So im probably going 2 jail. Basicly I have been working as a dancer at this shitty place 4 money b cuase im fucking retarded + have no skills that pay bills + don't have no boy freind 2 pay 4 things. My family totaly disowned me. Anyway I been dancing a lot + can make good money. Especailly like lap dance + private room. Yes I have been sucking dick 4 money like a stupid fucking white whire. I even been sucking white dick even thigh I hate whites. Most of the fucking ass holes who come there r white + most of the Nigers there r 2 cheap lol but I suck niggers dicks 4 free lol I told u im a white trash slut. Any way I got hired with an other white girl 2 do what I thiught is a Batchelor party but it turned out 2 b a leabian party. Like 6 or 8 black girls, I guess some ones birth day. 2 save money me + the other white girl decided not 2 bring any security b cause u have 2 pay them + we thought since these r girls there isn't any dangers. Any way long story shortnwe danced for them + then 1 offered us extra money if we kiss + make out + then didlo eachother so we did that. We were half drunk when we got there + they gave us weed + pills all night so we were pretty stoned out our minds + wild. At some point I blacked out b cuase I dont Rememebr alot of what hapoened but at some point I woke up + this fat black lesbian bitch is fuckin my face with a strap on. And an other black girl is finger fucking me. The other white girl passed out 2 + was getting dildo by an other black girl. I was total shocked 2 wake up like that + kind of scared b cause they were so rough + it was hard to breath some times she would hold my nose + face fuck me so hard I choking. And the girl finger fucking me was getting three fingers in really hard so much it hurt bad. I don't even know what else haooened b causei blacked out again. I woke up in the other white girls car with her slapping me awake. Our cloths were totaly ruined + my shoes were gone + I was covered in bruises + red marks + my purse was missing + the lesbian party girls didn't even fucking pay us. The other white girl got out of the car and threw up every wherr + ask me 2 drive her home. Anyway I got pull over by fucking Taoist white cops who accuse me of weeving all over the road + being DUI + I was 2 fucking dizzy + couldn't pass their fucking racist road side tests + breathlizer + I fucking got arrested + they didn't even fucking listen 2 me when I told them how we got robbed by black lesbians at the party + long story short not only was I fucking robbed + basicly raped over + over but now I'm being charged with DuI driving + my fucking loyer says Im probably going to go to jail b cause its my 3rd time. Holy fuck I don't even know what 2 do. Run away 2 an other state? Mexico? Help!!!!!!
Can't belief its summer all ready....2024 is total shit....nothing good ever happens 2 me! I fuckin tried 2 get Keisha 2 take me back + b my gf again but she blocked me on her phone + change the locks + kept all my shit + basicly ghost me even though I know where she lives but im 2 afraid 2 try 2 even nock on the door now b cuase the last times I went there she litarally beat the shit out of me like she wanted 2 kill me im.not even joking !!!!! I tried my key on the lock + it didn't work + I started poundig on the door saying 2 let me in 2 talk or at least 2 give me my clothes + shit + she told me 2 go away + then her new gf came 2 the door + told me 2 fuck off + die + I was like wtf u have this new girl living there + wearing MY CLOTHES???? + she is like there not ur clothes any more u stupid white bitch u owe rent + I took ur clothes 4 pay. None of this is urs no more!!!!" + I was totaly humilitsted + Keisha said that's right u shit head bitch this is ur replacement she's 10 years younger + NOT WHITE lol so I traded up...... it's so fucking depressing!!!! I'm 34....Keisha is like 20 somethings...her new gf is a black girl but looks half white + she is like 18 looking.... I hate BEING OLD!!!!!!! so I tried 2 get my clothes back at least + was sort of pulling on the new gf...I know I'm fucking retaeded....I forgot im a white + can't fight a BLACK there so superiors at fight.... so the new gf fucking got my arms pin behind my back + it felt like she's going 2 brake them !!!! + while I am pinned Keisha started 2 punch the shit out of my stomache so hard + then punche my face so hard im afrid she's going to brake my jaw or nock out my teeth she gave me 2 black eyes and busted up my lip real bad + broke my fucking nose that I have had broken so many fucking times all ready!!!! She yank my hair real hard so I bdnd down back ward + punch my neck so hard I fall down when her gf let go of me. I could not hardly breath then + was bleeding all over my face + she fucking basicly throws me down the stares its like 6 steps down + I hit my head on the ground + fuckin blacked out. I think 1 or both of them pisswd on me b cuase I wake up wet and smell like piss!!!!! So I didn't go back again + have pretty much give up that Keisha will love me back......
I cant belief its 2024!!!!! Omg I'm so fucking old lol I'm 34 now!!! Total MILF LOL or is it cougars I all ways get them mix up. My gf Keisha sort of broke up with me like she still fucks me but has other gfs 2 not exculsive + I feel like im not even 1st choice any more but I'm still total in love with her so it sucks but im trying 2 b so good she wants me back. I still live wit her but alot of nights I have 2 sleep on the couch in the orherroom b case she's fucking an other girl. I don't know what 2 do. My life is all ways fucked up. Some times u feel like I should stop doing drugs + try 2 b straight + live a fucking white life + find some fucking white boy 2 marry me excetp I HATE WHITE EVERYTHJNG. I don't know. I'm depressed I guess. My sister told me im fucked in my head + need therrapy + medds. I went off the medds I was on. I guess I should be kn them + probalby others ones 2. I don't know. I fucking hate life. I hate being whitr. I hate being me. I hate being old. I wish I was young + BLACK + fucking loved life or ehat ever it is normal people do. Does every 1 hate her self like I do??????? is it normal????? I feel so fucked up some times. Some times I feel like I should just suicide. I don't think any body would even care not even my parents or sisters. I don't even know if my daughters would care they don't even see me as there mkm since I am not the 2 raising them. I'm unfit they said + my parents r raising them even thouhgu therr half black. I'm such a fucked up peoce of shit. Why the fuck do I even live
I havent been on here in a long time lol sorry not sorry. My gf Keisha basicly owns me like a white slave now lol but I fucking love it. I basicly do what ever she tells me 2 do. I'm like white skin proerty. Like fucing furtnature. She loves 2 slap me around + I love 2 b used + abused by BLACK POWER. She doesnt realy hurt me allot though except in October she broke my nose + 3 of my fingers when she was mad at Jews for Isreal fighting Pasteline in Gaxa or what ever. I had 2 go 2 the hosptial but wasn't there a long time just 2 get fingers like bounded 2 gather while they heal . They didnt do any thing 2 my nose realy its been broken so many times by BLACKS lol its all fucked up no matter what. I guess if I got a nose job they could make it look better. Lucky i am kind of hot for my age b cause I work out + box + exercize + dont look that Jewish.
