So what do you think of all this whingeing? Just an old, bitter loner. That’s what I was when I was young, handsome and clever too, so why would things be any better now that I’m an old loser?
I started taking Lion's mane mushroom to improve my memory. I don’t think it works for that. But I do actually feel less anxious and depressed. Off topic? Well, I just wanted somewhere online to write this down, and I hope no one takes medical advice from porn sites.
I was remained that in the northern hinterland it was kind of a cliché that lonely men could get a wife from Thailand. But even if that was still true in this Asian century, in reality that's the same problem as straight men always have, you have to take the first step. Actually it's possible that women flirted more with me than I thought, when I was young and good looking. But the point is, it's not like I could travel to Chiang Mai and wait for a woman to approach me and say: "I'm just a middle age dirtbag like you, so don't say maybe"
Being Swedish my first crush was an ethnic Finnish girl. And the first one I met on a dating app was ethnic Finnish. Therefore it was good I got a crush on a woman from the Philippines. You know how Finnish ladies complain that men having fetish for the Finnish, but if I goes for an East Asian, no one will ever think that's a fetish.
