SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 850.
As you develop into your true self of being a feminized sissy cuckold you come up against woman after woman who brazenly tells you that your penis is underdeveloped, worthless and insignificant.
This is something you already know as you grow up seeing your peers developing into real men where’s you remain much the same as when you were a boy.
All this re-enforcement of fact from the women around you or those who get to see it makes you believe more and more that you are useless and come to truly believe that your own masculinity needs suppressing and even wiping out.
Thus, the urges to become a feminized sissy cuckold take hold even more even if you are yet unaware of the words of what you are just yet.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 849.
Back in the mists of time when I was developing into the yet unknown world of the feminized sissy cuckold I was already addicted to women’s tights’ panties and the holy grail of stockings.
Of course, the start point, with shamefully with my mothers which she finally exposed and fostered but I also became a laundry basked bandit of her girlfriends always finding an opportunity to visit the bathroom when around their homes.
I would shake in need and desire finding panties that were heavily soiled, and I would lick and suck on the dirty gussets in a submissive frenzy as with the tights I found.
At times it was all too much, and I would actually steal a pair of tights if there were more than one pair in the hamper to wear later to experience the sordid thrill of squirting in them thinking of the owner doing totally gross things to me!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 848.
With Tania my second ex-wife the Dominatrix, escort and cuckoldress there was never any chance for me from the onset.
Being a Dominatrix, she already knew full well the sort of shit feminized sissy cuckolds get up to when their wife is out on a date so both penile and anal chastity were fitted from date one to ensure no masturbation.
She often mentioned that being out on a date with me locked up securely at home allowed her to relax more and really let her hair down not having to worry about me getting up to any perverted sissy cuckold shit at home.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 847.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I like many others have to whole heartedly thank the women in our life specially for the ones we were exposed to early in our lives who imported to us the little tricks of preparation that makes the sissy cuckold life easier to handle!
Take Wendy the third lady that dealt with me all of them moons ago who passed on the essential tip of cleaning myself out everyday explaining to me that as a sissy cuckold my bottom would become one of the major areas for attention to dominant women and men who liked kinky stuff with the likes of me!
At the time I was utterly terrified of even the mention of anything remotely homosexual but under her guidance she showed me how to clean myself out and even brought me my first bulb to get warm soapy water into my bowels.
This has meant that on the whole I am ready for anything and as we all know anything can happen to the feminized sissy cuckold in the blink of an eye.
But as the old saying goes “never count your chicken’s before they hatch!” there have been times when I have been caught on the hop like the day in a public toilet (Known cottage) when two dirty old men fucked the shit out of me literally in one of the stalls and another incident after a sex party I had attended where five guys had gone through me so hard that on the drive home I lost all control and shit myself in the car a truly awful experience and so shameful and humiliating ( now I have sanitary pads at all times in the glove compartment)

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 846.
Naughty Feminized sissy cuckold Carla had today received the new anal rosebud pump I ordered, and it looks a wicked bit of kit that will very soon be in action.
For many strange reasons I want my sissy pussy prolapsed bulging out obscenely, I need to get cracking with this as in a couple of weeks arriving will be a huge inflatable dildo to really expand my depths.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 844.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I have always had a healthy need for knowledge and understanding of the world I live in and have had many very deep and puzzling questions come to mind.
One that still remains unanswered to this day came to me when I was sitting watching Tania my second ex-wife and Cuckoldress getting fucked hard by one of her lovers on the sofa in our lounge waiting for the climax and being ordered in to clean her creampie pussy and then suck the guy’s cock clean.
What struck me as I sat there taking in the beautiful sight of two lovers copulating one being my sexy goddess of a wife with the gusset of the panties I had on feeling tacky as sperm was still leaking out of my bottom from the anal fucking I had taken the previous evening from a gay male for the entertainment of Tania the question that struck me was is there a creature that submits and orally cleans up the fucked Feminized sissy cuckold and what could it possibly be called?
Does anyone know of such a creature as it certainly cannot be classed as human or are you one that is or wishes to be a cleaner of feminized sissy cuckolds?

