I've been having a lot of discussions this week with Mother over my future now Lois has decided to divorce me. To be honest she always said it would never work and she was right, however she hasn't really thrown a load of told you so's at me. Mother feels it best for us both that we live together again, so I can look after her needs and I have agreed. However I had to confess to Mother that I still long for a Daddy of my own, Mother understands my needs, luckily Mother can be incredibly pragmatic in such matters and said, she sees no reason why I can't have one as well. It feels like having my cake and eating it. Mother has had a valuation on her home and is now planning to sell it and move in with me and that way we we can pay Lois off, when the time comes. All this has come very suddenly but it feels right. I'm very sad about me and Lois, but I'm excited that I have something to look forward to.

I've often wondered if this day would ever come. I/we've been so close to this before but always just avoided it. Lois sat me down yesterday and said, I'm sorry but I don't love you any more, well I do, but not like I used to. At one time I would have thought the bottom had fallen out of my world, but inside I was secretly relieved and to be honest started to think of the opportunities that this offered me. I asked her if she was in love with her boyfriend and she said yes, he's the one. I don't mean to be hurtful, but he's everything your not. After a brief conversation, Lois said she was going to move in with him. I wished her good luck and I meant it. I hope that we can remain good friends, in the way perhaps we should always have been. Lois took off her wedding ring and handed it to me and said it felt like a removing a weight off her shoulders. She kissed me on the cheek and said she was sorry and she'd be around in a few days to collect her things. I had a little cry when she left, after all we've known each other for a long time and any breakup is painful. I phoned Mother to tell her our news and predictably she's delighted. I'm excited and nervous about the future right now. I'm going to spend some time with Mother today.