SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1001.
In all my years as a feminized sissy cuckold it has never ceased to amaze me how women who entertain marriage to us or just dating us all seem to want to see us being fucked and used by men.
It seems to me that many women have an intense interest in seeing this colorful display of what is basically homosexuality with the added twist that gives the woman a thrill knowing the sissy cuckold will be suffering humiliation and shame being used as a piece of fuck meat for a raging queer.
What’s worse for the feminized sissy cuckold is that under strict orders of dire consequences it has to put on an act of really enjoying cock sucking, spunk swallowing, ass rimming and being fucked like a slut.
In my own feminized sissy cuckold mind I have never been attracted to queer sex and only started it under orders of women who wanted to witness the sordid act but I found to my shame and humiliation that no matter how sickened and appalled I was as the act went on my pathetic body reacted and my sissy clit told no lies and I was powerless against the feelings a cock fucking my sissy pussy brought on and then the shame of a sissygasm.
Over the years I have come to accept not only myself as a feminized sissy cuckold but also to revel in the shame and self-disgust and at times have put myself in positions where men have taken advantage of me other than me acting under orders of a woman which mitigates a lot of responsibility for the sordid queer acts.
I suppose a feminized sissy cuckold comes to understand that its role in life is to be used and abused and to serve as a sex toy for anyone that needs sexual relief!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1000.
One of the most devastating occurrences in the life of the feminized sissy cuckold is that moment when it comes under the control of actual women and it’s secret fantasy life becomes reality, prior to the exposure the feminized sissy cuckold lives the life of Riley as the old saying goes,
And don’t say you do not understand as all of us were wanking our little clits till they almost dropped off being an in the closet sissy cuckold.
So, the sudden change of being able to erect fiddle and squirt without by your or leave to being controlled with an Iron fist that denies even erections let alone sissy squirts is mentally crushing and it takes a lot for many feminized sissy cuckolds to come to terms with its predicament.
The difference between having fantasies about being in chastity under a cuckoldress to actually having to live it is a massive hurdle to surmount but no matter how much you suffer during this time because it’s what the Cuckoldress wants there is no option to pull out and the sissy cuckold will just have to suck it up and grow to accept its place in life.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 999.
There is little wonder that the Cuckoldress wife or partner berates us feminized sissy cuckolds for our selfishness when it comes to our relief.
There is no use in denying it us sissy cuckolds think of little else than to achieve our sissy squirt so it’s understandable that the Cuckoldress wife early on steps in and takes full control over our sissy clits and what it can and cannot do.
The control over the feminized sissy cuckold’s sissy clit will become total from enduring chastity and even in extreme cases penectomy the cuckoldress having the penis removed for the good of womanhood world over.
But along with the physical control a Cuckoldress exerts there is also the verbal thus emotional control she subjects sissy cuckold to.
For myself this started early with being exposed by my mother as being a kinky cross-dresser and her sneering comments that I had nothing of any importance as I erected against the sole of her nylon-clad foot and from then on there were disparaging comments, teasing and snide remarks about my as she sweetly put it disability.
Then there was Fran after she had kissed me dressed as a woman where she felt me up at that fancy dress party that she could not fuck me as I was so small and straight away after told every one of her female friends what a small, dicked loser in women’s clothes I was.
From that party onwards when Pamela and Fran used me at their leisure they both in their own ways heaped on the shame and humiliation of my little penis neither one ever allowing me to have intercourse with them only using my mouth for the things they wanted.
Then Wendy got in on the act, and she used small penis humiliation to devastating effect on me in her no-nonsense medical manner.
Back home the sticky subject of masturbation was utterly frowned upon and because it seemed like my mother had eyes on her ass cheeks and a sixth sense about me touching myself any little tugging I did do was fraught with danger so was very limited.
Ejaculations at home tended to be nasty accidents in the tights or panties that I was in or wet dreams.
Later on, when married to Tania she put it in her own sweet loving way when she stated that, If it was not big enough to fuck with there was no earthly reason why she should allow the nasty little thing to erect or allow me the pleasure of filthy wanking let alone squirting my disgusting milk.
And of course, that is our final feminized sissy cuckold shame the sissy milk, as sissy cuckolds we see all too often the prodigious volume of sperm a able big cocked male can produce compared to our little offering that unlike real men’s sperm does not fire out like shots from a cannon arching many feet across the room but ours leaks and dribbles out and on the odd occasion may fly a little to soak our cuckoldresses nylon clad feet earing us well deserved punishment.
And feminized sissy cuckolds also intimately understand as they see and consume sperm so often that a real males load is rich thick and creamy with that salty tang where’s the sissy cuckolds is thin and watery with no consistency at all.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 998.
What causes a young male to end up as a feminized sissy cuckold? It’s a question that rages in every lad that ends up in the lifestyle’s clutches.
Of course, there is on one thing that causes the males downfall but one thing that all budding feminized sissy cuckolds have in common is the fact that when in its first lingerie, hosiery and it masturbates the ensuing pathetic orgasm is life changingly powerful far more intense than anything the budding sissy has every experienced before.
This is nature’s way of fixing the budding sissy cuckold on to its intended life course with utterly no way to combat it and from that squirt onwards the lad is trapped into a life that is consumed with sexual needs that control its every breathing moment.