SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 705.
It makes you wonder what is inside us Feminized sissy cuckolds that makes us start to crave being our Cuckoldresses toilet?
I have thought long and hard about this and only a few things come to mind if you can call my grey matter a mind? (debatable)
Firstly it's the sheer taboo kink of drinking a woman's urine as it pours out of her all hot and salty there is something very erotic about seeing this and letting her do it in your mouth.
Of course there is the humiliation of being used to urinate in a show of the woman's dominance over you and your submission to her a power exchange?
Of course leading on from the Cuckoldresses or woman's piss is what comes out of her bowels that fills the Feminized sissy cuckold with not only fear but a fascination and then urges that become terrible inside?
Now my second ex wife Tania and myself had a long conversation once about me being her toilet and it came to me then after being her feminized sissy cuckold for a long time that in me was this thought that urine and more specifically her shit was the only thing of her my wife that only she gave to me! where's her mouth kissed other men, sucked other men's cocks, her pussy was fucked by any other cock she desires but never my own little penis and the same for her anus which she adored being fucked long and hard by whopper cocks and spunked in!
So for me as her feminized sissy cuckold being her toilet drinking her urine and eating her shit and licking her bottom clean of mess like I was toilet paper was a special reserve only for me her feminized sissy cuckold husband!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 704.
It come's as a shock to the Feminized sissy cuckold that the only fucking with it's little sissy clit will be when the Cuckoldress fucks it's urethra with a stilettoes heel on one of her many pairs of sexy wicked high heeled shoes.
Believe me there is nothing comfortable about being urethra fucked and the only thing you as a feminized sissy cuckold can do is hope your Cuckoldress has a pair of stiletoes on that are fine and very tapered hence and easier fit down your urethra.
Even so your pee tube will be flared open to an agonizing degree as your Cuckoldress really gives your sissy clit a fucking till you are screaming in pain (which she will take no notice of at all) and mostly your Cuckoldress will only stop when either she gets bored or you are bleeding?
Of course nearly all high heeled shoes have stilettoes on that are much bigger than the Feminized Sissy Cuckolds clit hence you will be deeply fucked!
And then the Cuckoldress might also enjoy fucking you anally with her stilettoed heel another painful delight for the sissy cuckold to suffer!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 703.
I know it's hard to accept but us Feminized sissy cuckolds really do deserve everything we get and in the logic of the Cuckoldress wife everything is our fault without exception!
Their logic states that it is not their fault you were born with a tiny worthless little penis and your love making abilities are useless and annoying!
They also mention that it's all your fault that they have had to go and find real men with massive cocks to sexually satisfy them and because they need sex it's your fault that they have to give these men every kind of sexual depravity that big cocked men insist on?
It is also your fault Sissy Cuckold that to get the said huge cocked men your wife has to spend thousands on lingerie, hosiery, high heels, make up dresses and every other accessory and feminine thing to get the biggest and best cocks to fuck her!
It's all logic really and after being utterly dominated by your Cuckoldress wife you'll see things her way even things like when she is out something happens to ladder her tights or stockings it's still your fault sissy cuckold and you will suffer a beating for ruining her fine hosiery!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 702.
Just how pathetic can us feminized sissy cuckolds get? that is the question and the answer is worse than pathetic specially if you get caught by your wife or other female practicing your nasty deeply hidden kink!
Twice in my life I have been caught out licking on the gussets of very soiled panties! once by my Mother and once by my first wife Anne and both reactions got me into hot water!
Not because what I was doing which by that time was the only sort of behaviour expected by one such as me but because I had not asked to do it and had done it in a sneaky furtive manner!
First time busted was a while after my Mother allowed me to wear her worn and dirty tights and other girlie things round the home but as I was already addicted to laundry basket diving and sucking, sniffing and licking the gusset of her knickers I was addicted but to ashamed to have that part of me exposed!
So there I was with a pale blue pair of my Mothers heavily soiled panties in hand licking the filthy gusset which not only had pussy cream on the material but I was also informed that there was sperm from one of Mothers boyfriends in the pussy cream and mixed in with the brown stain at the back of the gusset!
You can imagine my horror standing there in the bathroom in the tights I was in with my tiny penis hard under the mesh leaking as my tongue lashed the dirty panties and then the bathroom door op0ened and there stood my Mother taking in the disgraceful sissy display in front of her!
Yes I did get a spanking on my bottom for that vile practice but was firmly told afterwards that if I wanted to lick the gussets of Mummies panties clean I would in future have to ask to be allowed to to it so she knew what I was up to!
