SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 702.
Just how pathetic can us feminized sissy cuckolds get? that is the question and the answer is worse than pathetic specially if you get caught by your wife or other female practicing your nasty deeply hidden kink!
Twice in my life I have been caught out licking on the gussets of very soiled panties! once by my Mother and once by my first wife Anne and both reactions got me into hot water!
Not because what I was doing which by that time was the only sort of behaviour expected by one such as me but because I had not asked to do it and had done it in a sneaky furtive manner!
First time busted was a while after my Mother allowed me to wear her worn and dirty tights and other girlie things round the home but as I was already addicted to laundry basket diving and sucking, sniffing and licking the gusset of her knickers I was addicted but to ashamed to have that part of me exposed!
So there I was with a pale blue pair of my Mothers heavily soiled panties in hand licking the filthy gusset which not only had pussy cream on the material but I was also informed that there was sperm from one of Mothers boyfriends in the pussy cream and mixed in with the brown stain at the back of the gusset!
You can imagine my horror standing there in the bathroom in the tights I was in with my tiny penis hard under the mesh leaking as my tongue lashed the dirty panties and then the bathroom door op0ened and there stood my Mother taking in the disgraceful sissy display in front of her!
Yes I did get a spanking on my bottom for that vile practice but was firmly told afterwards that if I wanted to lick the gussets of Mummies panties clean I would in future have to ask to be allowed to to it so she knew what I was up to!
Then there was my first wife and Cuckoldress Anne who I came out to wanting to be her feminized sissy cuckold which was traumatic in itself but after she got herself her first boyfriend and also had fed me the first creampies I was drawn again to the laundry basket and seeking her worn panties and the body shivering treat of finding her knickers spunk soaked from quick fucks she would have with George at her work place.
And in the bedroom this time I was caught this time by Anne who found it all so amusing laughing her stockings off and verbally informing me that I had stooped to new lows of pathetic behaviour and that she deemed me even less of a male even after I had agreed she should have lovers.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 701.
One stark reality that occurs when you become a Feminized sissy cuckold under your wife or partner and that is her statement that never again will your tiny penis be allowed into her or any other woman!
And it's not just an idle threat she mean's it with all her heart and soul as once a woman gets the taste of being a Cuckoldress she is more addicted to her new status than you are as a Feminized Sissy Cuckold.
Now just stop and think about what she has just told you! that little penis of yours which up to now has at least been able to nudge the labia lips of one or two women in you life will never feel that hot wet silkiness ever again only your eyes will see intercourse as other men plough their huge cocks into your wife or partner bringing her sexual pleasure like you never could and were not born to be able to supply.
When you see what a real man can do to your wife or partner you fully come to understand what a dud and a failure you are in the sex department and believe me it will destroy your ego and smash your emotions a vital part of a Cuckoldress putting her feminized sissy cuckold in it's place in her life.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 700.
For the budding feminized sissy cuckold masturbation takes one's life over!
As soon as I did my first sissy squirt in a pair of my Mother's dirty tights I became addicted and pulled my tiny penis till it almost dropped off.
Looking back now at the frenzied tugging I used to do I now understand that at some point it was imperative that a woman step in and control that aspect of my life.
The saying might well be for a budding feminized sissy cuckold "Enjoy it while you can!" regarding masturbation because as you flower into an actual Feminized sissy cuckold wanking that little penis will become a distant memory.
But back to the glory days of fiddling with yourself in wild abandon! I know I was a filthy little sissy doing naughties in my Mothers dirty tights, on the gusset of her dirty panties and then when older I discovered porn which shook my fantasy universe specially when I found titles such as Miss Sadie Stern's Monthly and Forum that had stuff in about the cuckold and once in a while a sissy cuckold.
My addiction to tugging on my sissy nub got me caught time and again firstly by my Mother who because she encouraged my wearing of her cast off hosiery knew damn well that I was abusing myself and when she caught me out she would make very cutting and disparaging remarks about my worthless penis and how small it was! her reaction to finding out that I was squirting on the gusset of her dirty panties was to make me wear the sticky soiled knickers the next day with her dirty tights over the top.
Other things that I slipped into during those times of free masturbation was inserting things down my urethra till I hurt myself and of course like all budding feminized sissy cuckolds the insertion of anything that came to mind up my sissy pussy!"

