Now I was not only afraid of what I was doing or who I was but literally worried about my soul. Again dumb 19 year old, catholic, we do guilt… I decided I need to be done with her and get her out of my life. 

Monday night I suggested we meet one of my long time friends at my moms house… I sent her off to shower.

I ran out to call my friend and told him to get his ass over to my house right away I had a hell of a surprise for him. I told him to be here in 30 minutes at let himself into the house and come to my room, not making a sound. I’ve been telling him about all of the crazy shit she would do and of course he called BS.

I heard the water shut off and she came into my room only wrapped in a towel. I told my friend would be out in 2 hours so we had some play time. She frowned “ why did you have me shower?”

I said “no anal this time but I want to tie you up first.”

Excitedly she said “You mean you will come in me? (thinking about it now I think she was trying hard to get pregnant)

So one wrist and ankle per bed post, then a blind fold and some headphones. She asked about what the whole get up, I explained “I read that the lack of visual and the added music can make the orgasim more intense.”

I put some what a 19 year old might think was romantic music and started playing with her. 

I bit one nipple and tugged while slowly playing with her pussy, she responded by arching her back some. I heard the front door open and close, I swallowed hard, thinking I did say quietly.

Thank god she had no clue, my buddy slowly walked in with his eyes wide and with a big grin I shushed him, he shushed back. I gave him the I told you look, he nodded. I stood up stepped to him and whispered in his ear, “ you can suck or,  bite her tit, no hands and don’t kiss her. I don't want her to figure it out.” He nodded and leaned over a gave her tit a big lick and suck while I resumed fingering her. 

He then gave a little nibble, she gasped in response, I picked up my pace. He bit and tugged a little harder and gave me a side eye I nodded and he tugged real hard, I sped up and witnessed her strongest orgasem ever. “Fuck me” She yelled, “Fuck me now!”

I pushed him back and up and out the door. I whispered “go around the block a time or you but when come back make a lot of noise when you come in.”

I quickly unties the ropes from her ankles as I stripped the waist down and proceeded to fuck the shit out of her.

I pulled the blindfold off, knocking the head phones off, I was getting close to cumming, thoughts of her vulnerability and the violation of trust fueled my intensity. I heard my buddy yell as he let himself in, I yelled back “I’m up stairs I’ll be down in a minute” 

Of course the dude knows exactly whats going on runs up the stairs and pops my door open there I sit ass in the air going to town her legs up and no way to cover self, pauses and looks her in the eye and says “you must be Succubus?” I throw what ever I can reach at him and say “Get the fuck out! I’m working here… we’ll be down in a minute fucker!” 

He leaves, I cum in her as promised. She was still blushing from being caught.

I said sorry, “heis early and lacks some social boundaries.”

Oh my god, I don’t know if I’m more turned on or embarrassed, and you my big strong man chases him away to protect me” she says as she kisses me. “You know the two of you could have had his way with me and I couldn’t have done nothing about it?”

Puzzled I asked “Do you want me to call him back?” to which she responded “NO! But please untie me!”

I know had may answer my buddy had just gone through a bad breakup, his l

luke with girls was bad because he was a clingy guy and she was a clingy girl… Perfect for each other!

We got dressed and headed downstairs. He was 23 and brought some booze. I brought down a good old VHS porn full of threeways, couple swaps etc. I parked her between us on the couch plotting how to set those two up.

She reached under the blanket to start rubbing my dick, I whispered in her ear “we have , company, if you rub mine you rub his” she stopped for a moment then she started again, I looked over nad my buddies eyes locked to mine. Then I looked at her and she smiled, his eyes were like saucers and I could see the blanket moving up and down. I knew I could put these two together and it would be great for both of them and I would be free of her as well. The night wrapped up and he went home. I took her to bed and fucked her one last time knowing this was the last time ever most likely. The next night we went to his house, on the way over I playfully suggest she pretend my buddy was her boyfriend and to do whatever she would do with or to me. 

She played along and walked in and kissed him, he was shocked but I explained what we were doing and told him to play along. I mentioned his work was a bit closer to her apartment than where he lived and perhaps if the weather was bad he could stay there, to which she agreed. She sat on his lap while we watched a movie at his house. I suggested that perhaps they would be a good couple. I told her that after this weekend we were done but I would make sure she was OK.  She was worried and wasn’t sure if she wanted to go home with me, let alone have to ride the hour and a half back to her apartment. He offered to take home when he went to work in the morning and I went back to my place to back up and bring her stuff over.

When I came back they were in his room, I’m pretty sure I knew what was going on in there but it wasn’t going to include me. 

