I don't know what it feels like to have a man's penis enter my anus; to this day, I can't even imagine how pleasurable it would be. I've always feared that my preference for transforming into a woman would be considered strange in my community. I've always hidden my other self from everyone, afraid I'd be called crazy.

I should be a strong man, but for some reason my chest always wants a bra, my crotch always wants women's underwear and my body always wants women's clothes, and my whole body wants to be presented as a woman. Even though I have a penis, but the rest of my body wants to be a woman. Even though I can only hide when I transform into a woman, but I am sure my anus can be inserted by a penis and I am sure I will feel pleasure like when a vagina is inserted by a penis. I can only hope that one day there will be a handsome man who is willing to give me pleasure, I am sure of that.