I subconsciously want to help the BNWO but my conscious brain needs to be talked into it... The best way would be to comment on my ex's gallery... She fucked her black teacher when she was 16 and he was 32, I met her a year later and was in a bad wreck and I'm a coma, then she got drunk less than a mile away with her friend who brought 3 BBCs and got gangbanged... I want to know the details of what happened or continues to happen... In her brain? I need strong hypno stuff... Look at my favorites BBC hypno.... I look at that and listen to "big black cock music" on SoundCloud but it's not working yet. Maybe make captions of my ex? Idk.
I do not want this, I make myself sick thinking about it... I just to get it over with. Can... WILL you please help me?

I've thought about my ex for over 15 years and how she left me when I was in a coma for BBC... I think her friend Lauren introduced her to BBC for the first time she had it since high school. She fucked her black teacher who was 32 when she was 16 and didn't go black again until I was in a coma...
If you can do this for me it will really help the BNWO because I want to help recruit white teens.... This is just subconsciously though, I consciously do not want to do this, but I'm trying to get help to trick my conscience self into loving what my ex loves now... God, I need help.