SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1003.
As a feminized sissy cuckold you get attuned to certain smells and aromas and they drive you into a frenzy of need and desire.
I think we all know being what we are the delectable scent of a woman used and fucked mixed in with her sweat and stale perfume and even cigarette smoke and alcohol.
Passing a woman like that in the street or in the heat of an enclosed building makes you want to fall at her feet and beg to lick her clean.
When your wife starts coming home smelling like that and flaunting it in your face as she reels you in to clean her up as she relates how naughty she has been and shows you the undeniable proof she knows she can do with you what she wants no matter how humiliating and degrading her ideas are.
Once she has rubbed her scents, smells and aromas into your face making you taste her slutdom you will never forget what you have experienced and you can forget about anything even approaching normal sexual things ever again.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1002.
Since my early days I have had a foot fetish especially feet coated in nylon, this of course was due to my mother’s feet that were always in tights or stockings and her liking of having me massage her feet when we watched TV of an evening.
Of course, then there was the disgraceful incident where I erected against the sole of her nylon clad foot and her disparaging remark about how insignificant my little penis was that led to her making me go and put a pair of her tights on as she exposed that she knew of my sneaky perverted dressing up.
From then on feet were a fixation for me and it was not long before I was kissing, licking and sucking on toes and feet no matter how sweaty and smelly they were.
I literally feint if I see a woman dangle a shoe off her toes specially if her feet are in nylons there is nothing as sexy to witness so alluring and powerful and the dangling woman knows exactly what she is doing capturing the attention of men she wants to fuck and to enslave the males and sissies she wants groveling at her feet.
Of course, feminized sissy cuckolds like me will break the bank to be a cuckoldresses hosiery slave on top of the stupid amounts of money we spend on our own never depleted stock of tights and stockings.
I don’t know about you but if I notice that I have dipped under at least a hundred pairs of tights or stockings in stock at home I get the sweats of fear about running out and have to go on a shopping spree to stock up.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1001.
In all my years as a feminized sissy cuckold it has never ceased to amaze me how women who entertain marriage to us or just dating us all seem to want to see us being fucked and used by men.
It seems to me that many women have an intense interest in seeing this colorful display of what is basically homosexuality with the added twist that gives the woman a thrill knowing the sissy cuckold will be suffering humiliation and shame being used as a piece of fuck meat for a raging queer.
What’s worse for the feminized sissy cuckold is that under strict orders of dire consequences it has to put on an act of really enjoying cock sucking, spunk swallowing, ass rimming and being fucked like a slut.
In my own feminized sissy cuckold mind I have never been attracted to queer sex and only started it under orders of women who wanted to witness the sordid act but I found to my shame and humiliation that no matter how sickened and appalled I was as the act went on my pathetic body reacted and my sissy clit told no lies and I was powerless against the feelings a cock fucking my sissy pussy brought on and then the shame of a sissygasm.
Over the years I have come to accept not only myself as a feminized sissy cuckold but also to revel in the shame and self-disgust and at times have put myself in positions where men have taken advantage of me other than me acting under orders of a woman which mitigates a lot of responsibility for the sordid queer acts.
I suppose a feminized sissy cuckold comes to understand that its role in life is to be used and abused and to serve as a sex toy for anyone that needs sexual relief!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1000.
One of the most devastating occurrences in the life of the feminized sissy cuckold is that moment when it comes under the control of actual women and it’s secret fantasy life becomes reality, prior to the exposure the feminized sissy cuckold lives the life of Riley as the old saying goes,
And don’t say you do not understand as all of us were wanking our little clits till they almost dropped off being an in the closet sissy cuckold.
So, the sudden change of being able to erect fiddle and squirt without by your or leave to being controlled with an Iron fist that denies even erections let alone sissy squirts is mentally crushing and it takes a lot for many feminized sissy cuckolds to come to terms with its predicament.
The difference between having fantasies about being in chastity under a cuckoldress to actually having to live it is a massive hurdle to surmount but no matter how much you suffer during this time because it’s what the Cuckoldress wants there is no option to pull out and the sissy cuckold will just have to suck it up and grow to accept its place in life.