SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1075.
A Feminized sissy cuckold must always be aware that at a moment’s notice it will have to undergo and endure punishments to its sissy clit for being so small and annoying it’s Cuckoldress.
Some if the punishments that the Cuckoldress inflicts on her feminized sissy cuckold can only be described as coming from the deepest vault in Hell.
The worst I endured was the Chilli treatment for which to begin with I did not know what was happening as My Cuckoldress Tania placed me in a Hubble with my wrists cuffed behind my back.
Tania then proceed in front of my eyes to pull on a pair of latex gloves and then split out a smallish Chilli, what occurred next horrified me as she spit on the open evil fruit to moisten it up the reached down and started to massage the Chilli all over the dome of my sissy clit paying special attention to my urethral opening, burning irritation and extreme discomfort started almost straight away taking my breath and making me yelp in agony.
Then with a wicked loving grin on her lips Tania rolled a condom over my for some reason turgid little sissy clit and slowly masturbated me all the while verbally teasing me as I suffered at her hands and warning me that I should take her advice and not have a sissy squirt.
Of course Tania knew working my little sissy clit so expertly after such a long time in being denied any relief from her was not in my ability as her feminized sissy cuckold to heed her advice and withing a minute or two or searing heated masturbation I screamed into a quite intense sissygasm.
I would have been well served to heed Tania’s warning’s and advice as the tip of the condom filled with my weak watery sissy mess and Tania used her finger tips to massage the dribbled offering into the already burning dome of my sissy clit thus starting off a chain reaction as the moisture of my filthy spendings made the juice of the Chilli explode into action and what I thought and suffered prior to my sissygasm was nothing compared to the torture and burning heat and irritation that now ensued that had me crumpled on the floor at Tania’s black stocking clad legs and high heels screaming and crying in a futile wish that it would be all over.
Well it did end eventually and I mean eventually three house of horrible suffering later Tania released me and I ran to the bathroom to wash my burnt little clit the result being the new cool water fired up the burning again and Tania stood behind me laughing informing me that she had forgot to tell me that it was best to let the heat die naturally not to add to the flames.
So, by bedtime the torture had died down at last, and I knew from then on that if any form of Chilli was written on the shopping list that I would almost have a nervous breakdown.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1074.
As a lifelong feminized sissy cuckold one thing I have noticed has been the ascendancy of the black male in the lifestyle.
When I got started being sissy cuckold Carla back in the mid to late seventies there was just a mere sprinkling of black men around that white married women could get their hands on so most of the guys stepping into a cuckoldress led relationships were white as well
I am not saying for one moment that this was a passion killer for either the Cuckoldress wife or the feminized sissy cuckold husband, but the pool of big cock was very hit and miss.
As the years went by of course it was the black man coming out of the inner-city ghetto’s that had the maturity ability and the hard learned sexual experience who accommodated himself perfectly into the Cuckoldress lifestyle scene knowing the taboo of interracial sex would make passions explode in the white Cuckoldress wife and the frenzied sissy cuckold husband.
The advent of the arrival of the black male on the scene also virtually assured the cuckoldress led couple of assured big black cock not something that more often than not resembled their husband pathetic little penis.
The black male also did his homework about the needs of the feminized sissy cuckold realizing that in a relationship with a Cuckoldress wife he also needed to control and dominate the feminized sissy cuckold up to and including getting involved with the punishment, mental tormenting and sexual abuse of the sissy cuckold with the agreement of the Cuckoldress wife of course.
So, these days the weight of control responsibility does not just rest on the wife’s shoulders but more often than not is shared with her black lovers, which of course leads to a totally more satisfying life for all concerned.
The off spin of the rise of the black male in cuckoldress led relationships and women in general wanting black lovers has led to the novel situation that white guys are just not getting any pussy what so ever and now out of desperation many white guys have come to understand that the only sex they are going to get is if the have feminized sissy cuckold girlfriends something that Cuckoldress wives love to utilize in their never ending chase for ways and mean’s to degrade and humiliate their sissy cuckold husbands making them submit to what can only be described as dressed up homosexual acts for her entertainment.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1073.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold it does help if you quickly get used to the fact that your so-called penis is utterly worthless to your wife and she now as a Cuckoldress views it as a complete waste of time.
Now she has real men seeing to all her sexual needs she will give you a second thought and eventually she will get utterly bored and annoyed about the effort she once in a while puts in to give you some relief.
And the fact is as cruel as it is the majority of cuckoldress wives conclude that the sissy cuckold’s relief is the height of selfishness and the sooner that pathetic need is beaten out of you the better for humankind in general.
And she like always is correct you are a feminized sissy cuckold and are there to serve and worship her femininity and womanhood not to be forever begging to squirt or even have erections as the sight of your waste of space is offensive now that she has perfect cocks to please her.
You can understand why so many Cuckoldresses leave it to nature to make the sissy cuckold squirt as accidents do happen as the sissy cuckold is basically unable to control its vile needs and urges even if in secure chastity or the Cuckoldress will farm out the sissy cuckolds relief into the hands of a filthy queer pervert or another feminized sissy cuckold for entertainment value.
Whatever the wife decides she is well within her rights as you are her property and be truthful would you feel good about yourself soiling her pretty hands with that weak watery muck that dribbles out of you occasionally.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1072.
With having my initiation to sexual things with women on a sissy cuckold level from the offset when I finally did con a girl into having normal sex with me the whole thing was a fiasco.
I still as a feminized sissy cuckold wonder if the very few girls that I was able to sweet talk into bed are to this day still traumatized by the event, for sure none of them invited me back for a second bite of the cherry as the old saying goes.
And from the many comments and withering verbal attacks I have had from all manner of women that have seen my tiny penis the consensus is that I am so small that the poor girls most probable did not feel a think as I humped away like a drooling moron on top of them
Of course because our feminized sissy cuckold ego’s are already so fragile over our penis size compared to our peers once we start being crushed by the truth escaping from between the lush lips of the women that get to see us we soon come to accept that we are not in any shape of form normal males if male at all.
And I suppose I am like so many feminized sissy cuckold that in the end I found comfort and even a sexual kinky thrill being lambasted at all angles by vicious barbed small penis humiliation and truly to this day I get intensely jealous if I come across another feminized sissy cuckold who’s sissy clit is smaller than mine in any way.