SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1115.
Whilst dating the prostitute Lucy I took her on a vacation to Las Vegas that was perverted from the start.
We had a room in the Stratosphere hotel and casino and upon arrival after a very long hot trip Lucy started the perversion.
Before leaving jolly old England she had done a last-minute session with a couple of her regular guys and had not bothered to wash or wipe before we set off.
So, by the time we entered our hotel room Lucy was in a deplorable state and had me go down on her to lick her clean straight away.
To put it mildly Lucy smelt and tasted like the dirtiest shittiest side of Billingsgate fish market and the sludge coming out of her was appalling to say the least, but as you know I am one for awful experiences when it comes to cleaning up pussy and anus and did not even mind when Lucy squatted over my mouth and let out a long squiggle of sloppy shit for me to consume.
Prior to arriving I also had issues with the trip as my chastity device under the dress I was wearing to travel in set off the metal detector at the airport and I was escorted to a private room for a strip search by two female and one male customs officers which was highly embarrassing with all of the officers having a chuckle at my tattoo exclaiming I was a sissy cuckold and extra small.
That vacation saw Lucy fuck just about every guy at the greenroom swingers club and pick up a couple of randy black bastards from Georgia who fucked her in front of me plus three other men she picked up in bars on the strip when we were out together openly introducing me as her feminized sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1114.
What doom’s us feminized sissy cuckolds is our utter awe of women thus we are predisposed to being unable to refuse a woman whatever she wants from us.
Now women see this as a fatal weakness in a male a weakness that is to be exploited.
For most women they are attracted to men who take control and take what they want regarding sex in a brutish animal sort of way, nothing nasty but powerful and dominant a man with a cock made for them to worship.
So, when a woman has a person like us around that they can sense the femininity within us and the weaknesses they know they can walk all over us and will do it just because they can.
A woman likes nothing better with a feminized sissy cuckold to see just how far they can push the biscuit as the old saying goes and the more they get away with the more they will do always testing our love loyalty and devotion.
Only a wife knows the true thrill and power she experiences coming home after a night fucking with her boyfriend and finding her feminized sissy cuckold chastity locked husband waiting for her obediently and then literally rubbing his made-up face into her fucked sluttiness making her feminized weak husband lick a real males sperm out of her pussy and anus.

Thank you to all for the lovely messages of support at this difficult times. Mother has been wonderful and has now fully installed herself with me. The sale of her house is well under way. Lois has been keeping a very low profile but has messaged me now and again asking if I'm ok. Although Mother is now living with me full time, I must admit I am missing Lois and I still feel lonely is that makes sense.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1113.
If you actually get to the stage where your wife becomes a Cuckoldress as her feminized sissy cuckold you will be advised to take some time to look at your new role in your marriage and how you should behave as a sissy cuckold.
Many make the early mistake of still trying to have a say over the direction the marriage is going and your wife’s activities as a cuckoldress wife.
Big mistake one which will lead to lots of uncomfortable arguments which can be totally avoided.
Remember your wife becoming a Cuckoldress is a momentous step for her and at first she will be like dipping her toe in a hot bath to test it out, she also has to truly know that you mean what you say you are a feminized sissy cuckold.
The best course is to SHUT THE FUCK UP and let your wife do exactly as she pleases and serve her with adoration and love supporting her every moment no matter what.
Yes some of the things she does or decides to do will emotionally hurt you but tough that’s the dish served up for the feminized sissy cuckold to cope with.
Sissy Cuckolds who do this course of action will find that once the wife knows for sure she can do and get away with anything she will go the whole hog on every aspect of the lifestyle and revel in her sexiness and power as a cuckoldress wife.

