SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1082.
I knew early on that I was not going to be normal in society’s sense of the word.
I think the moment when I was in a pair of my mother’s dirty worn tights sniffing and licking the gusset of her dirty worn panties and I ejaculated without touching myself was my downfall.
The spurting I had at that moment out of my tiny little erection, and I already viewed it as small was so intense and earth shattering the nylon encasing my smooth hairless little sissy ovaries and turgid little sissy clit, bottom and legs heightening my first ever proper ejaculation to untold intensity thus trapping me forever.
Of course, being in tights and licking and sniffing panties made me feel ashamed as they were my mothers and secondly the fear of being caught because what I was doing was so naughty, sinful and nasty.
And of course, I retained those fears and ever-growing fetishes taking more and more risks because I was unable to stop myself until my mother calmly ousted me.
Thankfully because of her attitude regarding me dressing up I was able to under her allowance to wear her discarded hosiery, panties and then other female apparel and make up.
Her view’s on my sexual outlet’s was another matter altogether and over time she instilled in me that my masturbation was nasty, uncalled for because my clit was to small and re-enforced the shame I already felt and I dare not play with myself unless I has a sort of quasi order from her such as she would throw a pair of her dirty knickers at me.
Pantie relief was to become magical as it was made quite plain that if I did my mess on the gusset of the thrown item I was expected to lick the material clean and to prove I had done this I was to show her afterwards before washing the item.
Or snap that she was sick of seeing my little clit sticking up and I was to go and sort myself out making sure I squirted where waste and shit always goes, down the toilet.
So, as you can imagine even before I stepped into the world of the feminized sissy cuckold I had all the learned traits of shame and humiliation and illicit thrills in being made to do sexy sinful stuff.
SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1081.
As a feminized sissy cuckold, I was not naturally bi-sexual or gay at the beginning in fact I had issues with it and to a certain extent I still do what with the shame doing homosexual acts brings to me.
But after years of conditioning at the hands of Cuckoldresses and Mistresses one accepts that I need the humiliation and shame and there is no denying that once you carry out the orders you have been given to please a man you get a small taste of the power real women have.
Take sucking cock, to think as a feminized sissy cuckold you look feminine enough and sexy enough to enrage a man’s passions to the point that with your mouth your red painted lips round his erection you can bring him to climax feeling the power a hard cock has and knowing it was you that sucked the sperm out of him and swallowed.
Then the sex act with your sissy pussy the pride you feel along with the humiliation, shame and self-disgust in allowing another male to enter you and fuck your hole hard until he dumps his load in you is shattering and you also discover the very naughty feeling you get when you experience a man’s sperm spattering away inside you.
These acts also bring on another feeling that puts a feminized sissy cuckold in its rightful place and that feeling is a real taste of femininity and it’s these generated feelings and emotions that trap a feminized sissy cuckold into an addiction where time and time again it will allow itself to be used and abused by men and not just one at a time.
Shamefully I like many others have had multiple perverts sexually use me at parties etc..
