SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1077.
Once you become a dumped and divorced feminized sissy cuckold the first thing you find is that there is absolutely no way you can return to what society terms a normal whatever that is.
The hardest thing at first is having to start making your own decisions and choices again and because you are so dominated and pathetic what you find yourself doing is literally thinking what your Cuckoldress would do and go along with that.
Then you will find that if you are a sissy cuckold now free of chastity masturbation comes back into play and what I noticed straight away was the guilt and shame associated with touching my sissy clit without having got prior permission the feeling of this is naughty and dirty are palpable and often I will place myself in chastity just for the feeling of safety and comfort.
The cravings for creampie will overwhelm the dumped and divorced feminized sissy cuckold as it starts it search for another Cuckoldress and licking its own woeful dribble will not satisfy so the sissy cuckold will reach out to other sissies and eventually homosexuals to get the sperm fix even if the sissy cuckold is not inherently gay itself.
The sperm fix will and always is the dumped and divorced feminized sissy cuckolds’ downfall and it will do absolutely anything to get it from visiting Dominatrixes and prostitutes to letting itself be abused at fetish parties and the worst Pervert parties where a mass of vile kinky perverts slake their lusts on the one or two sissy cuckolds or transvestites lured to attend.
Having over the years attended parties such as these I cannot describe properly how low into the sewer of submissive humiliation you have to go being repeatedly fucked both orally and anally by whoever wants to use your sissy holes your mouth also used to rim ass and be pissed in and on for hours at a time.
What’s worse is that in the end you grow to accept as a feminized sissy cuckold that you are just a fuck hole, and it all somehow excites your perverted mind and again and again you accept you have to return for more.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1076.
For many feminized sissy cuckolds one of the shocking things they have to cope with and learn to live with is the sight and sounds of their wife actually having a proper sexual experience after thinking she was making her true reactions when she pity fucked him as her husband back when she was blind and stupid.
What the feminized sissy cuckold now see’s when she becomes a Cuckoldress wife is what a real man can bring out in a woman, the flirty sexual nature, the temptress camp in her and of course the screams, yells and downright pornographic nature of her sexual goading’s and urgings when she is getting fucked.
It’s like a proper man can make the true nature of a woman bloom and she will show all her feminine colors to her feminized sissy cuckold husband to rub his face in it as the saying goes.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1075.
A Feminized sissy cuckold must always be aware that at a moment’s notice it will have to undergo and endure punishments to its sissy clit for being so small and annoying it’s Cuckoldress.
Some if the punishments that the Cuckoldress inflicts on her feminized sissy cuckold can only be described as coming from the deepest vault in Hell.
The worst I endured was the Chilli treatment for which to begin with I did not know what was happening as My Cuckoldress Tania placed me in a Hubble with my wrists cuffed behind my back.
Tania then proceed in front of my eyes to pull on a pair of latex gloves and then split out a smallish Chilli, what occurred next horrified me as she spit on the open evil fruit to moisten it up the reached down and started to massage the Chilli all over the dome of my sissy clit paying special attention to my urethral opening, burning irritation and extreme discomfort started almost straight away taking my breath and making me yelp in agony.
Then with a wicked loving grin on her lips Tania rolled a condom over my for some reason turgid little sissy clit and slowly masturbated me all the while verbally teasing me as I suffered at her hands and warning me that I should take her advice and not have a sissy squirt.
Of course Tania knew working my little sissy clit so expertly after such a long time in being denied any relief from her was not in my ability as her feminized sissy cuckold to heed her advice and withing a minute or two or searing heated masturbation I screamed into a quite intense sissygasm.
I would have been well served to heed Tania’s warning’s and advice as the tip of the condom filled with my weak watery sissy mess and Tania used her finger tips to massage the dribbled offering into the already burning dome of my sissy clit thus starting off a chain reaction as the moisture of my filthy spendings made the juice of the Chilli explode into action and what I thought and suffered prior to my sissygasm was nothing compared to the torture and burning heat and irritation that now ensued that had me crumpled on the floor at Tania’s black stocking clad legs and high heels screaming and crying in a futile wish that it would be all over.
Well it did end eventually and I mean eventually three house of horrible suffering later Tania released me and I ran to the bathroom to wash my burnt little clit the result being the new cool water fired up the burning again and Tania stood behind me laughing informing me that she had forgot to tell me that it was best to let the heat die naturally not to add to the flames.
So, by bedtime the torture had died down at last, and I knew from then on that if any form of Chilli was written on the shopping list that I would almost have a nervous breakdown.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1074.
As a lifelong feminized sissy cuckold one thing I have noticed has been the ascendancy of the black male in the lifestyle.
When I got started being sissy cuckold Carla back in the mid to late seventies there was just a mere sprinkling of black men around that white married women could get their hands on so most of the guys stepping into a cuckoldress led relationships were white as well
I am not saying for one moment that this was a passion killer for either the Cuckoldress wife or the feminized sissy cuckold husband, but the pool of big cock was very hit and miss.
As the years went by of course it was the black man coming out of the inner-city ghetto’s that had the maturity ability and the hard learned sexual experience who accommodated himself perfectly into the Cuckoldress lifestyle scene knowing the taboo of interracial sex would make passions explode in the white Cuckoldress wife and the frenzied sissy cuckold husband.
The advent of the arrival of the black male on the scene also virtually assured the cuckoldress led couple of assured big black cock not something that more often than not resembled their husband pathetic little penis.
The black male also did his homework about the needs of the feminized sissy cuckold realizing that in a relationship with a Cuckoldress wife he also needed to control and dominate the feminized sissy cuckold up to and including getting involved with the punishment, mental tormenting and sexual abuse of the sissy cuckold with the agreement of the Cuckoldress wife of course.
