SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 725.
I think we can all think back and review some of the shameful humiliating things we did as budding feminized sissy cuckolds that even to this day make us shudder?
Not saying we regret these actions as getting caught out or exposed in the end was a great relief instead of having to keep our true natures deadly secret.
For me it was not so much being found out that I stole and wore my mothers tights and my addiction to hosiery and feet with the unforgettable night my little penis erected against the sole of her nylon clad foot as I massaged it while we were watching television and her reaction to that and then being told she knew I wore her dirty tights and made me go put a pair on for her to see and then being told I was to wear them daily.
No the real shame I found was another confession but a week or two later when she was interrogating me over things I was up to and I was in such a weak vulnerable state that I let slip I also messed around with her dirty panties that I found in the laundry basket along with the tights.
By this time of an evening I was wearing tights and a nightie she had looked out for me saying it suited hosiery better than a pyjama top and so I was ordered as it was more than a request to show her what I did with her dirty panties.
I was almost crying with shame as I knelt back in front of her after going to the bathroom and fetching a black pair of silky panties that lay at the top of the basket obviously ones that se had been wearing that day and with interest on her face she urged me to show her what I did.
Again I was shamefully erect in front of my Mother as I lifted the gusset of her dirty panties to my lips giddy with the smell and the sight of the patch of tacky gunge on the material and with my other hand I touched my little penis as I began to lick the mess from the gusset!
It was not the licking up of the slime that got me a telling off but because i had the nerve to touch myself through the tights that brought a tirade of disgust from my Mother making me snap my hand away but far from that being the end of it she coldly said " you should be concentrating on licking my panties clean to get them ready for washing not fiddling with yourself like some degenerate pervert!"

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 724.
As a Feminized Sissy Cuckold I totally addicted to hosiery in all its forms not only on myself but on women and even other sissies!
It is a crying shame that at present women seem to have turned their backs on femininity and its only a small but significant section of women that wear them and know the feminine power of hosiery.
It's awful these days to see how women are dressing are the deliberately making themselves unfeminine and unattractive by the advent of them donning ugg boots and jellies on their feet combined with leggings and sloppy t-shirts and fleece tops in the winter.
It takes the biscuit that if a less than good looking lady is in a nice pair of heels hosiery and a skirt with nice top men will look and appreciate who and what she is! Christ they are even eyeing up us sissies because we dress in what was once the preserve of women!
I hope like everything things go in cycles and women come round to celebrating their femininity again and understand the power that gives them over males and us mere feminized sissy cuckolds who are here to serve them!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 723.
Did it take you long when you evolved into a Feminized Sissy Cuckold to come to terms with having to eat pussy, clean ass and suck cocks that were in an appalling state?
I am not taking here about the good honest pussy or anal cream pie or post wet cock sucking clean! I am referring to women and men taking advantage of the Sissy Cuckolds unwritten law that they cannot refuse to clean anyone?
Many a time I have felt physically sick with tears running down my cheeks as I have licked a pussy that's stinks worse than a trash can on a hot summers day that had off fish in it!
What crushes you is the glee in the woman's face that she has the power to make you eat and clean her no matter the awful state she has got herself into!
And then there is the murky subject of her anus and all the stuff that slides or oozes out of that sexual organ that she will also fully expect you to clean and eat.
And it does not stop with women! guys into abusing feminized sissy cuckolds like nothing better that tormenting the feminized sissy cuckold with their smelly, slimy dirty cocks!
I even had one experience when with Helen my prostitute lady friend we watched two guys get it on and some serious assfucking occurred and after the dom guy had dumped his load up the subbies ass he ordered me to suck his cock clean that was slick with the submissive shit!
Of course neither he or Helen would allow me to not do it so there under the mirthful gaze of Helen and the just fucked submissive I sucked the Masters cock clean!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 722.
Feminized Sissy Cuckolds are at the end of the day our own worst enemies?
By that I mean we life a life full of being denied sex, erections and masturbation.
We are constantly told we are to small and insignificant for sex and why should we have erections if our tiny penises are not up to the size women like for sex and as for masturbation? well we get told only filthy perverts get up to that sort of vile behaviour!
So there we are rolling along in a sick sea of denied sexual outlet and utter sexual frustration that goes so far beyond the blue balls syndrome!
I think you all know what I am talking about that almost drunk like state a feminized sissy cuckold goes about in that is a churning mass of need for sex or even a sniff or sight of it?
