SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 699.
For a feminized sissy cuckold the size of it's penis actually dictates that the Sissies male life is over before it's even started?
As your developing it's soul destroying watching other lads mature and grow their penis's getting larger and hairs matting their masculine forming torso's and legs.
Where's we look down on our bodies and see little or no pubic or other hairs sprouting and our penis seems hardly bigger than a pubic hair and our bodies seem to have that feminine look and feel.
As a budding feminized sissy cuckold grows even before it knows it's going to be a sissy cuckold it observes the way it's peers ease into dating forming relationships and getting all sorts of sexual experience up to and including sexual intercourse where's the budding sissy cuckold never experiences anything closely resembling a date in fact all the girls seem to know inside them that this person has something wrong a deficiency in them and god help the budding sissy cuckold if it's penis has been seen by one of the girls the gossip alone will destroy the sissies life.
Of course not ever experiencing a girlfriend or anything mean's that the budding sissy cuckold is hyper sexually frustrated and the mixed up feelings inside him re enforce not only his worthlessness but also that he is not good enough to please women like a man hence the start of fetishes of the most sick type that roll round the budding sissy cuckold like barbed wire.
Often it is an older woman that introduces the still unaware sissy cuckold to what it's actual path in life will be and she will teach it to embrace the ridicule and humiliation of being a failure and under endowed and seeing that licking up sexual mess from real men fucking your girlfriend or wife is all your good for apart from other maid and slave duties to help your partner have a lovely lifestyle.'

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 698.
I personally think that all of us feminized sissy cuckold and you'll be happy to know the want to be's out there as well are predisposed to suffer a woman cheating on us.
Sissy Cuckold must be written on our foreheads in a way that only women can see as every woman I have ever known has ended up doing the dirty on me to one degree or another.
This is good in thee long run as with your lady actively getting good sex and cock from real men when you get the nerve up to spill the beans about yourself the whole process in becoming her feminized sissy cuckold becomes that much easier.
And beieve me if your dumped from a relationship at anytime you'll find that things never reset and women looking for a guy they can use abuse and trample over will be drawn to you!
Just be truthful about yourself with women and you'll find your Cuckoldress! don't settle for a lonely life with a partner that is in the dark about you!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 697.
How did you feel when you first ventured out to purchase women's lingerie, hosiery, make up and clothes not to mention shoe's!
Of course it's that much easier these days but back when I was growing it was a harrowing experience, so long had I been comforted by the fact that I wore my Mothers used hosiery and had some lingerie that she had sorted out for me that when I had to shop for myself it was a stressful step in life!
Luckily women and specially shop assistants know their are the likes of us out there and the relief when they make it obvious that they know your buying for yourself is fantastic.
I will forever be in greatful debt to the Lady who ran the Tight Spot hosiery and lingerie stall in Lincoln central market, she was the lady that measured me back then for the correct size of fully fashioned seamed stockings she used to sell and they were the proper McCoy and I was addicted straight away she even gave me my first suspender belt to me as a gift.
Once over the first couple of forays into buying women's clothes it is fine as you hide under the cover of being just a mere transvestite but be ready because the humiliation you will suffer going out with you Cuckoldress shopping dressed as a female and your wife or partner lets the assistants know your a feminized sissy cuckold and the purchased are for you wife to excite her boyfriends will shatter you!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 696.
It was electrifying in both instances when I finally confessed to the two women I married that I wanted to be a Feminized Sissy Cuckold on top of the transvestism that they already knew about!
Both of them by the time the confession came were pretty sure something was coming and when I uttered the words both were pleased in their own way.
Of course there was the long tortuous questions and answer session straight away as both sought to understand fully the depths of my fetish and need and worship of them and both did not voice any reservations.
In fact although I was a shivering mess of fear and apprehension over what I was telling them they seemed to take it in their stride and you could see in their eyes that they were planning and plotting even as I was exposing my dirtiest deepest secret to them.
The fact of the matter is that once wife understands your not angling to go with other women only allowing their sexual freedom they will go all in on the Cuckoldress stuff in total security that they can have their cake and eat it!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 695.
The painful little things a Cuckoldress wife can do to her feminized sissy cuckold seem to be endless and only limited to the imagination of her cruel utterly feminine brain when it comes to your suffering?
Tania my second ex wife/Cuckoldress/Dominatrix and Escort certainly had that imagination and she inflicted on my some truly appalling punishments over the eleven years we were married and since I might add as her Dumped and Divorced Sissy Cuckold.
Take this little titbit from our married days Tania was of the mind at times to wear some pretty heavy duty foundation wear and one time when she had her black lacy suspendered corset on holding up a pair of sheer fully fashioned black seamed stockings with her sexy feet in high heels she was sitting at her dressing table.
On this day I suppose she had planned what happened I was out of my chastity device and she was teasing and tormenting me and under my maids dress I was erect something I knew I could be punished for and it did not take long in coming as Tania ordered me to her side and got me to raise the hem of my maids dress and made me gasp as she actually touched me as I looked down on her perfect sexy lingerie and hosiery clad body, pulling me down I watched fascinated as her other hand raise up one of the thick heavy duty suspender straps with the metal clips from her upper thigh and made me put my hard silly little sissy clit under it!
