Saturday was not a good day for me. Lois made contact and said that she was coming over with her boyfriend to collect her things. I did think of going out and leaving them to it, but decided against it. I realised a couple of weeks ago, that she had not mentioned who her boyfriend was, yesterday she told me it was the man she had first cuckolded me with all those years ago. It turns out he has been fucking her on and off for most of our married life together. I felt sick inside and now I just feel numb , if not dumb. I wish I was courageous enough to punch him, but I'm not and he knows it. He made a few sarcastic comments as they removed her stuff. I don't think I've ever hated anyone so much in my life. The house seems so empty without her, but Mother has already started moving in with me and is filling the void. Mothers house has been on the market less than a week and she already has a buyer.

I've been having a lot of discussions this week with Mother over my future now Lois has decided to divorce me. To be honest she always said it would never work and she was right, however she hasn't really thrown a load of told you so's at me. Mother feels it best for us both that we live together again, so I can look after her needs and I have agreed. However I had to confess to Mother that I still long for a Daddy of my own, Mother understands my needs, luckily Mother can be incredibly pragmatic in such matters and said, she sees no reason why I can't have one as well. It feels like having my cake and eating it. Mother has had a valuation on her home and is now planning to sell it and move in with me and that way we we can pay Lois off, when the time comes. All this has come very suddenly but it feels right. I'm very sad about me and Lois, but I'm excited that I have something to look forward to.