I feel like I have to seperate entities living inside me. Myself, the normal "straight" married guy, and the feminine sissy, Tina. I have always been able to seperate Tinas' thoughts from my own and I have been able to keep that line drawn between the two.

Tina is my feminine alter ego, the one who want to dress in pretty little panties, dress in sexy outfits and wants to attract the attention of men. She want to feel a mans lips pressed to hers, to feel his strong arms wrapped around her. She wants to take his cock in her hand, in her mouth, in her tight ass, and, she wants to taste his cum, to feel it shoot deep inside her, or on her. 

All of these thoughts come to mind when I am dressed as Tina, or, when I put my mind into being her. Until recently...

Somehow, that line is getting thinner, to the point that I have stepped across that line, many times. I find myself thinking about cock, or being with another man, without being dressed as Tina, or without putting my mind into being her. This is me, the "straight" married man thinking these thoughts. Have these thoughts always been there? Have I been pretending to be "straight" all my life? Am I really just a sissy? A faggot?

I must be, otherwise, I wouldn't get so aroused at the thought that I am.