"I can handle this. I can handle it. He's just being a little rough. I don't need to start hating myself. I don't need to start thinking about how worthless I am. It's just a little slap. That's all. Just this burning on my cheek. And my neck snapping to the side. And this burst of bright light in my brain. But it's nothing. It's nothing at all. Just like I'm nothing at all. Nothing is anything. It doesn't matter.. I don't matter. Let it happen. Let it happen over and over till there's nothing left."
"I'm trying so hard to be brave. Not to cry. He already thinks I'm too emotional. I can take it. I can take the pain. I can take the shame. I'm not going to cry. I'm not going to cry. I'm not going to cry. Oh God no please help me I can't take it anymore. Please."