SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1021.
So many things make a feminized sissy cuckold become addicted to what it is.
Just stop a second and think about when you were a so-called male, recall when you were out and about anywhere how everyone never even gave you a second look specially not women.
Let’s face it you were invisible just plane boring inconsequential you and believe me your aura radiated to people you were a no mark and specially for women they could pick up on the vibes that you were worthless and pathetic and had something seriously wrong with you, not quite a homosexual but nowhere near being a man.
Now look at yourself as a full time feminized sissy cuckold out and about doing your daily stuff and everyone can see you mincing around they are all looking at you.
At last in life you are being noticed and garnering reactions from people laughing at you to leering perverts drooling at the thoughts of what they want to do to you, women smile smugly catching sight of you checking out your make up and mode of dress to make sure you are doing your Cuckoldress, Mistress or Master proud in your comportment.
Other females set their sights on capturing you for themselves and will openly tease, torment and lure you into their web.
Even the negative reactions a feminized sissy cuckold can undergo such as being verbally abused, spat at, beaten up and derided is in the end a sign that you are no longer a nothing that’s never seen and let’s face it open vilification like those mentioned above can often lead to sexual assault which for the feminized sissy cuckold is a time it will comply and do its best to please the assailant to hopefully change its bigotry.

SISSY CUCKOLD PRESENT 1020.
The things us feminized sissy cuckolds do for love and adoration, I was up a tree cutting it back doing a day of hard toil for my first ex-wife and cuckoldress who in the sunshine was sitting at her bistro table with a coffee liberally shouting orders and commands and believe me nothing I do is ever good enough for her and leads to constant put downs and humiliation.
When suddenly I was flying through the air after the ladder gave way or whatever and I had a nasty fall which on top of bruising my face smashed my top denture and hurt my leg and arm on the right side.
Of course, to be expected Anne complained that some of my blood had stained one of her new light-colored steppingstones but she was at least happy that I was not more badly hurt so as to recover quicker to get back to doing the tasks she wants me to complete.
The downside for me is that I had to put off the arranged day of fun and sordid games with Gina, which was a pity.
Now it’s time to heal the face and to get to dentist for repairs before I am back in action again.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1019.
For those Femininized sissy cuckolds that were not lucky enough to learn the art of housework from their mothers or Aunts way back when the nuances of being your Cuckoldresses perfect Sissy Cuckold French Maid can come at very painful expense.
Let’s face it quite a few males are pretty fucking dense when it comes to the housework abilities that it needs to look after the home to the standard the Cuckoldress wife will require.
The only way the new Feminized sissy cuckold learns with enough speed so as not to annoy the Cuckoldress wife further is the use of sadistic brutal punishment for everything connected to running the homestead.
And believe me the Cuckoldress wife will gladly accept an aching arm at days end if it propels her sissy cuckold to do things properly.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1018.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold of many a year both a married one and a dumped and divorced on it has always amazed me the reactions that you get from women when you tell them what you are when you are trying to start another relationship, of course back in the early days it was more of a case of being caught out and made to confess which was back then for me like many others shameful and humiliating but eventually liberating.
But once you have accepted yourself and what you are explaining the difference between you and a transvestite becomes an exciting exposure that is something to enjoy.
Telling a woman what you are placing no pressure of her is an eye opener as to a woman they are not nasty about your revelation even if they do not want to proceed further with you, but before they turn you down they want to know the ins and outs of what a feminized sissy cuckold is and does and will make a wide range of comments from sneering contempt, teasing slurs that you are a vile little pervert and no wonder no woman wants to entertain you to the other side of the equation where they dig out of you your dirtiest desires and needs gleefully teasing and taunting you at your inadequacies.
In general if you are confessing all to a woman and it gets to the point that she wants to see your excuse for a penis there is a good chance she will want to use and abuse you to whatever extent she is comfortable with, this may lead to a friendship where you do jobs and housework for her as a maid and even to foot worship, mild punishment and getting her gifts as you try to please her.
