OMG my balls want to just spew cum all over the place. I want to get myself soo bad! I have pumped my cock four times already this morning, and I have fucked myself with a nine inch dildo twice, trying to find some relief. I can't keep my hand from touching and playing with my cock and balls. After all the pumping my cock is thick and huge, and feels soo good in my hand. My balls are plump and full of cum. Every time I touch myself I can my balls wanting to let go. The issue is that I do not want to cum, I want to make a new video next week. I wanna produce a very large cumshot for the video. I don't know how I am going to be able to wait that long.

I so badly need to get away for a weekend by myself. I want to just shave off my body hair, and slip into some sexy lingerie. Spend the entire weekend working on my hair and makeup (which I have never done), and getting myself all girlie upped.

And then to find out that I had been spied on through a window by another girlie with a nice big thick cock. She would blackmail me with the pictures she had taken while I was getting dressed, and playfully force me to be her little bitch. She would slap my cock and balls around, as she repeatedly fucked my throat with her hard cock. Reaching her peak, she pulls out of my mouth, and throws me over, and drives her raging hard on into my tight sissy cunt. Within moments of my joyful squeals, I feel a warm rush, as she releases her girlie cum into my now aroused pussy.

This is what I think about while I am sucking an eight inch dildo into my mouth and throat, and fucking my girlie cunt with another ten inch dildo. I can take the whole eight inches down and into my throat, with minimal gagging. And I can now take over eight inches of the two inch diameter dildo up my ass with enjoyment, before it starts to be uncomfortable. I so wish I could find another crossdresser nearby to have some fun with.

I had the most erotic and exciting dream last night. It was one of those flash dreams that doesn't last long, or at least doesn't seem to last long. I don't remember everything, but I do remember being with someone else, and they were helping me with something. The next thing I know I am bent over and I have my own cock in my mouth and I am sucking on it. I wasn't able to get very much of it into my mouth, but I was able to suck on my head and maybe another inch of the shaft. I remember enjoying it soo much, that I just kept sucking on what I could. I could feel it getting harder and harder in my mouth. No matter how hard I tried or stretched, I could not get it into my throat. My throat wanted to feel my cock head and my cock wanted to penetrate my throat badly. I remember the intensity grew to the point that I exploded a load of cum into my mouth. The huge load that I expelled caught me off guard, even though I knew it was coming, but I didn't pull away from my cock. I feared that I would never be able to get my cock in my mouth again, and I wanted to keep sucking my cock forever. I did not want to let it go. As I swallowed the first load of cum, feeling the creamy liquid as it slid down my throat, it caused an intense sensation in my cock and balls. My cock exploded again, and loaded my mouth full of cum once again. Each time I would swallow my cum, the same intense sensation would happen again. Load after load of cum, I would keep swallowing and my cock would just keep erupting each time I swallowed. I don't remember how many times I came in my own mouth, it was too many times to count. I do remember that I loved it and wanted it to continue forever. Something woke me from my dream, I am not sure how long that dream actually was, but I know it was far to short for me. When I did wake from the dream, I did reach down to find a very nice rigid hard cock under the covers. One night hopefully soon, I will be able to do it again. Maybe next time I will be able to get all of it into my mouth and throat.

So I was promised sex last night, but for some reason it just didn't happen. We both fell asleep before we even got started, lol. This morning I awoke to find a huge set of balls. My wife noticed them and said "Oh my God your balls are huge." and walked over and gave them a quick squeeze and fondling. "I guess I should have stayed awake last night, could have missed something really good! Oh well maybe tonight." and walked out of the room. I just received a text message telling me that if I was dressed and wearing underwear to take them off right now, and leave them off. "And don't you even think about getting yourself off, that is my cum and I want it when I get home."

Just sitting here wearing my black long leg panty girdle accented with a black strapless bra and sheer stockings. I am using my cock pump at the moment and watching as precum oozes out of my cock head. I wish I was flexible enough to suck my own cock, I would love to feel it shoot a big load of cum into my own mouth.

