SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 852.
What a pathetic state us Feminized sissy cuckolds are reduced to from the start when we know in ourselves, we are not going to make it as men as our desires from the onset are kinky and shameful and our little penises never grew beyond boyhood size.
Then our already shattered male persona’s a further crushed by the reaction of girls and women when they see us and their utterly soul destroying and cruel rejection of what little manhood we have.
Then the end comes when we are caught out dressing up in women’s lingerie, hosiery and clothes and even cosmetics.
Is there any wonder that so many of us Feminized sissy cuckolds try to be as girlie as possible to get as far away from any hint of masculinity as we are able to as that has always been a deep source of shame and humiliation for us.
Far better the world sees us as Feminized sissy cuckolds loved and appreciated for what we are by enlightened women and men who accept we are useful if they are with a Cuckoldress wife.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 851.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold can you hand on heart actually recall what sexual intercourse actually felt like?
I know I have trouble recalling the feeling all I seem to rely on these days is the words silky, wet, warm etc.
And for the most part of us we have no idea what the depths of a woman’s pussy feels like as our little sissy clits hardly passed the ladies labia lips when she lowered herself to entertain us.
Of course, we as Feminized sissy cuckolds become dab hands at oral sex but is there a sissy cuckold among us that can put into words what a clean freshly washed pussy tastes like!
I know I cannot as for as long as I can recall I have only ever been fed spermy fucked pussy or one’s that are sweaty, pissy and dirty or bleeding which you could argue is a natural taste?
At the end of the day my fellow sissy cuckolds I think we all know at the end of the day we do not deserve anything sweet and fresh tasting.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 850.
As you develop into your true self of being a feminized sissy cuckold you come up against woman after woman who brazenly tells you that your penis is underdeveloped, worthless and insignificant.
This is something you already know as you grow up seeing your peers developing into real men where’s you remain much the same as when you were a boy.
All this re-enforcement of fact from the women around you or those who get to see it makes you believe more and more that you are useless and come to truly believe that your own masculinity needs suppressing and even wiping out.
Thus, the urges to become a feminized sissy cuckold take hold even more even if you are yet unaware of the words of what you are just yet.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 849.
Back in the mists of time when I was developing into the yet unknown world of the feminized sissy cuckold I was already addicted to women’s tights’ panties and the holy grail of stockings.
Of course, the start point, with shamefully with my mothers which she finally exposed and fostered but I also became a laundry basked bandit of her girlfriends always finding an opportunity to visit the bathroom when around their homes.
I would shake in need and desire finding panties that were heavily soiled, and I would lick and suck on the dirty gussets in a submissive frenzy as with the tights I found.
At times it was all too much, and I would actually steal a pair of tights if there were more than one pair in the hamper to wear later to experience the sordid thrill of squirting in them thinking of the owner doing totally gross things to me!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 848.
With Tania my second ex-wife the Dominatrix, escort and cuckoldress there was never any chance for me from the onset.
Being a Dominatrix, she already knew full well the sort of shit feminized sissy cuckolds get up to when their wife is out on a date so both penile and anal chastity were fitted from date one to ensure no masturbation.
She often mentioned that being out on a date with me locked up securely at home allowed her to relax more and really let her hair down not having to worry about me getting up to any perverted sissy cuckold shit at home.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 847.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I like many others have to whole heartedly thank the women in our life specially for the ones we were exposed to early in our lives who imported to us the little tricks of preparation that makes the sissy cuckold life easier to handle!
Take Wendy the third lady that dealt with me all of them moons ago who passed on the essential tip of cleaning myself out everyday explaining to me that as a sissy cuckold my bottom would become one of the major areas for attention to dominant women and men who liked kinky stuff with the likes of me!
At the time I was utterly terrified of even the mention of anything remotely homosexual but under her guidance she showed me how to clean myself out and even brought me my first bulb to get warm soapy water into my bowels.
This has meant that on the whole I am ready for anything and as we all know anything can happen to the feminized sissy cuckold in the blink of an eye.
But as the old saying goes “never count your chicken’s before they hatch!” there have been times when I have been caught on the hop like the day in a public toilet (Known cottage) when two dirty old men fucked the shit out of me literally in one of the stalls and another incident after a sex party I had attended where five guys had gone through me so hard that on the drive home I lost all control and shit myself in the car a truly awful experience and so shameful and humiliating ( now I have sanitary pads at all times in the glove compartment)

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 846.
Naughty Feminized sissy cuckold Carla had today received the new anal rosebud pump I ordered, and it looks a wicked bit of kit that will very soon be in action.
For many strange reasons I want my sissy pussy prolapsed bulging out obscenely, I need to get cracking with this as in a couple of weeks arriving will be a huge inflatable dildo to really expand my depths.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 844.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I have always had a healthy need for knowledge and understanding of the world I live in and have had many very deep and puzzling questions come to mind.
One that still remains unanswered to this day came to me when I was sitting watching Tania my second ex-wife and Cuckoldress getting fucked hard by one of her lovers on the sofa in our lounge waiting for the climax and being ordered in to clean her creampie pussy and then suck the guy’s cock clean.
What struck me as I sat there taking in the beautiful sight of two lovers copulating one being my sexy goddess of a wife with the gusset of the panties I had on feeling tacky as sperm was still leaking out of my bottom from the anal fucking I had taken the previous evening from a gay male for the entertainment of Tania the question that struck me was is there a creature that submits and orally cleans up the fucked Feminized sissy cuckold and what could it possibly be called?
Does anyone know of such a creature as it certainly cannot be classed as human or are you one that is or wishes to be a cleaner of feminized sissy cuckolds?