Lois popped around yesterday, just a social call really to check on me which felt nice. Me , Mother and Lois sat round chatting as if nothing unusual was happening. No mention of Lois's boyfriend. Lois noticed the house had changed a little bit but didn't mention it. After an hour or so, Lois said she was going home, which was a bit difficult to hear. She said she could drop Mother off at home if she wanted a lift. Mother said I am home, I live here now! Lois was shocked, but said she was pleased that we were together again. They both hugged which was lovely. Lois said I do love him, but just not in the right way. Mother said she understood and said she didn't like the fact Lois has hurt me but she understood completely and hopes she will stay in our lives after the divorce. Lois said she hopes that she can too. Quite an emotional afternoon, but positive
Thank you to all for the lovely messages of support at this difficult times. Mother has been wonderful and has now fully installed herself with me. The sale of her house is well under way. Lois has been keeping a very low profile but has messaged me now and again asking if I'm ok. Although Mother is now living with me full time, I must admit I am missing Lois and I still feel lonely is that makes sense.
Saturday was not a good day for me. Lois made contact and said that she was coming over with her boyfriend to collect her things. I did think of going out and leaving them to it, but decided against it. I realised a couple of weeks ago, that she had not mentioned who her boyfriend was, yesterday she told me it was the man she had first cuckolded me with all those years ago. It turns out he has been fucking her on and off for most of our married life together. I felt sick inside and now I just feel numb , if not dumb. I wish I was courageous enough to punch him, but I'm not and he knows it. He made a few sarcastic comments as they removed her stuff. I don't think I've ever hated anyone so much in my life. The house seems so empty without her, but Mother has already started moving in with me and is filling the void. Mothers house has been on the market less than a week and she already has a buyer.