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 843.
With this weekend being away in Leeds and Manchester for some concerts the daytime saw me sally forth from my hotels to hit the shops in these two fine cities and I found some really nice tops and skirts along with some nice lingerie and of course more hosiery to add to the huge amount I have at home already. (Well, a feminized sissy cuckold like any girl has to be fully stocked in nylons so there is no danger in ever running out!)
I like many others love shopping dressed as a woman, it’s totally accepted these days and so long as you comport yourself properly women in general get a kick out of seeing you do your best to emulate them and you get them knowing smiles and winks and your fair share of comments.
I have found that over the years I have connected with women via shopping trips who went on to become good friends and some even more than that as women in general are fascinated by the why? And what makes us tick and if we communicate openly and not on a sleazy sordid way they like to get to know everything about what made you a feminized sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 842.
A huge glut on the sex toys and implements last night something when us Feminized sissy cuckolds are alone, we cannot resist.
I started off with anal dilators my range of stainless-steel tools to stretch the sphincter out and once opened up I went to work teasing my gaping sissy pussy with all manner of plugs and probes all the while getting my sissy pussy more and more dilated and lubricated.
Then I inserted my new pump-up anal plug removing the stainless-steep dilators and pumped up the balloon inside me till I felt pregnant and safely packed out thus letting me relax with an aching leaking sissy clit to read some filthy sordid sissy cuckold porn tormenting my so-called mind.
The finale was the huge dildo’s that I rode on my new fucking seat that these mammoth rubber cocks stick on to and by the time I had a catastrophic sissygasm riding and taking a seventeen inch black cock into myself I could hardly stand let alone walk the cock popping out of me as I fell to my stocking clad knees licking up my dirty sissy cuckold mess from the rubber sheet on the floor before turning my attention to the filthy glistening used black dildo and orally cleaning that as well

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 841.
After many conversations over the ears with Cuckoldress wives one thing that they all have in common is their glee in being able to make their feminized sissy cuckold husband or partner suffer.
There are many deep-rooted reasons why this ticks the wife’s boxes from the husband’s piggish attitude before he became a sissy cuckold to useless love making ability, lack of manhood and a million and one other gripes a woman gets about their partner.
Be warned all you want to be feminized sissy cuckolds all and any intimate contact with your Cuckoldress wife will very quickly descend into something to be terrified about as she will make any contact or relief a painful shameful experience so much so that many feminized sissy cuckolds come to feel safe securely locked in chastity both penile and anal.
From kicking, slapping, punching to more exotic ways of making the sissy cuckold suffer the Cuckoldress wife will love it all so get ready for urethral probes, dildo’s on truly gigantic scale that will rip open the sissy cuckold’s pussy till there are real tears and pleadings from the hapless pathetic sissy.
Strange thing is that after time the Cuckoldress wife with her deep knowledge of her sissy cuckold will convince it that what she does is for its own good and will deepen sissy cuckolds love and adoration of its Cuckoldress.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 840.
Blame and suffering is of course the lot of the feminized sissy cuckold husband and this I experienced on all levels in both my marriages specially the second one.
Tania the Dominatrix and Cuckoldress used any excuse she could find to punish me even at times doing so to ward off future mistakes I would make? (work that one out???)
Hosiery was a real bone of contention with Tania; I purchased all her hosiery and believe me the bills hurt as her liking was for the most delicate and sheer tights and stockings.
So, you can imagine the rage she used to get into if a pair were snagged or laddered.
If it was me that caused the damage as I helped say adjust her seams or suspender straps or accidently caught something on her legs the outcome was nasty and painful no quarter given and would end up with me crumpled on the floor of her dungeon crying with a battered sissy bottom.
If on the other hand the damage to her hosiery was done by her own hand, I still got the blame every time for causing her momentary loss of concentration with whatever I was doing and thus it was into the dungeon again for me her sissy cuckold.
It seemed that the only time Tania did not get upset over her hosiery being ruined was when a man or men were fucking her and their hands were pawing her all over causing snags and ladders or rips in the gusset of her tights as they got their cocks into her willing holes.
All that was mentioned at these times was Tania screaming for them to fuck her harder, faster and deeper for them to use her like a slut!
It was only later that I was brought to task about this with Tania berating me for not nicely asking the guys to be careful around her nylons and thus the damage was my fault again and the outcome the same another trip to the dungeon.