i've been thinking about what i want done to me, but now i'm just thinking i'd like to have my Masters –and there should be many of them – doing whatever they want, experimenting how many ways they can hurt me, whether they can think of things that could still humiliate me and make me feel even more degraded... really, how far they could take it. And, importantly, I would want zero "safeword," or any way out of it, ever. But I would not want to be killed, or to have my clit damaged so I could never get horny from it, even if i wouldn't necessarily alolowed to cum... maybe i would sometimes, or maybe not, up to my Masters like everything else. But the most degrading thing is to be forced to demonstrate how wet i get from it all, so probbly don't take away my clitty, i'm thinking. thank you for listening to my stupid fantasies everyone... still not sure if i will ever really dare to do any of this. lackmailers welcome, to, you know, maybe get me started own the path to ruin and shame...

i'm done with having limits, but i'm also a coward. trying to work up the nerve to let the boys treat me like i deserve...