SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1030.
Pamela Alford was the first lady to have me lick her creampie pussy out all those years ago an event that set my mind and body into being what was already a developing feminized sissy cuckold at the time Pamela was thirty eight a real mature stunner with long black hair a rounded body and huge breasts an altogether very naughty woman.
So, if you have not read my novel Pamela gets her prize you can understand how I must have felt meeting her again by accident thirty years later when I moved back to Lincoln and she was now sixty-eight.
Yes she had aged but the basic beauty was still evident alone with the grey in her hair and sagging breasts and tummy but in the shop we bumped into each other in she was still nicely dressed and there was joy out of herself and of course me in meeting again.
Like some gentleman I walked her home from the shop carrying her bags and she certainly had not forgotten about my crossdressing, submissiveness and that she had fed me my first creampie.
On getting her to her home we had a coffee and she invited me round to her place that evening for a meal and a catch up as she was intrigued about Carla and how I had developed over the years.
Well, that evening I arrived in full sissy mode and after getting a drink each we settled down to talk with me actually kneeling at the same place by her as she sat of the sofa (new sofa of course after all the years that had passed)
And out it all came about being a feminized sissy cuckold with two marriages under my belt and my decision to return to living in Lincoln.
Pamela had cooked a lovely meal and after I had done the washing up and made coffee I returned to the lounge to find Pamela now, minus her dress lazing back on the sofa in just her brown high heels, brown stockings and white suspendered girdle with a filmy negligee over her torso.
Of course she had the body of an old woman not that was in anyway off putting to me, in fact I disgraced myself by having a tiny erection ibn my panties looking at her, so when Pamela told me to strip to my undies I complied without a seconds thought just elated that she wanted to use me again.
Pamela was hit by a giggling fit when she saw my penis and that it had not grown at all since she had last seen it and from then on a torrent of small penis abuse rained down upon me.
Of course there was no creampie pussy that night but Pamela had me down on her pussy and anus giving her all the orgasms she could handle and then after mentioning Fran who still lived up the road and were still as thick as thieves who had told each other in minute detail what each had done to me all them years ago Pamela then proceeded to use my mouth to urinate in, there was also foot worship and a lot more talking about every sordid aspect of my pathetic life until Pamela had me do what only Fran had done back then and she squatted over my mouth there in the lounge and defecated in my mouth making me consume her.
That night was the start of a close sordid filthy relationship of mature Cuckoldress and sissy cuckold as Pamela even at sixty-eight was still sexually active so there were lots of both pussy and anal creampies to clean and of course Fran was also back on the scene as neither could stop their wagging tongues.
I was devastated when Pamela passed away three years later.

SISSY CCKOLD HISTORY 1029.
One of the hazards of being a feminized sissy cuckold is that either single, married or dumped and divorced you are by your very nature open to all types of abuse.
It’s all part and partial of being a feminized sissy cuckold and as has been pointed out to me on many occasions it’s our fault anyway that many misfortunes befall us.
Many budding or lifelong Feminized sissy cuckolds are not predisposed to homosexuality even if our thing is serving the female up to and including cleaning her after she has had sex with a real man.
Now many would say that act is queer but in essence in our pathetic sissy cuckold minds we excuse ourselves by copping to the alibi that we were ordered to lick the woman clean thus absolving us from the responsibility pointing to the fact we would be told of or beaten if we refused and refusal is not something a feminized sissy cuckold does when it comes to the commands of its Cuckoldress.
I have also if ordered cleaned the bull up licking and sucking the sex slime from his spent cock and even sucking his balls as he has fucked my wife and horrendously to prove the man’s superiority to me licked ass.
And as a Feminized sissy cuckold I have also been ordered to engage in pathetic sissy sex with other sissy cuckolds and to be for entertainment of my cuckoldress subservient to gay men as they have used me like a woman.
All of this under orders is just bearable, I think they call it plausible deniability to sooth our tormented minds what we as Feminized sissy cuckolds also have to endure is against out minds our bodies react to the gross things being done to us and yes we totally against our will get little erections and shameful sissygasms.