So...I went off all my medds.... i guess that was fuckin retarded... I'm so fuckin stupid. I hate my self. I hate being stupid. I hate being white. I fuckin hate my life. Ekon divorced me. Fuck thats not even true it turns out we was never legal married ?!?!?!? He told me I'm 2 old. He wants Young girls 2 breed + give him black moslem babys. Im 33 + he says im a left over not worth keeping. I dont know what 2 do. He kicked me out. I can't afford 2 pay 4 a place. Do u remember i got my ass beat by a black girl????? Shes letting me stay with her. I'm basicly her slave. When shes in a bad mood she likes to make me lick her pussy + Rim her ass hole with out cleaning. I'm so fuckin use less + dirty i feel like I belong this way. Im.white. we're trash. I fuckin hate my race so every time I lick her dirty ass hole I feel like im in my place as a fuckjng inferior white race pieces of shit. She all so likes 2 slap me around when shes mad. She couldnt find her car keys the other day and took it out on me basicly using me as a punching bag. At least I'm not stupid enough to fight back lol so I guess I laerned some thing. Im not aloud 2 leave her apatment with out her permission. I sleep on the floor when she's mad but when she's not she let's me sleep in her bed. She tells me she owns me + doesnt want me fucking any more men + tells me im.pretty 4 a white girl + may b she will make me her girl frind.
I must b fuckin retarded. Like im.white so I'm always gonna b weaker then an other race girl. I know. I fuckin hate my inferior white skin rave. We're so fuckin looser + weak. But I still box with girls + allot of them aren't white......y the fuck do i think I can fight like a BLACK girl????? do I WANT 2 b beat up bad? I cant even fight a chink or mexican girl lol how can i fight a BLACK the strongest power race????? So on Monday I fight a strong muscler BLACK girl....my mouth guard got knock out + she didn't stop 2 let me put it back in instead she fuckin fought me HARDER + hit my stomach so bad I thought im gonna throw up + all most went like limp + when I did she hit me twice in the mouth + fuckin knocks my 2 front teeth out they went right down my throat I swallowed them!!!!! She hit my face again a bunch of times when I chocking on my own teeth + broke my fuckin nose and a bone around my eye....I really got the shit beat out of my white ass.......but part of me I think likes it like its punish 4 being a fuckin WHITE RACE girl..... any way I had 2 go 2 hospital + have 2 recover b 4 I can go 2 dentist 2 get implant teeth so I look like FUCKIN WHITE TRASH HILL BILLY lol with no front teeth.... I can't belief what a fuckin retard I am 2 try 2 fight an other race who will ALWAYS BEAT WHITE. But I feel like I desrve it 4 being WHITE. THE WORST FUCKIN RACE U CAN BE.
I must b fuckin retarded. Like im.white so I'm always gonna b weaker then an other race girl. I know. I fuckin hate my inferior white skin rave. We're so fuckin looser + weak. But I still box with girls + allot of them aren't white......y the fuck do i think I can fight like a BLACK girl????? do I WANT 2 b beat up bad? I cant even fight a chink or mexican girl lol how can i fight a BLACK the strongest power race????? So on Monday I fight a strong muscler BLACK girl....my mouth guard got knock out + she didn't stop 2 let me put it back in instead she fuckin fought me HARDER + hit my stomach so bad I thought im gonna throw up + all most went like limp + when I did she hit me twice in the mouth + fuckin knocks my 2 front teeth out they went right down my throat I swallowed them!!!!! She hit my face again a bunch of times when I chocking on my own teeth + broke my fuckin nose and a bone around my eye....I really got the shit beat out of my white ass.......but part of me I think likes it like its punish 4 being a fuckin WHITE RACE girl..... any way I had 2 go 2 hospital + have 2 recover b 4 I can go 2 dentist 2 get implant teeth so I look like FUCKIN WHITE TRASH HILL BILLY lol with no front teeth.... I can't belief what a fuckin retard I am 2 try 2 fight an other race who will ALWAYS BEAT WHITE. But I feel like I desrve it 4 being WHITE. THE WORST FUCKIN RACE U CAN BE.
Omg I cant belief it 2023...im 33 yrs old thats fuckin CRAZY!!!!!! am I officaly a MILF yet lol????? Update is there isnt alot of news. Im still married 2 Ekon + coverted 2 ISLAM + paying reperations 4 being WHITE .... we moved 2 a better condo but we get free rent basicly bc I suck r landlords cock regular....hes some kind of Arab? His dick is sooo gross hes small + hairy + his dick is like purple color lol!!!! He likes 2 cum down my throat or in my eyes + hair + face. I hope Ekon will get me pregnant b 4 I'm 2 old. He got another white girl preg she's like 22 or what ever, I guess I'm just a old milf 2 get fucked but not 2 breed any more but I want more BLACK BABYS