i've been thinking about what i want done to me, but now i'm just thinking i'd like to have my Masters –and there should be many of them – doing whatever they want, experimenting how many ways they can hurt me, whether they can think of things that could still humiliate me and make me feel even more degraded... really, how far they could take it. And, importantly, I would want zero "safeword," or any way out of it, ever. But I would not want to be killed, or to have my clit damaged so I could never get horny from it, even if i wouldn't necessarily alolowed to cum... maybe i would sometimes, or maybe not, up to my Masters like everything else. But the most degrading thing is to be forced to demonstrate how wet i get from it all, so probbly don't take away my clitty, i'm thinking. thank you for listening to my stupid fantasies everyone... still not sure if i will ever really dare to do any of this. lackmailers welcome, to, you know, maybe get me started own the path to ruin and shame...

i'm done with having limits, but i'm also a coward. trying to work up the nerve to let the boys treat me like i deserve...

okay... my new profile pic is from when i let a couple of guys catheterize me and, you know, other stuff. it was very intense!

i also want to note that while i have an extremely strong misogyny fetish, i don't go along with any of the politics in it. antifeminism is a delightful fetish for me, but the way it is expressed in some of the captions are often too stupid to turn me on. so, to the folks out there who are making excellent misogyny themed captions, thank you! and for the folks who are making idiotic, over-politicised captions: a) do better, and b) can't you hate women without making it all about politics?

i've been adding some galleries lately... i'm pretty sure they won't get me banned. my preference is for drawings and comics rather than for photographs of other women, but these are all photos that i love, and that i look at when i am playing with myself. my favorite drawing are in my "favorites" collection... i dare not post them myself, because i have had my account suspended twice for posting stuff that is not considered appropriate for this site. but i really do lean towards the darker fantasies, and i really like art that expresses my own fantastical predelictions... i express them myself in my stories and books, but i can't draw!

i just added a gallery... i hope i don't get in trouble for posting these, but i believe they are all consensual SM photos... even if they are pretty scary looking!??