For the feminized sissy cuckold has to admit it's this state that it actually likes as you are on a plane way above anything you have ever known like a walking almost orgasm that's never going to be pushed over the edge.
So think of this state of being that you like before you pester your Cuckoldress for any relief she'll be so much happier you not asking and her not having to supervise some pathetic pity dribble she allows once in a while!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 721
If you are a Feminized sissy cuckold the odds are that you are afflicted with a tiny worthless penis so in the course of your miserable pathetic little life you will have to come to accept that anyone has the right to ridicule you for your non existent endowment!
And of course your Cuckoldress wife or partner had the absolute right to verbally humiliate you about your little penis and physically punish it to what ever degree she deems fit at any given moment!
Some of the worst penis punishments a feminized sissy cuckold can and will have to endure comes from creams, potions and natural juices!
Just think over this!
Many times Tania my second wife and Cuckoldress would have me strapped down in just my stockings heels and lingerie in her dungeon and she would remove my chastity device and caress my little penis till it was erect being careful not to let me have a sissy squirt.
I would be shaking all over and not just from the beautiful feeling of her touching my failure but because she had got her set of stainless steel penis shaped plugs out and the one she selected mostly it being the largest in the leather case would be coated with either fresh juice from a Chilli Pepper or tiger balm or deep heat and she would then fuck my urethra with it.
Anyone who has experienced this sort of penis punishment will know of the sheer burning hell the feminized sissy cuckold is put into as the creams and potions get to work releasing the fires of hades in your urethra.
Then wickedly Tania used to smear further balm of chilli sap all over the head of my little penis! and of course to really punish me as she had gloves on to apply the fiery stuff she would then insert her fingers into my sissy pussy.
By then I would be begging pleading screaming and crying in burning agony but strangely my sissy pin would still be erect as Tania fucked my urethra.
She would then remove the penis plug and quickly roll over my sissy clit one of the very small condoms she used to purchase for me if I was to have a release.
She would only do this part of the chilli or balm treatment if her grudge against my sissy clit was really riled up that day and she would then masturbate me to sissygasm which as your clit is in agony of burning is very intense!
But then the worst bit happens as the sissy milk filling the tip of the condom was massaged into my sensitive penile skin and the real fires of hell explode and you understand why your Cuckoldress has tied you down for this punishment as you thrash about in an agony you cannot escape from for hours.
And all through this penis punishment you hear your Cuckoldress explaining in every way possible what a dud and a failure your little clit is and why it needs to be punished for being such a let down for a woman like her and how its an offence to womanhood in general!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 720.
Any Cuckoldress worth her salt uses psychology to really screw with the Feminized Sissy Cuckolds mind.
Everything should be for the Cuckoldress almost to much bother to do anything for her Sissy Cuckold and it's only out of the goodness of her heart that she does anything at all.
She will verbally inform her sissy cuckold that it aught to count itself lucky as no other woman would bother with it!
Take for example if she in any way has to touch sissy cuckolds genitals not only will she pour words of derision and disgust on the offending little thing but also a series of facial expressions to tell sissy cuckold just how unsavoury it is for her manipulating sissy cuckolds little penis.
But here's the rub Sissy Cuckold is so in love and in adoration of its Cuckoldress wife or partner that nothing can dampen the honour of her touching it's pathetic little noodle and so devoted is sissy cuckold it will believe with what its Cuckoldress is saying that her words are utterly true and it will feel sorry for her that she has to lower herself to deal with him in any sort of way.
A lot of what goes on between Cuckoldress and her Feminized Sissy Cuckold I suppose could be classed as brain washing but in all honesty in this type of relationship where strict boundaries and position in life have to be set I personally see nothing wrong with a sissy cuckold having no thoughts of its own it should be utterly dependant on the Cuckoldress what happens to sissy cuckold in life and obedience should be total!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 719.
Speak of the devil as the saying goes when I got in late this afternoon I saw that there had been a call from my second ex wife and Cuckoldress Tania so still being in awe and sissy cuckold in love with her I phoned back.
The meat of the conversation is very private so I will not go into it here but the other part once business was done was so hot and had me aching and grovelling?
The previous evening still being a busy escort Tania had serviced a local stag party and had fucked and sucked her way through eleven guys finally rolling home at three in the morning she stated that she really could have done with me there as she had spunk leaking out of every hole.
And on top of that by the time I had called her she had done three more clients that day.