Okay, so I headed to the park today after visiting the store. I wasn't really expecting to get anything accomplished as it was very cloudy, and it was looking as though it would rain, but I thought I would go for the drive anyway. Upon entering the park I found only a few cars and they were at the main location. I continued to drive through the park all the way to the back, and then turned around to head back to the shelter house where one of my picture taking locations is at. I had seen no one except for the cars parked at the very front of the park.

I was still wearing my girdle and pantyhose and I had slipped my PALS back into my girdle after leaving the store, so I thought I could snap off a few pictures before the rain rolled in. Now this is the shelter house, where last month I had met the man as I came out of the trees after taking pictures. I was going to walk through the shelter house and head down to the water. Just before I got through the shelter house I spied something lying on the floor. It was a condom package, more evidence that this was a location for sex. I don't know who, or what they used that condom for, but somebody had some fun here. And after doing a bit of research after last month trip, I found that there is someone that frequents this park, in order to suck guys off. I wanted to take a picture of the wrapper for fun, but my camera had reset itself, and I could not get it figured out the settings before I spied a car coming down the road. I quickly walked into the tree cover, and watched as the car slowed down, as it went past the shelter house and then drove on down the road. I went ahead and went down to the water and figured out the camera settings and decided to snap off a few quick and easy pictures. I took my sweatshirt off and was just gonna snapped a few pictures of me in my jeans showing just my girdle top. Next thing ya know, I have my pants down and I am putting on one of my cock straps. LOL

Putting my clothes back on and heading out of the trees, I found that the car that had previously drove by was now sitting in the same parking area as my car. Another strange encounter at this shelter house. Turn out to be an older gentleman that was sitting in his car reading, still seems a bit strange that he drove past there twice and then came back there and parked. Not sure if he could see me clearly from where he was at, but if he could, he would have known that I was wearing something extra under my shirt. We waved at one another as drove past heading back deeper into the park.

I had headed back to my number two spot for some more picture taking, the clouds had dissipated quite a bit and it was looking like it would turn nice. I had snapped a couple of pictures with my shirt pulled up and playing with my tits, and a couple more with my pants dropped down, when all of a sudden I felt very uncomfortable. I figured I had better stop and clear out of this area, and head farther into the trail part of the park for more privacy. I had no more then came out of the tree cover and was about to get into my car when two women came jogging down the road. Wow was that close! The issue was that I got a bit heated up taking the last set of pictures, and decided not to put my sweatshirt back on, only my tee shirt. The problem is that the tee shirt does not hide anything, you can clearly see that I am wearing a bra, or in this case a girdle. And the fact that my PALS were in place, made that all the clearer. The two women had slowed to a walk and I figured that they were taking a break before start their job back to the front of the park. But nooo, they decided to jog on to the back of the park where the trail begins. That meant I had to wait for them to jog all the way to the back and then back past me. Surprisingly and thankfully, they did it pretty quickly.

I packed up my things and headed out to hike to the trails and find a spot that was secluded. I really wanted to get out of my street clothes, and get naked with nature. As much as I searched, I could not find any where that I felt comfortable. I came to the end of the road, where the trail begins and I knew that no one was around the area. So I snapped a few pictures of me standing in front of the trail sign. Then I figured what the hell, the camera was set up, so I got naked and took a couple more pictures. I still did not feel comfortable here. On my last trip here, I had felt very comfortable here. And I had gotten naked and snapped off quite a few pictures, but today I didn't. I decided to head down the trail farther and see if anything came to be.

I had hiked down the trail almost a half mile and was ready to give up finding a spot to get naked. I convinced myself to continue on for another quarter mile and then turn back, boy was I glad I continued on. I came upon an area where I could just make out a clearing below, by the waters edge, but you couldn't get there from the top where I was at. So I back tracked until I found a way down. It was a bit treacherous, and I had to side track and back track a bit, but I finally found a way in.

