TRUE Goddess Inés Sastre lost her father last weekend and I feel bad for her. I can only hope she is getting lots of support from people close to her. In this situation suffering chastity almost helps me if that's possible. I feel I share her pain.
Now I have suffered for 200 hours (8 days + 8 hours) locked in chastity for TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre. It is difficult to sleep. My blue balls keep begging to br emptied. They force my to think about the feel of my worship goo moving fas inside my pathetic penis in erection, the release of pressure in my blue balls, the orgasm and the post orgasm euphory which would certainly help me sleep well and not suffer anymore, but my suffering doesn't matter!!
TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre deserves to be worshipped hard. I wish my suffering would mean increased enjoyment for her as a cosmic zero sum thing. I wish my suffering would give her stronger orgasms and post orgasm euphory whenever she has sex with some insanely lucky man. When I think about this I totally accept my suffering and difficulty to sleep. I worship her so deeply, but I am also a total loser, a very weak male. So at a certain point I reach my limit and I will end this chastity. I will unlock my pathetic penis. I will masturbate. I will feel so bad about not being able to suffer more.
5 days into the chastity for TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre.
I have now suffered for 5 days and 9 hours of chastity for TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre. My blue ball are hurting a bit. I am very horny. My pathetic penis tries to get hard inside the chastity cage. There is some leaking. I can stop this anytime, but I won't end this soon, because I worship TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre and I feel I must suffer for her. She drove me sexually insane years ago. Pictures and videos/movies of her have given me astronomical amount of visual pleasure. I have masturbated on her pictures so many times. I struggle to deal with living on the same planet and not born the man of her dreams. Instead I was born a virgin total loser too pathetic to attract any woman not to mention a Spanish supermodel who I strongly believe is the most beautiful woman ever. I have to deal with this sexual insanity. I have tortured myself for her for years. When I am in considerable pain I can somehow deal with the situation. Suffering balances out the astronomical visual pleasure her beauty an and elegance give me.
for TRUE Goddess Ines Sastre. As of posting this blog entry I have been locked for about 34 hours. It already feels somewhat nasty. The last time I masturbated was maybe a day before locking myself. I will tell here when I end this chastity and everyone here can laugh at me how pathetic I am and how little I'm able to suffer for the TRUE Goddess I consider the most beautiful woman ever and worship deeply.
