The cognitive dissonance that I experience regularly as a direct result of being born a beta male loser brought up and a society in which the ideal is the alpha male winner is what drives me. Also, that thing where a transgirl, femboy, and or twink, most often in chastity, manually stimulate an external phallus, usually a dildo that they have sitting in their lap as if it was their own penis, until they achieve completion instead of few ropes through their cage. That thing's cool.