So, these days the weight of control responsibility does not just rest on the wife’s shoulders but more often than not is shared with her black lovers, which of course leads to a totally more satisfying life for all concerned.
The off spin of the rise of the black male in cuckoldress led relationships and women in general wanting black lovers has led to the novel situation that white guys are just not getting any pussy what so ever and now out of desperation many white guys have come to understand that the only sex they are going to get is if the have feminized sissy cuckold girlfriends something that Cuckoldress wives love to utilize in their never ending chase for ways and mean’s to degrade and humiliate their sissy cuckold husbands making them submit to what can only be described as dressed up homosexual acts for her entertainment.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1073.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold it does help if you quickly get used to the fact that your so-called penis is utterly worthless to your wife and she now as a Cuckoldress views it as a complete waste of time.
Now she has real men seeing to all her sexual needs she will give you a second thought and eventually she will get utterly bored and annoyed about the effort she once in a while puts in to give you some relief.
And the fact is as cruel as it is the majority of cuckoldress wives conclude that the sissy cuckold’s relief is the height of selfishness and the sooner that pathetic need is beaten out of you the better for humankind in general.
And she like always is correct you are a feminized sissy cuckold and are there to serve and worship her femininity and womanhood not to be forever begging to squirt or even have erections as the sight of your waste of space is offensive now that she has perfect cocks to please her.
You can understand why so many Cuckoldresses leave it to nature to make the sissy cuckold squirt as accidents do happen as the sissy cuckold is basically unable to control its vile needs and urges even if in secure chastity or the Cuckoldress will farm out the sissy cuckolds relief into the hands of a filthy queer pervert or another feminized sissy cuckold for entertainment value.
Whatever the wife decides she is well within her rights as you are her property and be truthful would you feel good about yourself soiling her pretty hands with that weak watery muck that dribbles out of you occasionally.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1072.
With having my initiation to sexual things with women on a sissy cuckold level from the offset when I finally did con a girl into having normal sex with me the whole thing was a fiasco.
I still as a feminized sissy cuckold wonder if the very few girls that I was able to sweet talk into bed are to this day still traumatized by the event, for sure none of them invited me back for a second bite of the cherry as the old saying goes.
And from the many comments and withering verbal attacks I have had from all manner of women that have seen my tiny penis the consensus is that I am so small that the poor girls most probable did not feel a think as I humped away like a drooling moron on top of them
Of course because our feminized sissy cuckold ego’s are already so fragile over our penis size compared to our peers once we start being crushed by the truth escaping from between the lush lips of the women that get to see us we soon come to accept that we are not in any shape of form normal males if male at all.
And I suppose I am like so many feminized sissy cuckold that in the end I found comfort and even a sexual kinky thrill being lambasted at all angles by vicious barbed small penis humiliation and truly to this day I get intensely jealous if I come across another feminized sissy cuckold who’s sissy clit is smaller than mine in any way.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1071.
For more than a few feminized sissy cuckolds the last thing they want even after they and their cuckoldress wife are living the lifestyle is exposure.
It’s one thing people in the circle of fetish parties etc. knowing but as for everyone in your general life that is something so many feminized sissy cuckolds fear and avoid
And at the end of the day that stance is a pathetic hang over of supposed masculinity that the meek as a mouse sissy cuckold tries to hide behind.
You will find no matter how hard you try the news will get out eventually and more often than not it’s because the wife was spotted out on a date with her boyfriend and then the news and gossip spreads like wildfire as people you know try to work out what is going on in your marriage.
In almost all cases of a Cuckoldress led couple the wife is more relaxed about the news getting out, lets face it most other women will regard your wife with envy having the freedom to have lovers and the men she knows will now class her as a red hot bit of fluff and will try their hand at pulling your wife.
You will also find that your wife regardless of what you think or say will confide in her best friends, her sister and Mother of course and there will not be many cases where these female friends and relatives will be aghast as like most women they will always take their female friend’s side in any matter.
No, it always seems to be the new feminized sissy cuckold husband that wants sneaky secrecy hiding away his true colors and nature which actually reenforces just how spineless and pathetic he truly is and why his wife does need real men as boyfriends.
The silly thing is exposure and humiliation are things that deep down the feminized sissy cuckold craves and needs so thank God when a wife becomes a Cuckoldress she in the end is the person in the relationship that comes to the conclusion that they should live openly for all to see and know.
Once this status is achieved by a couple they can truly live and enjoy the Cuckoldress lifestyle with no silly worries.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1070.
I have yet as a Feminized sissy cuckold to meet a woman that did not love having one of our sort kneeling at her feet kissing licking and sucking in worship and adoration her nylon clad feet and toes.
From every woman asked they state the same that they feel an immense sense of power having the feminized sissy cuckold groveling at their feet even if as a woman they are not out and out cuckoldresses.
It’s just the laws of nature that the female know the place a feminized sissy cuckold occupies in this world and it pleases a woman’s sense of justice to know that there is a part of out human species that is not a woman and certainly not a man that will understand that it’s place is to serve and suffer gladly accepting the mere scraps the woman throws its way.
For all non-enlightened women the step to being a Cuckoldress might seem daunting and that wall has been built over the centuries by social mores, that’s why girls nights out, hen nights and other occasions when a woman can discard the ridged expectations of society they will literally go crazy drunk with lust and power far more sleazy and sordid than the male.
You just have to clock how popular drag act are at women’s parties because a woman knows instinctively that she can dominate and control a supposed male in drag thus also there is a woman’s utter fascination about transvestites as they know that deep down what that so called male is attempting is deeply sexual and submissive and closely linked to the world of the sissy cuckold.