By Asmodeus! Despite being married to a woman, having a daughter, and having always been gay—and even with my whole family and me serving a dominant Black man—I never imagined that my desire and need to be dominated, used, and possessed by Black men with big cocks would become as overwhelming as it is now. I’ve already told our dominator about this growing desire, and he promised to offer me to his Black friends so they can fuck me to their heart's content. It drives me wild just thinking about it—I’m dying to be the slutty whore for these Black men with big cocks.

I generally despised the Black people who live here in the neighborhoods, in the city, in the states, and in the country. I carried within me the structural racism that the vast majority of white people practice against Black people. But having understood that Black people in the country are the majority of the population, that even being poor, ignorant, and marginalized, Black people maintain their race, their identity, their culture, their ancestral religiosity, their strength, and their power, I placed myself in my true position as a person who racially forms the lower and minority layer of our society. So, in my condition as a white gay man, free and privileged by my color and past racist behavior, I accept the just punishment, subjecting myself to servitude as a mentally and physically enslaved white person, both functionally and sexually, of Black people so that they may have the right to dignified, just, and equal historical reparation.