I woke up from a nap earlier today feeling exceptionally horny. While sitting taking a pee, I reach behind and began fingering my pussy with my finger, rubbing and then slowly poking my finger in and out. I lubed my finger with my mouth and slid my finger all the way in my tight little hole. At two fingers I decided I needed more so, I got out my 7" dildo. To make it even more interesting, I put my chastity cage on.                       

My dildo has a suction cup on the bottom, which I stuck to the top edge of the tub. I poured slick lubricant into my hand, got down on my knees and began sucking on the dildo as I smeared the lube all over and in my tight ass pussy. While sucking the cock, I slid 1, and then 2 fingers in and out of my ass, my fingers working in and out as my lips slid up and down. By the time I had a 3rd and then a 4th finger inside me, my pussy was soaking wet and ready for more.    

 I stood up, stepped into the tub and lowered myself onto that slick cock, taking it all, in one motion. God it felt so good! I began riding it up and down, feeling it filling me, wishing it were a real cock! I removed it from the edge of the tub holding it inside me as I leaned against the wall with one hand while the other shoved the dildo in and out of my ass, faster and faster, every now and then I would pull it out completely which made my legs quiver and almost give out beneath me. Then I would shove the cock back deep inside me. As I fucked myself fast and hard, my little locked up clit began leaking as it stained in it's cage. I finally ended my session by giving the dildo another good sucking before cleaning up. Although I didn't actually cum other than the bit of leaking, I felt totally spent. That was hours ago and my legs are still weak and a bit shaky.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

I feel like I have to seperate entities living inside me. Myself, the normal "straight" married guy, and the feminine sissy, Tina. I have always been able to seperate Tinas' thoughts from my own and I have been able to keep that line drawn between the two.

Tina is my feminine alter ego, the one who want to dress in pretty little panties, dress in sexy outfits and wants to attract the attention of men. She want to feel a mans lips pressed to hers, to feel his strong arms wrapped around her. She wants to take his cock in her hand, in her mouth, in her tight ass, and, she wants to taste his cum, to feel it shoot deep inside her, or on her. 

All of these thoughts come to mind when I am dressed as Tina, or, when I put my mind into being her. Until recently...

Somehow, that line is getting thinner, to the point that I have stepped across that line, many times. I find myself thinking about cock, or being with another man, without being dressed as Tina, or without putting my mind into being her. This is me, the "straight" married man thinking these thoughts. Have these thoughts always been there? Have I been pretending to be "straight" all my life? Am I really just a sissy? A faggot?

I must be, otherwise, I wouldn't get so aroused at the thought that I am.