SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 758.
One of the things that always drove me to distraction and a sissy cuckold frenzy was and is the fact that every man that my cuckoldress wives or partners over the years has fucked touched places in my wives of these women that I never could feel (I am talking about the very few that acutally lowered themselves to have intercouse with me!)
The sickness you feel as your Cuckoldress describes graphically what it feels like to be fucked so deep and hard makes every sissy cuckold emotion rip through you knowing that for your Cuckoldress you are an abstract failure on a colossal scale and your only hope to be with her is to do her bidding no matter how degrading, shameful and humiliating
For us sissy cuckolds the best we are ever going to get is licking up and swallowing the sperm and cunt cream that oozes out of our Cuckoldresses pussy and anus and for that honour we should be eternally grateful!

I discovered something about myself yesterday that I never knew existed. I arranged a date with an old friend who's in the country for a few days. I dressed up to the nines just as I know he likes to see me. Bit more difficult these days sice I have put weight on since my operation. It didn't seem to matter what I did, I couldn't get much of an erection from him and I started to feel bad about myself as I felt like I had dissapointed him. Out of the blue, he asked if I had any punishment tools. We have a few things knocking about and at his request, I started to beat his bottom with a paddle. I've never done this and it felt quite alien, especially as I am deeply submissive. Of course Ive been spanked many times over the years and paddled. After ten minutes his bottom was nicely red and low and behold he had a nice erection that I took full advantage of. But my point is that I realised I was enjoying myself punishing him, which is not in my nature. I think I'd like to do it again and see if it was a one off thing. I'm seeing him again before he flies home to Spain, so I will pop the question.