It was only a few months before they were married, a bit longer before I saw them againand we are all friends WITHOUT benefits now.

Summer came and things were on again off again with my future wife and as Ross would say “we were on a break”. So I invited the ex, Succubus, up to my mom’s lake home for two weeks around the 4th of July.  My plan was to feed the demon inside me and see how far this girl would really go, honestly I wanted to push her so hard so far that she would take that temptation out of mylife. 

By this time she was getting quite comfortable with anal and did infact ocationally suck my cock afterwards. One of those times she licked the cum tat had ran down my balls and gave me my first rimjob.

So while she was up at the lake with me I hogtied her and left to get a pack of smokes. Her arms and legs had discolored and she was numb for some time after, (hey I didn’t know you weren't supposed to do that), but now purple is my favorite color on a woman.

We canued up to this little acre size island that guarded a little bay to camp. The island had a step  hill and a small clearing on top big enough for two tents and bonfire. We set up camp and I suggest a little “funtime” and that we should try out some handcuffs I bought at the local Army Navy store. She went along and I hand cuffed her facing a small 4” maple. I used a little sunscreen for lube and fucked her up the ass. By this time in our relationship she would go along with just about anything, so I asked where she put the keys, knowing I had them in my pocket.

She panicked “What do you mean you don’t have the keys?
I reminded her that I had told her to grab everything off the kitchen table and that she must have missed the keys.

I suggested that I try and put her jeans back on since it is 30 min to an hour each way for me to canoe to get the keys. As I pickup her pants I slipped the keys into her pocket and like a magician pulled them out as I brought them over. 

“Oh my god, you had the keys and I almost canoed al back to get them”

She apologized but was happy they were found.

I suggested, “perhaps you should be punished? How about I leave you there a little longer while I catch dinner?”

Now her succubus instincts kicked in and she excitedly agreed. 

I tore open the box I brought the fire wood in and wrote “Free use Slut” and tacked it toher tree. 

I said “just incase anyone finds you while Im gone” 

She smiled and replied, “Maybe I’ll get a better offer?” 

I laughed as I left to fish the small bay behind the island. Now it was mid week and several days from the 4th so it should have been quite on the lake but I protectively kept close and kept an eye on the island just in case

I caught a couple fish and headed back up the hill after an hour or two and find her sleeping curled up with her head on her left arm. She wasn’t exactly sunburnt but the sunscreen in ass did little for her back. She was 21 a little older than me and had been in an accident when she was 5 and had a few scars on her back and leg from surgery  this accident left her wiht a little limp and she always was very self concise about all of that, I actually liked them, fueled some of darker fantasies about her.

I tickled her foot and she giggled as she woke up.

“Morning, any visitors?” I jokingly asked. “Sorry you just missed a tour bus, they wore me out it  that’s why I’m sleeping… but really, can you let me loose, it's cooling off” she replied as I playfully pitched a twisted her nipple, she bit her lip hard.

“Soon, I’ll start dinner and get the fire going while it's still light.” 

By now the sun had set and it was getting pretty cool but she was near the fire and it lit her up pretty good, good enough that a passing boat could have seen her if the looked.

I had a bunch of potatoes in a cast iron pan frying so I decided to check on her but instead of releasing her I fingered her until she came and fucked her in the ass a second time.

Now she was little more desperate, “ It’s freezing,  the mosquitoes are out and I’m going crazy this isn’t fun anymore, please, please let me go”

“OK” I said as grabbed the keys” you need to clean off in the lake, its dark enough no one will see you… wait,” I pulled back the keys “let's make this worthwhile, I gotta piss”

She actually smiled “Ok but not my face” 

I started a stream on her butt, it was hard because something so lewd was making me hard again. I worked my way up her back and ran out of stream at her neck, shook off and uncuffed her.

“Next time your in the cuffs” she smiled “but your balls are mine so be warned” she playfully gave a suck pulling away with a pop sound, “salty… but not that bad” as she stood up to go down the hill.

By the time she was back up everything was ready, OK the potatoes might have been burnt a little, but I was distracted and you don’t care. She pulled on her jeans and my button shirt but didn’t button it.

During diner she asked “ so if your not dating, XXXX, why won’t you fuck me like to used to?” I mean I’m open to all your weird shit and proven I will let you do anything you want… fuck me, fuck my cunt!” 

I sighed and said” that's exactly why, you are wrecked, damaged, you will do anything I ask and I prefer your tight ass. Why would I fuck you to make you cum when the longer you go with out the crazier shit you will do?”

“Fine” she angrily snapped “you ain't getting nothing” fine and crawled into the tent.