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 699.
For a feminized sissy cuckold the size of it's penis actually dictates that the Sissies male life is over before it's even started?
As your developing it's soul destroying watching other lads mature and grow their penis's getting larger and hairs matting their masculine forming torso's and legs.
Where's we look down on our bodies and see little or no pubic or other hairs sprouting and our penis seems hardly bigger than a pubic hair and our bodies seem to have that feminine look and feel.
As a budding feminized sissy cuckold grows even before it knows it's going to be a sissy cuckold it observes the way it's peers ease into dating forming relationships and getting all sorts of sexual experience up to and including sexual intercourse where's the budding sissy cuckold never experiences anything closely resembling a date in fact all the girls seem to know inside them that this person has something wrong a deficiency in them and god help the budding sissy cuckold if it's penis has been seen by one of the girls the gossip alone will destroy the sissies life.
Of course not ever experiencing a girlfriend or anything mean's that the budding sissy cuckold is hyper sexually frustrated and the mixed up feelings inside him re enforce not only his worthlessness but also that he is not good enough to please women like a man hence the start of fetishes of the most sick type that roll round the budding sissy cuckold like barbed wire.
Often it is an older woman that introduces the still unaware sissy cuckold to what it's actual path in life will be and she will teach it to embrace the ridicule and humiliation of being a failure and under endowed and seeing that licking up sexual mess from real men fucking your girlfriend or wife is all your good for apart from other maid and slave duties to help your partner have a lovely lifestyle.'

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 698.
I personally think that all of us feminized sissy cuckold and you'll be happy to know the want to be's out there as well are predisposed to suffer a woman cheating on us.
Sissy Cuckold must be written on our foreheads in a way that only women can see as every woman I have ever known has ended up doing the dirty on me to one degree or another.
This is good in thee long run as with your lady actively getting good sex and cock from real men when you get the nerve up to spill the beans about yourself the whole process in becoming her feminized sissy cuckold becomes that much easier.
And beieve me if your dumped from a relationship at anytime you'll find that things never reset and women looking for a guy they can use abuse and trample over will be drawn to you!
Just be truthful about yourself with women and you'll find your Cuckoldress! don't settle for a lonely life with a partner that is in the dark about you!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 697.
How did you feel when you first ventured out to purchase women's lingerie, hosiery, make up and clothes not to mention shoe's!
Of course it's that much easier these days but back when I was growing it was a harrowing experience, so long had I been comforted by the fact that I wore my Mothers used hosiery and had some lingerie that she had sorted out for me that when I had to shop for myself it was a stressful step in life!
Luckily women and specially shop assistants know their are the likes of us out there and the relief when they make it obvious that they know your buying for yourself is fantastic.
I will forever be in greatful debt to the Lady who ran the Tight Spot hosiery and lingerie stall in Lincoln central market, she was the lady that measured me back then for the correct size of fully fashioned seamed stockings she used to sell and they were the proper McCoy and I was addicted straight away she even gave me my first suspender belt to me as a gift.
Once over the first couple of forays into buying women's clothes it is fine as you hide under the cover of being just a mere transvestite but be ready because the humiliation you will suffer going out with you Cuckoldress shopping dressed as a female and your wife or partner lets the assistants know your a feminized sissy cuckold and the purchased are for you wife to excite her boyfriends will shatter you!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 696.
It was electrifying in both instances when I finally confessed to the two women I married that I wanted to be a Feminized Sissy Cuckold on top of the transvestism that they already knew about!
Both of them by the time the confession came were pretty sure something was coming and when I uttered the words both were pleased in their own way.
Of course there was the long tortuous questions and answer session straight away as both sought to understand fully the depths of my fetish and need and worship of them and both did not voice any reservations.
In fact although I was a shivering mess of fear and apprehension over what I was telling them they seemed to take it in their stride and you could see in their eyes that they were planning and plotting even as I was exposing my dirtiest deepest secret to them.
The fact of the matter is that once wife understands your not angling to go with other women only allowing their sexual freedom they will go all in on the Cuckoldress stuff in total security that they can have their cake and eat it!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 695.
The painful little things a Cuckoldress wife can do to her feminized sissy cuckold seem to be endless and only limited to the imagination of her cruel utterly feminine brain when it comes to your suffering?