Locktober is cumming but I won't be

Saturday was not a good day for me. Lois made contact and said that she was coming over with her boyfriend to collect her things. I did think of going out and leaving them to it, but decided against it. I realised a couple of weeks ago, that she had not mentioned who her boyfriend was, yesterday she told me it was the man she had first cuckolded me with all those years ago. It turns out he has been fucking her on and off for most of our married life together. I felt sick inside and now I just feel numb , if not dumb. I wish I was courageous enough to punch him, but I'm not and he knows it. He made a few sarcastic comments as they removed her stuff. I don't think I've ever hated anyone so much in my life. The house seems so empty without her, but Mother has already started moving in with me and is filling the void. Mothers house has been on the market less than a week and she already has a buyer.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1112.
One thing all budding feminized sissy cuckolds are from the very beginning is what is known as a filthy little wanker.
They just cannot keep their fingers off their tiny nub of sissy clit and even more so once they have discovered dressing in women’s hosiery and lingerie.
The obsession with masturbation gets to chronic proportions and as it develops the little sissy can only get off if it’s dressed as a woman and is looking at porn which always needs to be more explicit and harder.
Then of course it will start inserting things up its ass because dressed as a woman it of course wants to emulate so getting fucked is part of being a woman.
The budding feminized sissy cuckold then finds out about the sissy love button hidden inside and couples it with its degenerate sissy clit tugging increasing the violence of its orgasms
All through this the budding feminized sissy cuckold on top of the thrill and excitement and massive sexual relief also suffers self-shame and disgust and of course the terror of ever being caught out.
The truth is though the feminized sissy cuckold secretly and sometimes unknowingly wants to be caught out, it does not matter which lady exposes him from his mother or Aunt to Mothers Girlfriends or the wife or girlfriend.
This thing inside of us is too much part of what we really are and in no way can it be kept a lifelong secret.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1111.
Being Tania’s feminized sissy cuckold husband was not an easy role to fill, as a Cuckoldress and a Dominatrix she was very demanding and had standards that no feminized sissy cuckold maid or husband could achieve thus the whips and a never-ending round of punishment was my lot the entire eleven years we were married.
Of course, as her sissy cuckold I had to strive to serve her in every way that was demanded of me thus once in a while I would be ordered into her dungeon to assist in a session she was having with a client.
One such time springs to mind when a client had come wanting dildo training and then suddenly begged Tania to suck cock at the same time causing her to call me into the session after charging the transvestite more.
Thus, I found myself on my stocking clad knees in front of the transvestite my sissy clit in its mouth just released from four weeks of chastity watching Tania fuck the transvestite hard with a strap on while it sucked merrily away on me.
There was a caveat though Tania warned me of dire consequences if I was stupid enough to have a sissy squirt just because a transvestite. Was sucking me.
Believe me I did try and maybe I was able to hold the barrier to my sissygasm for a respectful amount of time but the struggle was no good and at last I was screaming to Tania that I was sorry as my little sissy clit dribbled out its meagre weak watery filth into the sucking transvestite’s mouth who swallowed the lot.
True to her word Tania punished me in front of the transvestite with twenty-five hard strokes of the cane leaving me in tears.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1110.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold still to this day when my mouth is full of hard erect cock and I am sucking like a slut to get the cream I get a tear in my eyes just at the thought of how low I have stooped because of the uncontrollable needs in me.
Everything about my upbringing from the moment I was interfered with by my stepfather was a barrier to me ever accepting homosexuality in fact way back then I had an abhorrence of it.
What was and still of shocking to me like many budding feminized sissy cuckolds find is that quite by accident or force of nature we find ourselves unwittingly in situations where we are open to homosexual abuse from perverts and because we are weak and vulnerable as feminized sissy cuckolds we are cornered and have no escape and once engaged our inner perversions shame us and our little sissy clits betray us.
This is exactly what happened when that pervert sat next to me in a porn cinema and took over the masturbation of my little clit until even though I was horrified and disgusted at what was happening he brought me off.
Then is the horror when you find out that your Cuckoldress rather likes the idea of you entertaining her with acts of perversion with a homosexual man and your shame and self-disgust that you comply as you are more afraid of your Cuckoldress that engaging in sex with a man.
The only saving grace here is that mentally you can lay the blame off on your Cuckoldress reasoning that she had made the choice for you and you did not do the vile things on your own you were only obeying.
It’s the Cuckoldress wife that gets the feminized sissy cuckold conditioned to engaging in perverse homosexual acts from sucking her lover’s slimy spent cocks clean and fluffing them to hardness.
Then as I said you are to entertain her and at times her friends with displays of pathetic sissy sex with another cuckold or submitting in front of an audience to having sex with homosexual men and having to do your bit with gusto to show your wife and the others that you as a feminized sissy cuckold really strive to perfect your womanly side.
The disturbing thing is that if by chance you end up dumped and divorced you find that there is no return to any sort of vanilla existence and of course you crave for creampie like any sissy cuckold does and in the end through your weakness you’ll engage with a free will to having sissy sex again even though this leaves you ultimately let down because of the weak and watery product of your feminized sisters.
In the end with a heavy shame and guilt laden heart you will make yourself available to men to use and fuck you so you can get your fix of the real cream trading up your feminized body to every homosexual act just to get to swallow the sperm.
I personally have and never will class myself as homosexual or even bisexual I look at myself as a feminized sissy cuckold as a piece of sexual meat to be used by anyone who needs to take a load off their mind.

I've been having a lot of discussions this week with Mother over my future now Lois has decided to divorce me. To be honest she always said it would never work and she was right, however she hasn't really thrown a load of told you so's at me. Mother feels it best for us both that we live together again, so I can look after her needs and I have agreed. However I had to confess to Mother that I still long for a Daddy of my own, Mother understands my needs, luckily Mother can be incredibly pragmatic in such matters and said, she sees no reason why I can't have one as well. It feels like having my cake and eating it. Mother has had a valuation on her home and is now planning to sell it and move in with me and that way we we can pay Lois off, when the time comes. All this has come very suddenly but it feels right. I'm very sad about me and Lois, but I'm excited that I have something to look forward to.