Of course there was only one out come with my sissy clit in this position and she twanged my sissy clit with the elasticated strap as she let go and let me tell you on my tender sissy stick it fucking hurt and my scream of pain gave my Cuckoldress pleasure and a fit of giggles!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 694.
I always try to recall the night at Pamela Alfords fancy dress party when I saw her in one of the bedrooms on her hands and knees on the bed getting doggy fucked by a guy she had dragged in there and the powerful effect it had on me.
And that was very much on my so called mind later that night after helping her tidy up her home and only we were left and I had made a coffee and taken it through to where she way laying on her sofa.
I knelt next to her on the floor in the fancy dress outfit I was in as a woman make up and dressed up by my Mother earlier in the day.
Pamela was my ideal of an older more mature woman and we had always got on even though she was one of my Mothers best friends.
As we chatted I was swooning in desire and need of the very kinky things that had overtaken my sexuality from the offset and her aromatic nylon clad feet were driving me crazy and it was then that I did the only brave thing imn my life up to then I leaned over and kissed one of her silky covered big toes drawing in the scent.
My fear was palpable thinking Pamela would reject me and go ballistic but instead she liked what I had done and purred when I took her toe in my mouth and sucked on it then proceeded to do the same to all her toes on both feet before starting to kiss up her nylon coated legs.
Pamela certainly turned the screw as I worshipped her stocking clad leg telling me that Fran had told her earlier that she had felt how woefully under endowed I was when she had kissed me in the kitchen!
When I got to Pamela's knee her hand came down on my head to stop me going any further but I looked up at her with pleading eyes as she said " We both know your to small of sex! You know I saw you watching me with Tom earlier you dirty little peeper did you get a thrill watching? I cannot let you kiss up any further you know I am filthy?"
Where my voice came from I do not know as I was so terrified and aroused but it squeaked out "I know Pam please let me do it please let me lick you!"
Pamela giggled in a sultry almost satanic way at my submissive begging and suddenly her hand dropped away and one of her stocking clad legs eased aside and she sort of hitched up the dress she was in and exposed her fucked shaven dirty pussy.
"Oh you are a very naughty sissy your dirty little secrets are all coming out tonight!"
And with that I kissed her silky knees again and started my journey to my first creampie and the addiction to beinf a feminized sissy cuckold that would take over my life totally

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 693.
Like all Feminized Sissy Cuckolds I was terrified when I first ever had to do things with a real cock!
What is immediately apparent is that a real man's cock feels nothing like our own slim, short hardly stiff little clits.
That breath holding moment when your hand takes hold of a big thick fuck stick and you realise what power there is in a real cock.
It's weird wanking it feeling it throb and you see the tear of pre cum welling out of the tip and then the order you most fear comes from the man that brooks no refusal!
"Lick it and suck it sissy cuckold!"
All your humiliation, fear, shame, excitement and disgust well's up as one as you lower your head and lick the pre cum from the leaking cock head and find that it's not nasty or offensive as you take the man's cock into your mouth and suck it like you've seen porno actresses do.
If your man is eager he might well keep you licking and sucking his god rod until her cums in your mouth or throat forcing you to swallow something that all feminized sissy cuckolds are required to do with no decent!
And then the command come's that leaves you whimpering as the man wants to deflower your anal virginity and by then your to cowed, broken and submissive to stop him doing anything he wants to you!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 692.
For all you happily married Feminized sissy cuckolds out there breezing through life cleaning up the anal and pussy creampies your Cuckoldress wife put you to thinking this will never end?
Well hopefully not?
But many Feminized sissy cuckolds find at one point or another they get dumped and divorced and I am not going to talk today about that avenue of sissy cuckold perversion and fetish what I want to point out is that without exception you'll be in for a tough time!
Think of yourself as a junkie because that's what your Cuckoldress has turned you into! within weeks of being thrown on the scrap heap you'll be in an awful state for a creampie fix and YOU WILL shame yourself as you'll go where the spunk is?
Your ex wife and Cuckoldress will laugh her stockings off when she hears news that you've been seen mincing in queer clubs and bars or going places where transvestites are known to cruise all in your desperation to swallow sperm!
The day's of when you used to staunchly deny you were straight are well and truly over as many feminized sissy cuckolds discover that to get to suck cock and swallow spunk the Spunkee will often also want anal sex and all other homosexual practices and knows the Feminized sissy cuckold spunk junkie will do anything to get it's creamy fix.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 691.
Back when I was married to my second wife Tania the Dominatrix/Cuckoldress and Escort I can vividly remember when she used to do outcalls to punters who had booked her for sex.
This is because I was of course her driver and would take her to the hotels and places she was asked to go to.
One of the seemingly favoured destinations locally was the Grand Atlantic Hotel where a lot of businessmen would stay and I would drop her off and park up outside in the customers car park and watch her enter her long velvet coat covering the slutty desires of clothing and hosiery underneath.
So there I would sit and wait mostly for an hour but more at times if the man had booked Tania for longer, my chastity device would hurt as I sat there knowing my wife and Cuckoldress was in one of the bedrooms fucking for money.
The car of course reeked of the slutty perfume she wore that tormented my senses and images of depravity of what she might be up to would invade my so called mind.
When she appeared again she would always have that just fucked look women get and soon the car would fill with the stench of sex that was emanating from her body on the trip home where if she had done a bareback session she would make me clean her creampie pussy or ass!