I wasn’t worried, I knew she can’t go more than a couple hours with out some sort of sexual atention, she’s nuts beside, my goals kind of was to see if I could get her to go away. Again to this day I wondered if she really was human, she played all vinilia and reserved but she had the sexual apitites of a bus load  of 17 year old football players.

No more than a couple of hours went by and sure enough from in the tent I hear “I’m sorry, I understand… I Don’t know why I'm like this… I realy do like sex back there… I just… love you, I know you don’t love me any more but I miss that feeling. You know I will do anything, I don’t care if you fuck other women, or piss on me, in me” she almost sobed “Please, come to bed and just hold me”

Really nothing too exciting happened that trip yes I fucked he cunt that night, I’m a sucker, but the next night back to ass or mouth.  We went back to my mom’s house. I knew she was never going anywhere. I didn’t like who I was becoming around her, the cruel dom persona scared me at 19. I didn’t even know what BDSM was, I didn’t understand my need to dominate nor her need to sub. I worried I was an abusive pervert , and it scared me.

First I should probably back up and give you some history on my ex, let's call her Succubus. When I first met Succubus she was a good Catholic girl, she took a lot of effort to initially warm up. I spent weeks getting her as far as being naked and either finger banging or eating her out to multiple orgasms. Yet she always stopped me before penetration. Yes usually she would give me a hand job or perhaps eventually a blowjob. 

Once I did finally fuck her she turned out to have insatiable appetites, no matter how long I lasted or how many times we would do it she always wanted more. Almost immediately we developed a “rule"  that if she wanted more she had to make me hard again so basically I would blissfully fall asleep on my back having her suck my cock and waking up to her riding me. she also had developed quite a taste for cum and her own juices.

Now most of you are probably wondering why in the hell anyone would break up with a girl like that. Well that's literally why I call her a succubus. I was sleep deprived, missing classes and one day after having sex 9 or 10 times in a 10-12 hours. I literally thought I was 19 years old and having a heart attack. I honestly wondered if it was possible to be fucked to death, plus honestly it wasn't that much fun anymore there was no challenge there was no hunt and it felt like a chore.

So not long after we broke up and I was dating her friend, my now current wife, I ran into her by her new home about an hour away on the way back to my mom’s house and she invited me in for coffee and to talk for a while. Strangely she was very interested in the graphic details of my current relationship. She already knew my new girlfriend didn't do oral but when I told her that we had just had sex before I left she became very excited and dropped to her knees on the kitchen floor where I was sitting at her table and begin to undo my pants to give me a blowjob. 

I told her that “I promised that my cock would never touch your pussy again” 

She said “Fine… then it shouldn’t be a problem if I suck your cock.”

I stammered “ Yeah… not…” well technically she was right? Needless to say the second my dick was in her mouth my brain switched off. She stood up and grabbed me by the hand leading me to her bedroom. I kicked off my shoes and pants along the way. I think she had a skirt on from work that she slipped out of and pulled her top off and me onto her in her bed. Were were kissing furiously as she started to pull mt cock towards her pussy.

I stopped her and said “NO! I  promised” and spun her over on to her stomach. I cupped my hand over her mouth as she screamed as I forced my dick in her ass with only what little spit was left on me dick from her blowjob. There was no easing in, I just pushed, I felt pain so I can’t imagine what it was like for her. She kicked and trashed fo a just a second and went limp. It didn’t last long as she was so tight. As soon as I came I dropped full weight on her back. 

I just whispered “sorry… I told you I promised”

She sobbed “I know… its ok…”

I pulled my now soft cock out and rolled off her on my back. My mind was racing with what had just happened, “where did that demon come from?” I thought, I didn’t think myself capable of something like that. She moved her head to my chest and traced her finger around my other nipple and down towards my pubes.

She must have been staring ant the mess on my dick because she broke the silence saying” I… I suppose I should clean you up?”

“Sure,” I replied. She started to push up and slide towards the foot of the bed, I assume to go grab a towel, but to my surprise she stopped at the foot of the bed, grabbed my limp dick and attempted to slide the blood, shit cum covered thing in her mouth!  She hesitated and I came to my senses and stopped her just shy of her lips and told her to just grab a towel. I wiped off and started getting dressed. I couldn’t speak, still shocked at what happened. She came with me to the door and hugged me and actually apologized for not sucking me clean! She said “its ok if you only want me back there… but maybe a little slower.. With lotion?” I was still in horror with myself and grunted OK and walked out. 

I really don’t remember the rest of my couple hour drive home to my mom’s house just in thought that I had a girlfriend the loved me and and ex that was OK with just twisted as fuck nasty anal sex or just about anything I could think of to try.