SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1046.
I suspect that many a feminized sissy cuckold which also includes the dumped and divorced ones are finding that with women’s changing attitude towards dating and their preference for young fit virile guys mostly black ones if the women can get their hands on them there is a growing army of middle aged white guys that are not getting any contact with females other than if they are prepared to pay an escort which can in the long run become very costly.
Of course the cuckoldress wife can see this state of affairs clearly happening and she may well take pity on one or two she knows or works with and with her wicked sense of humor and her never ending search for humiliations for her sissy cuckold husband she will often initiate sissy cuckold having to be a girlfriend to some fat middle aged pervert.
Cuckoldress wives love doing this to their sissy cuckolds specially if said sissy cuckold is not in any way naturally gay, the torment this places the sissy cuckold in is horrendous as it will fear disobeying its cuckoldress wife more than having to do queer acts with a boyfriend that it’s forced to serve.
And as for the dumped and divorced sissy cuckolds the craving for sperm becomes overpowering, sperm even if its not out of a pussy or anus, sperm of at least some quality unlike the weak watery muck it might indulge in by going with another sissy.
Hence these days transvestite and sissy gatherings in nightclubs, pubs, parties and meetings are infiltrated and encircled by more and more middle aged guys desperate to get a sissy gurlfriend in the knowledge that when you get a sissy cuckold lady friend it’s submissive, does as it’s told, dresses to the nines at all times and never ever refuses commands to perform even the most sick sexual acts.
As we all know once a feminized sissy cuckold gets to a certain place in its life it will do anything for spunk!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1045.
If you are a budding feminized sissy cuckold you will of course be internally ripping yourself apart in your formative years and will pathetically attempt to do male things.
What we all experience as we go through these times is that if and it’s a big if we are lucky enough to have a relationship with say a girl of our own age and if they are stupid enough to allow some intimacy through their ignorance of you they still damage what little male ego you might have lurking at the bottom of your jellified spine.
How many times once a lass has felt your turgid little penis has anything beyond first base been kiboshed with only petting, kissing and if you’re really lucky licking her pussy on offer.
Once a female comes into contact with a guy with a small penis things change, the younger woman will as quickly as possible throw you over the side of the boat out of no understanding about what to do with the likes of you.
It’s only the more mature woman and the older the better who knows the true value of the feminized sissy cuckold and believe me they can see you coming a mile off.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1044.
I do not know about you but I consider myself lucky enough to have witnessed couples having sex in my early days and what I knew even then as I saw some guy fucking the living daylights out of the woman they were with was that I would never develop into a man to be able to replicate what I was witnessing.
Nor was there any thought of how the guy was feeling ploughing a hot wet pussy or being sucked off, my thoughts were all focused on what the woman was feeling and the joy she was shouting being fucked hard.
For me I knew deep inside my place in the world of sex was to clean up the mess after a man and woman had sex and my primary role was to help and support the female in her pursuance of the sex she craved.
I suppose because all my initiations to women were with older experienced women who were not out to breed but just to get as much good sex as they wanted I never had to deal with silly young ladies swooning in love and all that mushy stuff, the women that took me under their wings were hard, stern confident ladies that wanted men so they could live out their inner slut and believe me they did and along the way cemented my place in life as a feminized sissy cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1043.
When it comes to the feminized sissy cuckold and anything sexual the Cuckoldress must instill shame! No matter how arousing the sexual acts going on around the sissy cuckold or to it the sissy cuckold must feel deep enduring shame in its status in life.
For many this starts early on with women involved in the budding sissy cuckold’s life always putting the little insignificant speck down. Of course, for many this starts with penis size, if it’s been caught masturbating or doing other disgusting things with panties and lingerie.
The women or cuckoldresses must always degrade verbally the sissy cuckold in every way possible always telling it that its worthless dirty disgusting and freakish as it licks spermy pussy, dirty ass and any one of a million other sexually related things.
Let’s face it how shameful is it when a feminized sissy cuckold comes to relate being it’s cuckoldress toilet as a sexual act.
One of the most shameful things I have ever had to do was to have sex with my cuckoldress wife’s shit.
This hot out of her bowels she placed in a black nylon stocking and then I had to hold it and insert my little sissy clit and hump away as if I was having intercourse with it.
So sick and addled am I as a feminized sissy cuckold having to do this in front of her after months of chastity it did not take even a minute for me to squirt into the mess so excited and relived being able to do sissy squirt but so shame filled by what I in my obedience did to get that shameful dirty release and of course we won’t here go into how I had to clean it all up.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1042.
I wonder sometimes what it is that makes us sissy cuckolds what we are? Let’s face it where did the idea come from in our so-called brains that we should lick other men’s sperm out of a woman pussy and anus.
For me this is puzzling as it certainly was not the influence of pornography that put the urge in my head, something that would be understandable with the current online availability of smut online.
No, I was pre internet as I was forming and even dirty magazines were hard to get hold of and there was no mention of cuckolding stuff in these publications it was only much later that readers letters started to emerge.
The crazed need I felt that first time after witnessing Pamela getting fucked in her bedroom at the party at her house and then later when it was all over when I dared kiss her stocking clad feet and work my way up desperate until she purred that she knew I had seen her and I must know what a mess she was in,
But that knowledge that another man had fucked and spunked her drove me on my desire to worship her and clean her ravaging my mind and she could sense that thus she eased her legs open and drew me in herself excited she had got hold of the likes of me to play with.
That first smell and taste of musky dirty fucked pussy sealed my fate forever.