SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1001.
In all my years as a feminized sissy cuckold it has never ceased to amaze me how women who entertain marriage to us or just dating us all seem to want to see us being fucked and used by men.
It seems to me that many women have an intense interest in seeing this colorful display of what is basically homosexuality with the added twist that gives the woman a thrill knowing the sissy cuckold will be suffering humiliation and shame being used as a piece of fuck meat for a raging queer.
What’s worse for the feminized sissy cuckold is that under strict orders of dire consequences it has to put on an act of really enjoying cock sucking, spunk swallowing, ass rimming and being fucked like a slut.
In my own feminized sissy cuckold mind I have never been attracted to queer sex and only started it under orders of women who wanted to witness the sordid act but I found to my shame and humiliation that no matter how sickened and appalled I was as the act went on my pathetic body reacted and my sissy clit told no lies and I was powerless against the feelings a cock fucking my sissy pussy brought on and then the shame of a sissygasm.
Over the years I have come to accept not only myself as a feminized sissy cuckold but also to revel in the shame and self-disgust and at times have put myself in positions where men have taken advantage of me other than me acting under orders of a woman which mitigates a lot of responsibility for the sordid queer acts.
I suppose a feminized sissy cuckold comes to understand that its role in life is to be used and abused and to serve as a sex toy for anyone that needs sexual relief!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1000.
One of the most devastating occurrences in the life of the feminized sissy cuckold is that moment when it comes under the control of actual women and it’s secret fantasy life becomes reality, prior to the exposure the feminized sissy cuckold lives the life of Riley as the old saying goes,
And don’t say you do not understand as all of us were wanking our little clits till they almost dropped off being an in the closet sissy cuckold.
So, the sudden change of being able to erect fiddle and squirt without by your or leave to being controlled with an Iron fist that denies even erections let alone sissy squirts is mentally crushing and it takes a lot for many feminized sissy cuckolds to come to terms with its predicament.
The difference between having fantasies about being in chastity under a cuckoldress to actually having to live it is a massive hurdle to surmount but no matter how much you suffer during this time because it’s what the Cuckoldress wants there is no option to pull out and the sissy cuckold will just have to suck it up and grow to accept its place in life.