Of course, there will be the women you meet that will want to do more and if you let them explore without pressuring them the results can be amazing.
Bethany a lady I knew as a friend was a case in point I met her after Tania had dumped and divorced me, she was a middle aged divorced woman, nicely dressed and pretty even if she was a larger lady who I got chatting with in the restaurant in the Sovereign Centre in Weston Super Mare one lunch she was sitting at the table next to me and copped me as a transvestite so struck up a conversation where I explained what I was which intrigued her
Over the next month or so our friendship developed where we would meet for lunch and gossiped and she dug deep into me about my perversions and kinks.
I really did not think that anything more was going to occur but then late one Saturday night I got a call from her and asked if she could come round to my place, which of course I agreed she could.
What transpired was that she wanted to see if I really would clean up creampie pussy which of course I was more than happy to oblige thus it was a start of a much kinkier friendship where she explored some pretty deviant stuff with me.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1017.
One thing I learned being a twice dumped and divorces feminized sissy cuckold is that not being totally under the control of the Cuckoldress wife places you in a very grey area.
As you can appreciate sissy cuckolds alone again have dire trouble running their own lives after so long as being just a maid/slave only there to do not to think.
This with the terror of the new enforced way of single life the feminized sissy cuckold makes endless mistakes and errors of judgement mostly propelled by its manic need to be involved in sex on any level and shamefully for the sissy cuckold because it’s not getting Cuckoldress fed creampies to clean it finds itself craving spunk.
For this spunk fix the sissy cuckold will utterly humiliate and degrade itself by going with other sissies even though their type of milk is the weak watery type that gives not satisfaction.
Or they will go with literally any woman that will entertain them from grannies to uglies to obese women no matter what hygiene state they are in.
I myself went down these routes often and still do but also like so many other dumped and divorced sissy cuckolds I became prey to what I regard the freaks and perverts brigade.
My first slide into this sleazy sordid arena was one night at a Fetish party I was at I was accosted and chatted up by a slug of a man he must have been 20 to 25 stones and every inch perverted looking and although not nice looking he had the gift of the gab so to speak and skillful hands that teased and tormented me as we sat in the booth we were in chatting, shamefully at the end of the night I allowed him to take me back to his hotel room and let him have sex with me.
Why I did this is all part of my emotional make up from being a submissive feminized sissy cuckold who was abused by my step father many moons ago and is naturally terrified by homosexuality but the shame and revulsion I feel about the issue also drives me to self-punish if you can get your head round that?
After fucking Peter as his name was and myself spoke at length about why we are what we are, and he wondered if I might be interested in attending a private party he had with some of his friends to be what he termed the entertainment.
I was terrified by his suggestion but also pulled to the shameful depravity that it would bring to my submissive nature so after a lot more talk and soul searching I accepted his offer.
Two weeks later Peter picked me up from my home and I was whisked away to his place for the weekend.
What I came face to face with was Peter and nine other sleazy pervert’s men of sexual tastes which were horrendous, Peter stripped me to my Lingerie, high heels and Stockings in front of these men and then the weekend started where I was sexually used with no right of refusal to do anything they wanted.
I was fucked so hard and often not only with their cocks but with an eye watering array of implements I could hardly stand and my mind was reduced to a sewer of cock craving sucking and fucking like a dirty whore.
They also used my mouth as their urinal and relived themselves all over me and this was just the first night of the three-day weekend.
Thankfully I was allowed to bathe, sleep and change my outfits so got a little rest and food before the assaults began again the following day and was eternally thankful on late Saturday afternoon when another sissy was brought into the party which was attended by six more guys on top of Peter and the other nine.
By the time Peter took me home I could hardly sit for a week with my sissy pussy prolapsing repeatedly and I slept and slept with utter exhaustion, but my self-shaming mental needs had been utterly fulfilled, and I had swallowed and taken a vast amount of sperm in the process.