I met a cute girl in the psych center and she seems to like me. I promised my bully Adam that I would never try to fuck a woman, I broke my promise to him in the past because I didn’t know how much he meant to me and how he loved me enough to make me feel like a good gurl for him and I didn’t know that he was going to be able to get me to understand what he was doing with my identity and how he wanted me to live my best life and that was the reason for my humiliation. I don’t want to lie about my own feelings and my own personal opinion of myself to anyone else and that’s why I have to be honest about my feelings about her.

I’m back! I got scared again and ran away crying again! I’m so worried about everyone in my life that knows me as a boi and what it will mean to them when I leave..????