"I had done everything right, got married and had kids, got a nice home and a good job, everything in my life was the ideal, my parents were so proud of what I had achieved, then the kids grew up, they went to college, my husband died, and I felt like my life had fallen apart, I no longer had the support of my parents, they were gone too, I felt so alone, I had no support, the came along the young black drug dealer, he offered me support and a way of relaxing, at first it was just smoking, getting high,I would pay him to come to my home and deliver me the drugs, a perfect arrangement I thought, then came the drug test in work I failed, they fired me , I had lost it all, I was desperate, I was a mess and he now offered me something else, something to really take away my pain he said, I smoked the new drug, he fucked me in my bed, my life had hit an all time low now,, but the drug taking and the fucking continued, he called me his slut, his whore, he moved into my place, he made me dress,,and open my legs for other black men,,he liked to watch me get fucked, he liked me to be a whore,"