My insecurities are once again bothering me, and I feel I have no one to actually talk to anymore. My friends are all gone, moved out of state, gotten married, having kids. I feel I'll never be a real man with my small penis, but I also feel like I'll never be a good sissy or femboy with my fat hairy body. I've lost a lot of weight, but I've got so far to go still. I just turned 30 and I don't want to be like the fat hairy old guys who post their pics on here. No offense to them, but I kinda feel like most people get to a certain point where you just shouldn't really cross dress anymore. Some people never really have what it takes to be feminine. I know one thing, I can't justify taking hormones since I don't have gender dysphoria. I'm not sure what my sexuality will be like when I'm 40 or 50. Maybe it doesn't really matter. It makes me sad to think about it.
