties and the shameful episode of my tiny penis erecting against my mother’s nylon clad foot.
Of course, this led to Wendy examining my little penis and giving her verdict as a medical professional and of course her words were scathing and hurtful but as she was fondling my little penis at the time I was so hard and leaking and I had an accident and my mess shot out all over her nylon clad legs.
Then came the anger not that I thought it was in any way real as it was her caresses that had pushed me over the line but put on or not next I was licking my mess off of her silky legs before I went over her lap for a bare bottom spanking.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1105.
One of the many triumphs a Cuckoldress can award herself and to be congratulated for is her achievement of ruining her feminized sissy cuckold’s life completely
By this I mean destroying any hope of being let’s say vanilla in the future where if the very unlikely event the dumped and divorced feminized sissy cuckold is offered actual intercourse by some silly lady the sissy pretending to be a man will be unable to perform.
The male made to be a feminized sissy cuckold is an utter failure and will forever be what he truly is.
The feminized sissy cuckold is pathetic but also so extreme that it is bound to its fetishes with no possible escape it has got to the stage that it craves sexual intercourse but cannot perform when its offered it on a plate but will become acutely aroused watching sexual intercourse take place?
The feminized sissy cuckold is only truly aroused when its doing sick degrading acts in service to a Cuckoldress or submitting to gross acts by others such as perverts as it has come to understand that its place in sexuality is to be used and abused.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1104.
In my life as a Feminized sissy cuckold some of the most shameful times have been when I have been with Tania my second wife and Cuckoldress and we have been out together either with me dressed or in male mode with stockings and lingerie on underneath and some guy has started flirting with her and she has responded as she has found him attractive and there I sit not saying anything as a real man has picked up my wife.
It really does go to prove what a shameful pathetic wimp you are when your wife openly flirts with another man in front of you in public and everyone can see and hear what’s going on.
Tania god love her was very open about her life as a Cuckoldress and Dominatrix and as she was getting chatted up by the male she would tell them that either the pansy sitting there was her husband the feminized sissy cuckold or if on the rare occasion I was a la male she would make mention that under my trousers I was in hosiery and chastity and I was such a loser wimp that if she decided to take the man up on his proposition and got fuck him or arrange a date I would do nothing to stop of hinder either my wife or her prospective male admirer.
And a shameful and humiliating as it was sitting there seeing these things happen right in front of my eyes there was also the immense honor and pleasure at being right there seeing Tania in action how she reacted to the attentions of a real man, the flirting the movement of her body the eye work on the man a total seduction right in front of me.
There were even times when after a nice meal out where Tania had been chatted up by the good looking suave waiter I would be instructed to walk home as she was off back to the mans place for some sex and that order could come no matter if the walk for me was a mile or five (a killer if I was in really high heels but I would dare not walk in my stocking clad feet for fear of laddering my hosiery something that always brought on me terrible consequences at Tania’s hands)