What’s more concerning I have found over the years is the many situations I have found myself in where men have taken advantage of me when I have been alone or outside of a marriage.
It’s almost like the sissy cuckold attracts the attention of freaks and perverts who think they have every right to make the sissy cuckold do things and of course these brutes know we are super submissive scared of our own shadows and use threats and physical prowess as leverage to make us do what they want.
My worst experience was late one night after I had been to a fetish party I was being taken home by a seedy mini cab driver, I admit I was a bit under the influence and dig not help things by doing some silly flirting with him when he asked about me being a tranny and I told him I was a sissy cuckold.
The upshot was instead of taking me home he took me to his place and where he interfered with me after pressurizing me and plying me with more drink then suddenly becoming very demanding and even as I was squatting down in front of him sucking his cock he was on his cell phone calling some friends who all came round four others in fact.
They say women have the right to dress as they want without fear and I believe in that but also as a feminized sissy cuckold I know when we go out for an evening or anytime really we dress very feminine up to slut wear if we are going to a party or such so meekly as I was made to fuck and suck these five men I took on board their taunts that I was a slut and was gagging for it.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1028.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, I like so many others had to come to terms with having a pathetic little penis, now it’s one thing knowing it but its another thing entirely for other people shaming and ridiculing your woeful lack of manhood.
The humiliation and shame you feel once you realize that any woman who sees it will laugh, tease, torment and degrade you letting you be in no doubt you’ll never get to put your miserable little thing in Her’s or any other woman’s pussy is life devastating and like many feminized sissy cuckolds I did the only thing you can do when you know you’re a dud is to turn the small penis thing into a sexual fetish and get off on the humiliation and torment.
Just as bad is men seeing your lack of anything and they can be just as cruel and heartless as women.
The silly thing is the one section of humanity that you should feel at least secure with is other feminized sissy cuckolds but by the time you are in so deep into your kinks and fetishes there is often sissy bitchy competition over who has got the smallest clit.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1027.
For the new Cuckoldress wife if you have decided to feminize your husband the watch word is “No Half Measures!”
The Cuckoldress must make every last scrap of her husband’s male persona vanish for good via the black trash bag or a warming fire in the back yard.
This is to ensure no weakening of resolve no matter what event or appointment arises that sissy cuckold as to attend.
In the long run your sissy cuckold will thank you for making his feminization so strict with no time off as it’s far better that he faces the world now with what he really is than for it to come out later like some afterthought.

SISSY CUCKOLD 1026.
Many married women before they suss out or catch their husbands out yearning to be feminized sissy cuckold are already cheating on their husbands.
The statistics show that more women than men cheat, thus the feminized sissy cuckold if it moves carefully can get the desired result out of its wife if she is already getting her cock elsewhere.
It all comes down to communication a willingness on the husbands part to open up his feelings and emotions in a calm way laying open to its wife why he feels useless and inadequate for her and why this involves him being emasculated and feminized and put in chastity to serve her as the goddess she is and he loves and adores knowing he is not good enough or worthy enough for her and wants to be her mere maid and slave.
Being open and honest will in many, many cases see a great change in your married life specially if your wife is already cheating what you reveal to her will literally be the keys to the city as the old saying goes and no woman is going to turn that down specially after giving the lifestyle a go you fully support he in everything she does without compliant or putting overt pressure on her.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1025.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold, you have to learn that not all black men are the same.
In general, your Cuckoldress wife will steer clear of Africans and set her sights on either men from the Caribbean or Afro Americans.
The reason for this is knowledge the man from the Caribbean or the America’s has had access to white boy porn and the deviant workings of the mind when it comes to sex so is much more adept in easing into the bull role of a marriage, not only for the couples sexual needs but for his own as for the black male the involvement is not just about sex its about power and payback for what he rightfully sees as historic injustices and what better way to get even is there than to have a white married husband kneeling feminized locked in chastity made to watch a black man fuck its wife and submit to the most gross indignities and physical punishments.
The Cuckoldress wife can relax and be rest assured when she engages in a relationship with such a man that he will strive to learn and be fully engaged the world of the Cuckoldress and her feminized sissy cuckold husband.