Tania my second ex wife/Cuckoldress/Dominatrix and Escort certainly had that imagination and she inflicted on my some truly appalling punishments over the eleven years we were married and since I might add as her Dumped and Divorced Sissy Cuckold.
Take this little titbit from our married days Tania was of the mind at times to wear some pretty heavy duty foundation wear and one time when she had her black lacy suspendered corset on holding up a pair of sheer fully fashioned black seamed stockings with her sexy feet in high heels she was sitting at her dressing table.
On this day I suppose she had planned what happened I was out of my chastity device and she was teasing and tormenting me and under my maids dress I was erect something I knew I could be punished for and it did not take long in coming as Tania ordered me to her side and got me to raise the hem of my maids dress and made me gasp as she actually touched me as I looked down on her perfect sexy lingerie and hosiery clad body, pulling me down I watched fascinated as her other hand raise up one of the thick heavy duty suspender straps with the metal clips from her upper thigh and made me put my hard silly little sissy clit under it!
Of course there was only one out come with my sissy clit in this position and she twanged my sissy clit with the elasticated strap as she let go and let me tell you on my tender sissy stick it fucking hurt and my scream of pain gave my Cuckoldress pleasure and a fit of giggles!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 694.
I always try to recall the night at Pamela Alfords fancy dress party when I saw her in one of the bedrooms on her hands and knees on the bed getting doggy fucked by a guy she had dragged in there and the powerful effect it had on me.
And that was very much on my so called mind later that night after helping her tidy up her home and only we were left and I had made a coffee and taken it through to where she way laying on her sofa.
I knelt next to her on the floor in the fancy dress outfit I was in as a woman make up and dressed up by my Mother earlier in the day.
Pamela was my ideal of an older more mature woman and we had always got on even though she was one of my Mothers best friends.
As we chatted I was swooning in desire and need of the very kinky things that had overtaken my sexuality from the offset and her aromatic nylon clad feet were driving me crazy and it was then that I did the only brave thing imn my life up to then I leaned over and kissed one of her silky covered big toes drawing in the scent.
My fear was palpable thinking Pamela would reject me and go ballistic but instead she liked what I had done and purred when I took her toe in my mouth and sucked on it then proceeded to do the same to all her toes on both feet before starting to kiss up her nylon coated legs.
Pamela certainly turned the screw as I worshipped her stocking clad leg telling me that Fran had told her earlier that she had felt how woefully under endowed I was when she had kissed me in the kitchen!
When I got to Pamela's knee her hand came down on my head to stop me going any further but I looked up at her with pleading eyes as she said " We both know your to small of sex! You know I saw you watching me with Tom earlier you dirty little peeper did you get a thrill watching? I cannot let you kiss up any further you know I am filthy?"
Where my voice came from I do not know as I was so terrified and aroused but it squeaked out "I know Pam please let me do it please let me lick you!"
Pamela giggled in a sultry almost satanic way at my submissive begging and suddenly her hand dropped away and one of her stocking clad legs eased aside and she sort of hitched up the dress she was in and exposed her fucked shaven dirty pussy.
"Oh you are a very naughty sissy your dirty little secrets are all coming out tonight!"
And with that I kissed her silky knees again and started my journey to my first creampie and the addiction to beinf a feminized sissy cuckold that would take over my life totally

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 693.
Like all Feminized Sissy Cuckolds I was terrified when I first ever had to do things with a real cock!
What is immediately apparent is that a real man's cock feels nothing like our own slim, short hardly stiff little clits.
That breath holding moment when your hand takes hold of a big thick fuck stick and you realise what power there is in a real cock.
It's weird wanking it feeling it throb and you see the tear of pre cum welling out of the tip and then the order you most fear comes from the man that brooks no refusal!
"Lick it and suck it sissy cuckold!"
All your humiliation, fear, shame, excitement and disgust well's up as one as you lower your head and lick the pre cum from the leaking cock head and find that it's not nasty or offensive as you take the man's cock into your mouth and suck it like you've seen porno actresses do.
If your man is eager he might well keep you licking and sucking his god rod until her cums in your mouth or throat forcing you to swallow something that all feminized sissy cuckolds are required to do with no decent!
And then the command come's that leaves you whimpering as the man wants to deflower your anal virginity and by then your to cowed, broken and submissive to stop him doing anything he wants to you!