Then there was my first wife and Cuckoldress Anne who I came out to wanting to be her feminized sissy cuckold which was traumatic in itself but after she got herself her first boyfriend and also had fed me the first creampies I was drawn again to the laundry basket and seeking her worn panties and the body shivering treat of finding her knickers spunk soaked from quick fucks she would have with George at her work place.
And in the bedroom this time I was caught this time by Anne who found it all so amusing laughing her stockings off and verbally informing me that I had stooped to new lows of pathetic behaviour and that she deemed me even less of a male even after I had agreed she should have lovers.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 701.
One stark reality that occurs when you become a Feminized sissy cuckold under your wife or partner and that is her statement that never again will your tiny penis be allowed into her or any other woman!
And it's not just an idle threat she mean's it with all her heart and soul as once a woman gets the taste of being a Cuckoldress she is more addicted to her new status than you are as a Feminized Sissy Cuckold.
Now just stop and think about what she has just told you! that little penis of yours which up to now has at least been able to nudge the labia lips of one or two women in you life will never feel that hot wet silkiness ever again only your eyes will see intercourse as other men plough their huge cocks into your wife or partner bringing her sexual pleasure like you never could and were not born to be able to supply.
When you see what a real man can do to your wife or partner you fully come to understand what a dud and a failure you are in the sex department and believe me it will destroy your ego and smash your emotions a vital part of a Cuckoldress putting her feminized sissy cuckold in it's place in her life.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 700.
For the budding feminized sissy cuckold masturbation takes one's life over!
As soon as I did my first sissy squirt in a pair of my Mother's dirty tights I became addicted and pulled my tiny penis till it almost dropped off.
Looking back now at the frenzied tugging I used to do I now understand that at some point it was imperative that a woman step in and control that aspect of my life.
The saying might well be for a budding feminized sissy cuckold "Enjoy it while you can!" regarding masturbation because as you flower into an actual Feminized sissy cuckold wanking that little penis will become a distant memory.
But back to the glory days of fiddling with yourself in wild abandon! I know I was a filthy little sissy doing naughties in my Mothers dirty tights, on the gusset of her dirty panties and then when older I discovered porn which shook my fantasy universe specially when I found titles such as Miss Sadie Stern's Monthly and Forum that had stuff in about the cuckold and once in a while a sissy cuckold.
My addiction to tugging on my sissy nub got me caught time and again firstly by my Mother who because she encouraged my wearing of her cast off hosiery knew damn well that I was abusing myself and when she caught me out she would make very cutting and disparaging remarks about my worthless penis and how small it was! her reaction to finding out that I was squirting on the gusset of her dirty panties was to make me wear the sticky soiled knickers the next day with her dirty tights over the top.
Other things that I slipped into during those times of free masturbation was inserting things down my urethra till I hurt myself and of course like all budding feminized sissy cuckolds the insertion of anything that came to mind up my sissy pussy!"

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 699.
For a feminized sissy cuckold the size of it's penis actually dictates that the Sissies male life is over before it's even started?
As your developing it's soul destroying watching other lads mature and grow their penis's getting larger and hairs matting their masculine forming torso's and legs.
Where's we look down on our bodies and see little or no pubic or other hairs sprouting and our penis seems hardly bigger than a pubic hair and our bodies seem to have that feminine look and feel.
As a budding feminized sissy cuckold grows even before it knows it's going to be a sissy cuckold it observes the way it's peers ease into dating forming relationships and getting all sorts of sexual experience up to and including sexual intercourse where's the budding sissy cuckold never experiences anything closely resembling a date in fact all the girls seem to know inside them that this person has something wrong a deficiency in them and god help the budding sissy cuckold if it's penis has been seen by one of the girls the gossip alone will destroy the sissies life.
Of course not ever experiencing a girlfriend or anything mean's that the budding sissy cuckold is hyper sexually frustrated and the mixed up feelings inside him re enforce not only his worthlessness but also that he is not good enough to please women like a man hence the start of fetishes of the most sick type that roll round the budding sissy cuckold like barbed wire.
Often it is an older woman that introduces the still unaware sissy cuckold to what it's actual path in life will be and she will teach it to embrace the ridicule and humiliation of being a failure and under endowed and seeing that licking up sexual mess from real men fucking your girlfriend or wife is all your good for apart from other maid and slave duties to help your partner have a lovely lifestyle.'