Oh boy did she laugh her stockings off when I made a strangled sort of sound down the phone as I had a sissy accident in my silky black panties!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 718.
What an awful conundrum a Feminized Sissy Cuckold gets itself into!
Coming to understand that you want to be one does not mean that you are gay in fact most feminized sissy cuckolds start of being pretty much heterosexual (we'll accept the licking sperm out of the wife as not quite queer?)
But it then comes apparent that the Cuckoldress wife will start to demand that her feminized sissy cuckold do certain duties that push the sissy cuckold over the line of heterosexuality into Bi-sexuality, sucking the boyfriends cocks clean is usually the first thing and then fluffing cocks hard for her this includes when she is entertaining more than one man and sissy cuckolds mouth can be used to orally stimulate a spend cock back to hardness for the wife while she is busy getting all her holes fucked by other men.
Once sissy cuckold is doing this sort of thing even though its still terrified and fearful of doing homosexual things it is the wife that pushes things further as most cuckoldresses in the end want to see the entertainment of watching their Feminized sissy cuckold getting fucked by men.
And so it starts under the gleeful eyes of the wife as some gays she knows gladly introduce you into taking cock in every hole.
Your world is shattered when that first queer cock entered your sissy pussy and it hurts as is normal and you are ashamed of yourself and disgusted as you try to act like your enjoying it under orders from your wife but still you cry tears as your anal virginity is taken hating every moment of the defilement.
Then against your so called mind your body betrays you as instead of pain in the ass you start to feel a wicked heat gathering inside you where the cock is pumping in and out and without being able to stop yourself you start humping your ass back on that gay dick as uncontrollable pleasure sweeps through you and the only pain your feeling is from your chastity device crushing every pathetic attempt by your little penis to erect.
I can remember to this day the first time I was fucked by a homosexual male in front of my wife and all the above happened I I was sobbing in every emotion as I had a sissygasm despite the chastity device just before the guy spunked in my ass!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 717.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold you will have to learn to accept and eventually embrace so many levels of sissy cuckold angst, termoil and feelings.
Take for example the nights you are left at home whilst your Cuckoldress is out having sex! this could be anywhere with anyone or more than just one anyone you just do not know till she informs you, nights in for the feminized sissy cuckold are pure torture as on top of having to toil away with the tasks your Cuckoldress has set you your mind is in overdrive going through every scenario possible as to what she is up to and it will leave you drained and exhausted by the time she totters through the front door in her high heels.
Then there are the times she leaves you home but informs you she is bringing back her latest's flame, the evening you have is in frenzied fearful anticipation as your going to meet the man she is fucking? (what a shock you get when she brings home more than one!) when she does get home you've made yourself up as pretty as can be and meekly welcome him.
Your fervent hope right now if that your wife will let you watch? but that is not always the case as cruelly she will at times banish you to your little sissy room where in sissy cuckold anguish and excitement you'll just have to listen to the sounds of your wife and her man fucking all night!
But the big prize is the nights you are with them and have to watch the sex they have every sordid wild second! seeing what a real man or men and a real cock or cocks can do to your wife and just how much it is she that is taking what she wants acting like a harlot fucking and sucking every hard cock on offer grabbing every slut like orgasm she knows she deserves as a Cuckoldress wife and thus utterly fulfilling your feminized sissy cuckold needs totally!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 716.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold you come up against things for the first time that really shock you?
One that really got me because it also turned out to be super kinky and now I crave it is the prolapsed anus.
I got my first one off of Tania my second Cuckoldress after she had been indulging in a session with seven very well hung guys from the Caribbean who all took advantage of all her holes ending up with three or more cum shots each.
Their large black cocks certainly had done the business in her ass as afterwards when we were alone she came over to me ordering me to lay on the floor and she then stood over my head spunk already dripping down onto my face.
Tania then squatted brining her asshole down to where my mouth was under her but as she did so the sheer stretching and pounding her anus had taken made it prolapse and her anal meat shot out hanging obscenely out of her body a volume of spunk shooting out into my open waiting mouth.
Tania of course felt what had happened and purred at me to suck the dirty anal meat drawing the guys sperm out and the runny shit that was coming from her bowels and keep sucking gently till her prolapse retracted which it did after a few minutes of my taking her anal meat into my worshipping mouth.
Yes utterly kinky and abasing for the feminized sissy cuckold but what better service can you give your Cuckoldress after she has has fulfilling anal sex with real men!