Strange times. Lois popped in yesterday in passing. We sat and chatted about everything going on in our lives, conveniently ignoring the elephant in the room that she is divorcing me. She mentioned her boyfriend in passing like I should care. I'm very confused. Mother says I'm overthinking which I am apt to do. I'm not sure if I am or not or whether is playing some sort of game. I feel like I'm trying to pick up the pieces and she comes barging into my life again and makes me realise again that I'm missing her.

Had a difficult moment last night. Mother and I went out for a meal at a local pub restaurant. On the way out I noticed not only Lois and her boyfriend, but they were with 'our' so called mutual friends in a group laughing and joking. None of our mutual friends have bothered to contact me since Lois left, to ask how I am. I hoped we would leave without being noticed but Lois spotted me and shouted my name. I just waved and crawled out of there. Luckily Mother was there to dry my tears

Bit of an ugly scene yesterday at home. Mother had decided to stop seeing her boyfriend. She says she has all she wants in me. He didn't take it very well and started slagging us both off and called me a fucking queer and a motherfucker, which was almost funny. He was clearly taken by Mother. I hope he doesn't make a nuisance of himself