Once down along the water I found an even better spot that was totally open, yet was completely concealed from the top and surrounding area. I felt totally safe getting naked here, and had no problem peeling off my street clothes and just walking around in my lingerie. I was able to take my time and shoot pictures at my leisure. While taking the pictures, I even started wishing that someone was hiding somewhere in the trees, watching me as I posed for the camera. I wondered what they would have been thinking and/or what would they would have done. It is a very beautiful spot, and I will frequent it often. Someday, I hope to have someone to share it with.

Pictures to follow

Feeling a bit mischievous today, and can't quite figure out what to do about it. I awoke very early this morning to a raging hard cock. I keep finding my hand playing with it through my sweat pants, but I refuse to get myself off at this point. I have a feeling that I am going to head to the park today and take a bit of a hike, maybe snapping a few pictures along the way. I have been wearing some of my lingerie for hours now, and for some reason, it is extra arousing to me today. Nothing special, just a white long leg all in one girdle with a pair of nude pantyhose underneath. Of course my PALS are inserted and they look great.

I really wish I could find a friend that has the same interests and that I could share my fetish with. Someone that I could talk with and share experiences with personally. Someone that would help with taking pictures, and from time to time make sure that my cock was nice and hard beneath my panties for a better photo. I would love to be able to help that someone in the same way. I do want a friend that will allow me suck his cock, and play with his balls. Maybe I would even finger his ass while I sucked him. I don't know if I would be open to ass fucking each other, but maybe that would cum later as time passed. Not really looking for a soul mate, just someone that would want to get together from time to time and shoot some discrete lingerie pictures.

Okay, enough said, I need to put on some jeans and head to the store.

I haven't post any of thoughts as of late. I get that way sometimes, I just don't feel like taking the time to say anything. But yesterday was a day that I must spill the beans about. I had the day off and was planning on ding some small chores around the home. It was a perfect time to wear some feminine attire under my work clothes. I found an open bottom girdle that I had not worn as of yet, other then to just try it on. I purchased it on eBay some time ago. It is a vintage Montgomery Wards Open bottom bullet cup girdle in a size 40B, it is very pretty and fits me very well. I slipped into a pair of off white pantyhose and then slid my black open cock and balls brief up over the pantyhose. Pulling the girdle up past my hips, I could feel it starting to shape and conform my body, oh it felt soo good. Inserting my Pals into the cups of the girdle game me that look I so love with a girdle. Finishing off the ensemble, I selected a pair of Secrets in Lace sheer black stockings and fastened them to the girdle's garters.

I decided to hell with the work that needed done, it could wait until later, and to take some pictures of myself. After all this was the first time I had worn this piece and I did need some pictures to see how I looked in it. I snapped off about eighty pictures in different poses from various areas of the house. After finishing the photo shoot I had to upload the pictures to the computer and crop them. As I was finishing the pictures, for some reason, it popped into to my mind that I really wanted to just go outside in my lingerie. Where I live I didn't dare do that, but I did throw some jeans and a t shirt on and headed outside for a bit anyway. I walked out through the back yard and over around the garage and past my car. At that point it dawned on me what I needed to do. I needed to find somewhere that I could get naked (in my lingerie) in the great outdoors and take some pictures. Now this is something that I have wanted to do for years, but I never seamed to think about it when I had the time, so it has never happened.

I decided at that moment, that it was going to happen, and happen right now. I gathered up the things that I needed and threw them into my backpack. I was a bit shy at first thought, I kept my jeans and t shirt, but removed my Pals from my girdle. I just wasn't sure how it would look with me driving through a busy town with very noticeable size C/D boobs under my t shirt (lol). I soon got through the busy part of town and remembered that there is a little park just before you leave the city limits. The park was empty except for one car, so I pulled in and parked, and then slipped my Pals back into my girdle. I buckled up my seat belt, and instantly noticed how the belt split my two breast apart and define them even more then before. I was so glad I didn't try driving through town with them in place, I would have definitely turned quite a few heads. It was strange how nervous I was when cars came at me from the opposite direction. I felt as though they could see my breasts from a mile away, of course they couldn't though. I did take advantage and set up the camera on the passenger seat and shoot a few pictures while driving. Damn my tits look good driving down the road!

I got to the park that I figured I could find a spot to shoot some pictures, to find that it was actually pretty busy with quite a few folks around. Damn, I thought. Oh well I could at least scope things out and find some areas to come back to later. I continued my way through the park to he back and found the further I went the less people there were. Parking at the back, there was a car with a dad and some kids that were fishing. They were out of site once they got to the waters edge, so I thought I would give this area a shot. But it seemed that everybody else and their neighbor decided to drive all the way through the park to turn around. I decided that I would get my cock pump out and pump my cock a little bit, and give it some time to see what happened. Things mellowed out after a bit and I had built up my nerve enough to get out of the car and walk over to the tree line. I had noticed a side trail that headed down to the waters edge, and thought that would be a nice place to scope out. I did grab my camera and little tripod just in case. Boy was I glad I took the camera.

I found a small fishing spot, it was cleared out a little, but it wasn't very big. I looked around carefully to make sure I couldn't see the dad and kids, or anyone else for that matter. I was nervous as hell, yet very excited. I had to really look to find a spot to set the camera and for myself to stand. There was a lot of over growth that hindered me. I was getting even more nervous, but decided to just drop my pants and lift my shirt and go for it. I snapped a couple quick pictures and got the hell out of there. Back in the car, I checked out the pictures real quick, I was glad that I had gotten bold enough to get naked and snap the pictures. But now I wanted more, but needed a safer place where I could really get some quality nature shots.

At the end of the end of the road there is a walking trail that extends for some 8-9 miles, I remembered from hiking and biking this trail that were side trails, that were secluded. I decided that I would go for a walk. On that walk I found two more nice spots for picture taking. But it was quite a walk when wearing layered lingerie under your street clothes, next time I think I will bike into those areas. On my way back out of the park, the park was now empty, I stopped every time I seen a trail cut through the trees to check it out. I found a few more sites with opportunity.

One my last stop before leaving the park, there was a shelter house. Walking through it, I thought it would be kinda coll to get naked (as I call it), and snap a couple of pictures. I scoped things out really well, and I hadn't seen any cars or people for quite some time. So I set up the camera on a table, got naked and sat on the wall of the shelter and snapped a couple of quick pictures. That made me nervous as hell, as I was pretty much right out in the open, totally in public view. I no more then put my shirt back on and pulled up my pants when a car came down the road. I was sitting there tying my shoes when the car stopped and parked about 100 yards from me. I didn't give it much thought at the time, but the car had slowed quite a bit before it decided to pull in and park. I got up and walked around bit as though I was just checking things out the scenery, and then walked down a trail to the water. That turned out to be the best place to take pictures, so I dropped my pants and clicked off a few quick ones. I didn't want to spend too much time taking pictures as I was unsure about where the occupants of the car were at. Coming off the trail I found the driver of the car, a man, standing about twenty feet from the trail head. He was just standing there smoking a cigarette, we kinda nodding to each other, and went our separate ways. Getting into the car, I began to wonder if that man was there for something or someone. When we looked at each other, he gave me a look as though he was expecting me to be someone important to him. I now wonder if he was there to met up with another guy, and thought it might have been me. What a strange encounter that would have been, could have been a nice twist though. I am thinking I am going back today at the same time and place and see if he shows again. Maybe I'll get to suck my first man size cock, that would be wonderful.

I left the park and drove down the road a few miles to another trail head and checked that out. It is a very secluded area and has many promising photo opportunities. I did manage to get a few pictures from that area, but I forgot bot my camera and my boobies, so I was a bit disappointed in that. The drive and hike turned out to be a wonderful experience and helped me build my boldness to go back and get more nature pictures. I had a great time and tons of fun. And that guy at the park, I am going back there today, in the same spot to see if he shows up. I might even make sure that he sees a little bit of nylon from my pants leg. Pictures will be posted soon.